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Awwwwwwwwwww, ((((Inky)))). I don’t know what to say. I’m glad you shared all of this with us, though. Did it seem to help you any by sharing and perhaps lighten the load a wee bit? I sincerely hope so. Whine all you want in here. I’ll always listen, even if I can’t be of much help. I’ll even bring the cheese!!!! Karen
Dear Inky, ((((((Inky)))))), I am really sorry that you are dealing with so much right now. I can relate to alot of what you wrote. My mom has never been one to be there for me when I need her. I have accepted that she is a selfish with her time and does this to everybody, it still hurts at times. When I was pregnant with my second child my anxiety was very bad. This was in 1987 and meds were forbidden. It was hard getting through that one. I feel bad that you have to suffer, and 22 weeks to go is such a long time. I do believe it is good to try and avoid meds while pregnant, especially the first trimester. However, there is a point when unrelenting anxiety and depression becomes detrimental to the mother and baby. I cried for them to give me something and they told me no. Maybe you could get a second opinion and work with a doctor that would allow some kind of meds if your anxiety and depression start getting worse. Make sure to tell your doctor about the acid reflux, there are some good meds for it. Try to eat 2 to 3 hours before bedtime, avoid fatty foods, chocolate, not, peppermint. I also found elevating my head while I slept helped alot. Take care. Any names for the baby yet? Jackie
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- Hide quoted text — Show quoted text – [if replying, please use x-no-archive: yes as the VERY first line of you reply or delete my entire post and respect my wish not to be archived at deja.com] Hi all, well now that I seem to be on a roll, I think I’ll try to get some things off my chest finally.. It’s been a long time since I’ve updated ASAP on what’s going on and I don’t really know where to start. For those who don’t know me, about 1 or 2 years ago, I was diagnosed with PTSD, as a result of rape and abuse (at least, as far as I knew then..) but, about 6 months ago, I "ran into" things that happened way before.. It’s like scraping off layer after layer and things I seemed fine with, start causing me a lot of problems whenever I seem to make some progress.. I have 2 brothers, both older than me, and the oldest is what they call autistic-manic. We had lots of problems at home but I won’t go into details.. What matters now is that both me and my other brother are having serious problems dealing with what happened, tho his are more on the social scale and dealing with agression. My mom basically turned her back on us and refuses to take these problems serious. "Sure, there were problems" she said but hey, he and I are supposed to be "normal" so why make such a big deal out of it? 
Again, I threw up my defence and I feel nothing. I should feel betrayed, I should feel pain and I know it’s waiting somewhere, waiting to hit me when I’m not looking.. After all that, I found out that I’m pregnant (don’t worry, it’s wanted 
. I’m 14 weeks now. I weaned off paxil much faster than I should have because, when I decreased the dossage, the SE returned. I can’t take Xanax anymore, my doc won’t allow it, so I’m stuck with valerian that doesn’t do sh*t for me. While my mom stayed over when Lars was born, she has already decided that she won’t this time. And I would need it so much more, now that my panic doesn’t seem to go in remission and with another kid around. She’s abandonning me! : So, I’m fighting against depression without meds and it often seems like I’m losing the battle. My anxiety is through the roof but, thank goodness, no real PA yet.. I have 140mg valerian pills and I keep wondering how many it would take to get the same effect as 0.25 xanax.. 4 ain’t enough but I’m afraid to take more.. I hardly sleep, my muscles ache all the time and I’m already troubled with acid reflux <yuck!. I dread to think how the coming 6 months will be. There, I’ve done my whining.. Bye! Inky (who really hates to whine)
Hi Inky! Whine away, we all have to sometimes and it’s part of what we’re here for. Congratulations on being pregnant! It’s not true that you can’t use meds while pregnant. And it’s better to take a low dose of for instance Zoloft or Xanax than have attacks all the time, for the baby as well as for your sake. IMO and from what I’ve heard, both from pdocs and from women who took meds during pregnancy. I don’t know if we know something like a specialist in *high risk pregnancies* in Holland but I think an enlightened gynecologist should do (but them you’re almost living in Belgium of course ) It might be worthwhile trying to find somebody like that as it might ease your pregnancy. Philip (since *we* were pregnant for the first time 22 years ago I find the idea of a new baby so exciting and exhilarating…) – Hide quoted text — Show quoted text – — |Fidonet: Inky 2:284/420.30
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Congratulations on your pregnancy! This is an exciting time for you, though you have a lot to deal with, and it sounds like you are handling it all well (though it may not feel like it). Difficult as it sounds, I think your mother is doing you a favor by backing off. Sounds to me like relying on more reliable people might be more helpful for you, and your children. Do you have a friend or love who can help you through the next months, and after the delivery? blessings & take care, Renee
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Awwww, my heart goes out to you. Been thru so much and now having to deal with a wanted 
