Question:
(stuff snipped) At 45 I now live with fear, anxiety, pain, and I consider taking my life on a regular basis all because I have become convinced that I am filth. This is what the great White Christian Conservatives have done to me. My doctor works very hard to keep me alive now, and to keep me from falling into dispair to the point where I want to kill myself. But when I see the hate that Pat Buchanan spreads and the hate that the Christians feel for people like me killing myself becomes more attractive than trying to keep living in a world where I will never be good enough for anyone!
Truly Bizzare! White Christian Conservatives, roughly one third of the American public, have become the ultimate scapegoat. No wonder Pat Buchanan is such a major factor in American politics. Bruce Gorham
Response:
Everything that you are about to read was done to me by Christians. And, for the most part, everyone who did these horrible things to me were conservative politically. As a result of what these people did to me I ended up having a nervous breakdown in 1989 which left me totally disabled and not able to ever work again in my entire life. I now live with PTSD and cannot work for more than three hours without becoming totally disoriented and confused to the point where I must lie down for about an hour. I have nightmares every night. I have daily day mares as well. I have to take two types of medication. One for my heart and one to keep the chemicals in my brain balanced from the damage that good WHITE CHRISTIAN CONSERVATIVES did to me. These Christian Conservatives ruined my life. They ruined it. And now I am laughed at by many, many people who think that I am stupid… People rush to support Pat Buchanan thinking that he is a wonderful man. I am living proof that the greatness of people like Buchanan is built on the backs of people like me. People hate The Windgate Letters. People hate me Jupiter Windgate to the point where they tell lies about me. I’ve created a web page to help protect others from the hate that the WHITE CHRISTIAN CONSERVATIVES want to do to those who oppose their views. I am certain that there will be WHITE CHRISTIAN CONSERVATIVES out there who will feel sad that I was not killed. They will laugh at my pain. And most of you on the internet will laugh at me for posting this story of what has happened to me. Most of you won’t even care. And most Christians won’t even dare to read this posting because they won’t want to hear the truth about what happened to me. I am living proof that the fundamentalist mentality, and the hate that the conservatives are pushing is dangerous. My entire life has been ruined. I am no longer able to work. I have to work very hard just to get through my days now. I live with constant pain in my heart and my mind from what was done to me. All because I was a Jew in the wrong place at the wrong time. And yet, I am the one who is laughed at. I am the one who is hated and who is thought to be crazy. I’m crazy because I was a Jew and have been beaten repeatedly for being Jewish? It’s my fault? How? I no longer trust anyone, other than my wife and only a few friends. I don’t go out much anymore, I am too frightened to go out publicly much. I have been rejected by my entire family. I’ve lost my father. My mother lays dying in a nursing home. Neither my father or my mother ever knew of all that you are about to read. I never had the courage to tell them anything about this. So now, with my father dead, I will never have the chance to let him know how the WHITE CHRISTIAN CONSERVATIVES treated me most of my life. At 45 I now live with fear, anxiety, pain, and I consider taking my life on a regular basis all because I have become convinced that I am filth. This is what the great White Christian Conservatives have done to me. My doctor works very hard to keep me alive now, and to keep me from falling into dispair to the point where I want to kill myself. But when I see the hate that Pat Buchanan spreads and the hate that the Christians feel for people like me killing myself becomes more attractive than trying to keep living in a world where I will never be good enough for anyone! I’ve failed my parents. I had a nervous breakdown and now can’t work. I was no hero to Mom and Dad. If I did not have my wife I would have killed myself long ago, you can count on that. I keep going and keep living not for me, but for her. This is what the GOOD WHITE CHRISTIANS OF THIS UNITED STATES DID TO ME WHEN THEY HAD THE CHANCE TO BEHAVE NICELY… THEY DID NOT…THEY TRIED TO KILL ME OVER AND OVER AGAIN! And for what? Because I am a Jew? And most of you Conservatives out there will cheer at what these Christians have done to me. Most of you Conservatives out there will lament that I am not dead from the attacks of your brothers and sisters. And now I live quite alone, save my wife. The internet hates me and laughs at me. The world has never heard my side of the story and most people don’t even care. So now, armed with my wife, my weekly poltical article (The Windgate Letters), my human rights web page (http://home.aol.com/jmwindgate) and my faith as a Jew I keep pressing on with the hope that our world will turn away from the hate that almost killed me, that almost destroyed me. That our world will learn how to love rather