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– Hide quoted text — Show quoted text – Hello all it saddens and sickens me reading all your posts. We are so strong but are so weak. I have had anxiety for 10 years. I often wonder what horrible thing I must have done to recieve this burden. and I laugh at myself knowing I have created this world for me. That the illness lies within my mind and not my body. I feel all your pain and my own. A sickly haze sets over the person I used to be. I worry all the time and get no relief. I do not take meds. I don’t believe in them. I am 25 years old and have suffered with this dread for 10 years. One day I will be better just like one day all of you will regain the ability to be "human" again. I hope all our lives return to us soon. It is sad to think of how much time I waste doing nothing. We will get well, are minds will heal. Until they do this is the best I can do. Please e- mail if anyone would like to just talk or write or anything. Thank you Staci P.S. Please don’t think I am down. I am usually quite happy. I actually got down from reading all the posts here. We are our own little community. : )
-I don’t think any are weak especially in the sense of dealing with this. I just thankfull for the faith and the medication that helps me face this. Did any of us bring it on ourselves even you? No I very seriously doubt it. The disorder don’t work that way. By the way the illness may indeed lie in the body as well. Many things bring this on and it’s usually an added combination of underlying undiagnosed problems addded to the stress of some life altering events. Those events don’t have to be bad ones they can mean a job promotion. Many persons actually get this when everything is going quite well for them. And others get it going through traumatic experiences or when the experience has passed and you let your defenses down it hits. It’s true sometimes life doesn’t look fair but nothing stays the same. Adversity will usually bring strenght and groth. That does not mean the origional problem will ever leave it means you adapt as best you can. A wise man named Paul knew this lesson and taught it. With all the bad days of this I would rather have the problem with the growth than have a perfect life and not know what I believe and how deep I believe it. I know theres better than this to come. But I also know till then we live in an imperfect world…John Before you buy.
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Don’t fret Staci! We are humans that have encountered a slight roadblock in our lives. We will get better, but it seems that we all have different ways of getting there. I myself find this group supportive and enlightening. Sometimes just plain funny at times. If you are feeling like it is taking you down, look at more of the OT humor stuff between posts. :)J — "Just when you think life sucks, someone hands you a vacuum cleaner; it is at this time you start cleaning some house". 
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– Hide quoted text — Show quoted text – Hello all it saddens and sickens me reading all your posts. We are so strong but are so weak. I have had anxiety for 10 years. I often wonder what horrible thing I must have done to recieve this burden. and I laugh at myself knowing I have created this world for me. That the illness lies within my mind and not my body. I feel all your pain and my own. A sickly haze sets over the person I used to be. I worry all the time and get no relief. I do not take meds. I don’t believe in them. I am 25 years old and have suffered with this dread for 10 years. One day I will be better just like one day all of you will regain the ability to be "human" again. I hope all our lives return to us soon. It is sad to think of how much time I waste doing nothing. We will get well, are minds will heal. Until they do this is the best I can do. Please e-mail if anyone would like to just talk or write or anything. Thank you Staci P.S. Please don’t think I am down. I am usually quite happy. I actually got down from reading all the posts here. We are our own little community. : )
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– Hide quoted text — Show quoted text – Hello all it saddens and sickens me reading all your posts. We are so strong but are so weak. I have had anxiety for 10 years. I often wonder what horrible thing I must have done to recieve this burden. and I laugh at myself knowing I have created this world for me. That the illness lies within my mind and not my body. I feel all your pain and my own. A sickly haze sets over the person I used to be. I worry all the time and get no relief. I do not take meds. I don’t believe in them. I am 25 years old and have suffered with this dread for 10 years. One day I will be better just like one day all of you will regain the ability to be "human" again. I hope all our lives return to us soon. It is sad to think of how much time I waste doing nothing. We will get well, are minds will heal. Until they do this is the best I can do. Please e-mail if anyone would like to just talk or write or anything. Thank you Staci P.S. Please don’t think I am down. I am usually quite happy. I actually got down from reading all the posts here. We are our own little community. : )
Hi Staci! Welcome to the group! I’m so sorry the post got you down. If you keep lurking, sometimes you’ll see some very successful posts too and off topic humor. Give us a chance. I don’t think you’ll be sorry! Please take care of yourself. Hugs, Di
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Hi, David, I hear what you are saying loud and clear. I can accept the bad days with the good days, what I have a hard time dealing with is the debilitation that anxiety has put on my life. I can’t accept the fact that it does not allow me to live my life to its fullest. Many things I would like to do but my entire day 24/7 is monitoring my body to see if I am up to the task at hand. I need large dosages of confidence and bravery…..do they sell these at WalMart? smiles, elise
– Hide quoted text — Show quoted text – Staci, You did nothing to get this condition. It is biochemically based, and much of it is learned. I don’t take meds either, though sometimes I think I might. Fortunately for me therapy seems to work, though incredibly slowly. Some people finally take meds, some don’t. I like to blame the anxiety for crappy days, but some days are just plain bad. Makes me truly appreciate the good ones. I learned from my Grandmother who passed away last year to appreciate the good days, and that’s what I’m doing….. Hang in there and we’re here if you’d like to chat…. David
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Hello all it saddens and sickens me reading all your posts. We are so strong but are so weak. I have had anxiety for 10 years. I often wonder what horrible thing I must have done to recieve this burden. and I laugh at myself knowing I have created this world for me. That the illness lies within my mind and not my body. I feel all your pain and my own. A sickly haze sets over the person I used to be. I worry all the time and get no relief. I do not take meds. I don’t believe in them. I am 25 years old and have suffered with this dread for 10 years. One day I will be better just like one day all of you will regain the ability to be "human" again. I hope all our lives return to us soon. It is sad to think of how much time I waste doing nothing. We will get well, are minds will heal. Until they do this is the best I can do. Please e-mail if anyone would like to just talk or write or anything. Thank you Staci P.S. Please don’t think I am down. I am usually quite happy. I actually got down from reading all the posts here. We are our own little community. : )