) pregnancy without meds. There was a time that i was unable to take meds for my depression, PD , AD and GAD. I found that the Essential Oil Lavender helped to keep my mood at a more even keel as well as keep the panic and anxiety attacks at bay. I use the Lavender in a room difuser at nighttime, as well as placing a few drops on a hanky and inhaling it during a panic/anxiety attack. Its also really good for reliving stress. I hope that it will help you as much as it did me. I’d have gone Loony literally without it. Take care and i will keep you in my thoughts and prayers Sherry – Hide quoted text — Show quoted text -Hi all, well now that I seem to be on a roll, I think I’ll try to get some things off my chest finally.. It’s been a long time since I’ve updated ASAP on what’s going on and I don’t really know where to start. For those who don’t know me, about 1 or 2 years ago, I was diagnosed with PTSD, as a result of rape and abuse (at least, as far as I knew then..) but, about 6 months ago, I "ran into" things that happened way before.. It’s like scraping off layer after layer and things I seemed fine with, start causing me a lot of problems whenever I seem to make some progress.. I have 2 brothers, both older than me, and the oldest is what they call autistic-manic. We had lots of problems at home but I won’t go into details.. What matters now is that both me and my other brother are having serious problems dealing with what happened, tho his are more on the social scale and dealing with agression. My mom basically turned her back on us and refuses to take these problems serious. "Sure, there were problems" she said but hey, he and I are supposed to be "normal" so why make such a big deal out of it? Again, I threw up my defence and I feel nothing. I should feel betrayed, I should feel pain and I know it’s waiting somewhere, waiting to hit me when I’m not looking.. After all that, I found out that I’m pregnant (don’t worry, it’s wanted . I’m 14 weeks now. I weaned off paxil much faster than I should have because, when I decreased the dossage, the SE returned. I can’t take Xanax anymore, my doc won’t allow it, so I’m stuck with valerian that doesn’t do sh*t for me. While my mom stayed over when Lars was born, she has already decided that she won’t this time. And I would need it so much more, now that my panic doesn’t seem to go in remission and with another kid around. She’s abandonning me! : So, I’m fighting against depression without meds and it often seems like I’m losing the battle. My anxiety is through the roof but, thank goodness, no real PA yet.. I have 140mg valerian pills and I keep wondering how many it would take to get the same effect as 0.25 xanax.. 4 ain’t enough but I’m afraid to take more.. I hardly sleep, my muscles ache all the time and I’m already troubled with acid reflux <yuck!. I dread to think how the coming 6 months will be. There, I’ve done my whining.. Bye! Inky (who really hates to whine) —
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Inky- Whine all you want. I think it takes an exceptionally strong person to admit that they are scared… By admitting it, you take some of the anxieties control away. Try and focus on the positive!! Your having another baby!! That’s incredible!! I wish you all the best luck- Jacki asked and I will ask too- any names picked out yet???? Elizabeth – Hide quoted text — Show quoted text -So, I’m fighting against depression without meds and it often seems like I’m losing the battle. My anxiety is through the roof but, thank goodness, no real PA yet.. I have 140mg valerian pills and I keep wondering how many it would take to get the same effect as 0.25 xanax.. 4 ain’t enough but I’m afraid to take more.. I hardly sleep, my muscles ache all the time and I’m already troubled with acid reflux <yuck!. I dread to think how the coming 6 months will be. There, I’ve done my whining..
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Awwwwwwwwwww, ((((Inky)))). I don’t know what to say. I’m glad you shared all of this with us, though. Did it seem to help you any by sharing and perhaps lighten the load a wee bit? I sincerely hope so. Whine all you want in here. I’ll always listen, even if I can’t be of much help. I’ll even bring the cheese!!!! Karen – Hide quoted text — Show quoted text – [if replying, please use x-no-archive: yes as the VERY first line of you reply or delete my entire post and respect my wish not to be archived at deja.com] Hi all, well now that I seem to be on a roll, I think I’ll try to get some things off my chest finally.. It’s been a long time since I’ve updated ASAP on what’s going on and I don’t really know where to start. For those who don’t know me, about 1 or 2 years ago, I was diagnosed with PTSD, as a result of rape and abuse (at least, as far as I knew then..) but, about 6 months ago, I "ran into" things that happened way before.. It’s like scraping off layer after layer and things I seemed fine with, start causing me a lot of problems whenever I seem to make some progress.. I have 2 brothers, both older than me, and the oldest is what they call autistic-manic. We had lots of problems at home but I won’t go into details.. What matters now is that both me and my other brother are having serious problems dealing with what happened, tho his are more on the social scale and dealing with agression. My mom basically turned her back on us and refuses to take these problems serious. "Sure, there were problems" she said but hey, he and I are supposed to be "normal" so why make such a big deal out of it? Again, I threw up my defence and I feel nothing. I should feel betrayed, I should feel pain and I know it’s waiting somewhere, waiting to hit me when I’m not looking.. After all that, I found out that I’m pregnant (don’t worry, it’s wanted . I’m 14 weeks now. I weaned off paxil much faster than I should have because, when I decreased the dossage, the SE returned. I can’t take Xanax anymore, my doc won’t allow it, so I’m stuck with valerian that doesn’t do sh*t for me. While my mom stayed over when Lars was born, she has already decided that she won’t this time. And I would need it so much more, now that my panic doesn’t seem to go in remission and with another kid around. She’s abandonning me! : So, I’m fighting against depression without meds and it often seems like I’m losing the battle. My anxiety is through the roof but, thank goodness, no real PA yet.. I have 140mg valerian pills and I keep wondering how many it would take to get the same effect as 0.25 xanax.. 4 ain’t enough but I’m afraid to take more.. I hardly sleep, my muscles ache all the time and I’m already troubled with acid reflux <yuck!. I dread to think how the coming 6 months will be. There, I’ve done my whining.. Bye! Inky (who really hates to whine) — |Fidonet: Inky 2:284/420.30
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