than to kill. You must decide for yourself where you stand. I am not posting this because I want anyone’s pity. I am posting this in order to make sure that people understand that I am only one out of many, many people who have been mistreated by GOOD WHITE CHRISTIANS. My wife hates what the people did to me. When she has to hold me and rock to sleep while I cry from the beatings in my sleep she hates what the GOOD WHITE CHRISTIANS did to me. When I have a break with reality due to my illness and the pain, she hates what these holier than thou types did to me. My life is very hard now. Some days I can’t even find the courage or the strength to do any work on the computer at all. Some days I am depressed, like today. Everyone wants to cheer for Pat Robertson. But no one wants to take any responsibility for what has been done to me. I dare any of you to read on. Read and learn how ugly we white people have been. Learn how ugly the Christians have been to me. Learn about the real reason that Jupiter Windgate publishes The Windgate Letters. I dare you… Be well… Shalom, Jupiter M. Windgate Name: Jupiter M. Windgate Age: 45 Race: White Religion: Reform Jew Parents: Mother – Catholic Father – Jewish History of anti-Semitic and hate crime encounters 1962 – Cleveland Heights – I was routinely denied access to public apartment buildings because I was Jewish and the building did not allow Jews inside. In three instances I was prohibited from doing homework with friends because I was Jewish. The owner of the building was a Catholic. 1963 – Roxboro Junior High School – Miss Lawrence’s Music Class – A Catholic boy broke a chair over my back calling me a Kike and telling me that I should go to hell because my mother was Catholic and my father Jewish. 1966 – Southern Arizona School – Tucson, Arizona – Treated to verbal abuse by several members of the Baptist community there for being Jewish. 1967 – Southern Arizona School – Tucson, Arizona, beaten with a crow bar by a fundamentalist Christian to the point where one of my ribs was broken and my back brace for Scoliosis was broken. The boy tried to make me say that I hate Jews. Before I went unconscious, the only words that I said was …"I’m so sorry for your hatred…". The boy went to jail, but not without the Baptist community in Tucson coming forward to show support for what he did to me! 1968 – Cleveland, Ohio, a private hospital where I was recovering from having the top portion of my back rebuilt … I was on my back in a 75 pound plaster body cast for eight months… – I was beaten and abused repeatedly for reporting health violations. For example, the staff would take the dead children out of the ward, uncovered, while we had breakfast! I lost nine of my young friends during that year. The oldest was 13, the youngest was five. And the hospital never gave any of us any psychological support to help us to handle the deaths. I was also treated with disrespect when my sexual energies began to peak at 18, while in the hospital. The staff routinely slapped my genitals, if they found me errect when I woke up and told me that they would tie me down if they found me that way again. The director of the hospital lied to me about what they did with a friend of mine, a three year old orphan girl, who had a broken spine in three places. I tried to adopt her, but was blocked by the administrator of the hospital. Since Rosie (the little girl) was going to die, I wanted her to have a Father and to have a decent burial. But the Catholic administrator had OTHER ideas. From the evidence that I have gathered over the years she was buried in a common grave with 49 other children in a plastic container, and put into a ditch in a parking lot. In the years that followed my operation I found that not only had the ditch been removed from the property where Rosie was supposedly buried, but that all references to her even being in the hospital were gone! And, like I said, the administrator was a practicing Catholic! I wonder if God told her to treat one of his children, one of his creations, like this. I wonder how the Catholic Diocese feels about one of their congregation treating a human being this way, the way that the Nazis treated the Jews in Germany? 1969 – Tucson, Arizona – Shot (grazed) in the stomach while having dinner with a Hispanic friend of mine. I was, at the time, volunteering my time with the Hispanic Alcoholic Clinic, east of town, and the Papago Indian Drug Clinic in the Papago community south of town. The men who shot and killed my friend and who shot me were Christian Baptists. 1970 – Tucson, Arizona – Assaulted by a Christian while in downtown Tucson. Beaten with his fists, for being a Jew. He was a practicing fundamentalist Christian … he had tried to force conversion on me. 1973 – Case Western Reserve University – Cleveland, Ohio. I was confronted with a great deal of anti-Semitism while at the university by Catholic and Christian students who many times attempted to force conversion on me. In one instance my life was threatened for not agreeing to worship Jesus as my personal savior. 1979 – Houston, Texas – A Mormon, claiming that he spoke for Salt Lake City, aimed a firearm at me from across the street in the Montrose district of … read more »
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