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- Hide quoted text — Show quoted text – Hello all it saddens and sickens me reading all your posts. We are so strong but are so weak. I have had anxiety for 10 years. I often wonder what horrible thing I must have done to recieve this burden. and I laugh at myself knowing I have created this world for me. That the illness lies within my mind and not my body. I feel all your pain and my own. A sickly haze sets over the person I used to be. I worry all the time and get no relief. I do not take meds. I don’t believe in them. I am 25 years old and have suffered with this dread for 10 years. One day I will be better just like one day all of you will regain the ability to be "human" again. I hope all our lives return to us soon. It is sad to think of how much time I waste doing nothing. We will get well, are minds will heal. Until they do this is the best I can do. Please e-mail if anyone would like to just talk or write or anything. Thank you Staci P.S. Please don’t think I am down. I am usually quite happy. I actually got down from reading all the posts here. We are our own little community. : )
I am sorry that you are so down from reading all our posts. Surprisingly, reading the posts here do not make me sad, in the sense that I will dry and be depressed, but sad knowing that others are going through what I am and we are all seatching for that one true cure. I hope that you will be able to find some inner strength to read the posts and be able to offer some of your suggestions and ideas for us to read. We all can exchange litte tidbits of information-you’d be surprised what we can learn from each other here. I know what you mean you are not "down" …It is amazing the small amount of people that post on this message board when in the Us alone that over 2 million have mental disorders….Imagine 2 million of us posting here???? We could never read all the messages!!!!!! I do hope that you had a nice weekend. I only goofed up my computer but it is working again. I just want to get rid of that annoying opening windows sound….argh!!! Julie Got questions? Get answers over the phone at Keen.com. Up to 100 minutes free! http://www.keen.com
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Staci, You did nothing to get this condition. It is biochemically based, and much of it is learned. I don’t take meds either, though sometimes I think I might. Fortunately for me therapy seems to work, though incredibly slowly. Some people finally take meds, some don’t. I like to blame the anxiety for crappy days, but some days are just plain bad. Makes me truly appreciate the good ones. I learned from my Grandmother who passed away last year to appreciate the good days, and that’s what I’m doing….. Hang in there and we’re here if you’d like to chat…. David
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Hello all it saddens and sickens me reading all your posts. We are so strong but are so weak. I have had anxiety for 10 years. I often wonder what horrible thing I must have done to recieve this burden. and I laugh at myself knowing I have created this world for me. That the illness lies within my mind and not my body. I feel all your pain and my own. A sickly haze sets over the person I used to be. I worry all the time and get no relief. I do not take meds. I don’t believe in them. I am 25
Some day you will try meds, get relief, and start believing in them. Then reading the posts at ASAP will not make you feel down. Chip years old and have suffered with this dread for 10 years. One day I will be better just like one day all of you will regain the ability to be "human" again. I hope all our lives return to us soon. It is sad to think of how much time I waste doing nothing. We will get well, are minds will heal. Until they do this is the best I can do. Please e-mail if anyone would like to just talk or write or anything. Thank you Staci P.S. Please don’t think I am down. I am usually quite happy. I actually got down from reading all the posts here. We are our own little community. : )
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Hi Staci, Welcome to ASAP. I can understand your response to your first reading of our posts. Initially, reading of others’ symptoms and problems caused me to be more anxious and to imagine I had new symptoms. Rather than feeling "saddened and sickened", you may find that you will come to an acceptance of the condition and learn to see that, although you have anxiety, it is just a part of the wonderful person you are-I am sure there are many things to like about you. I used to long for the days before anxiety began changing my life and would say "I want to be like I was before". Now I realise that, having experienced anxiety I am less judgemental of others, more empathetic and I don’t take the good days for granted. Having experienced debilitating anxiety has helped to shape the way I approach autistitc children at work-I am a far better and more insightful teacher than I ever thought I could be. I accept your refusal to take medication-I went for 12 years before I gave in. Hopefully you will never reach that low that I hit when I decided it was either medication or death. That was eight years ago and I never regret my decision to try medication with therapy to help deal with my anxiety. I found that the more open I was about my condition, the less ashamed I was-it seemed that no matter who I talked to, that person knew someone else who has an anxiety disorder. Life is good with the odd (fewer and fewer, it seems) crappy day thrown in. Don’t be so hard on yourself-you have not chosen to have this illness any more than a cancer patient chooses to have cancer. I don’t know why some people are more prone to anxiety disorders but I do know it is not reflective of a weak character. I believe there will some day be an effective treatment for all of us-until then we just try to carry on. Best wishes, Charley
– Hide quoted text — Show quoted text – Hello all it saddens and sickens me reading all your posts. We are so strong but are so weak. I have had anxiety for 10 years. I often wonder what horrible thing I must have done to recieve this burden. and I laugh at myself knowing I have created this world for me. That the illness lies within my mind and not my body. I feel all your pain and my own. A sickly haze sets over the person I used to be. I worry all the time and get no relief. I do not take meds. I don’t believe in them. I am 25 years old and have suffered with this dread for 10 years. One day I will be better just like one day all of you will regain the ability to be "human" again. I hope all our lives return to us soon. It is sad to think of how much time I waste doing nothing. We will get well, are minds will heal. Until they do this is the best I can do. Please e-mail if anyone would like to just talk or write or anything. Thank you Staci P.S. Please don’t think I am down. I am usually quite happy. I actually got down from reading all the posts here. We are our own little community. : )
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