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Well…last night was no better really…didn’t feel like I got any sleep yet. Got a 2 or 3 hour nap yesterday…thanks to my husband. The s-kids are 9 and 3. The bad part is we were sick Friday so the 9 year old basically took care of everybody. My husband is GREAT at helping, but he works midnight shift and it is impossible for him to get sleep when the kids are here. I hate that things are liike this….I feel like if I just hadn’t had this attack at work, and I was still working, things would be ok. Bills are REALLY backing up now…I am talking no rest for the wicked…can’t answer the phone. I kind of fell apart last night because I am literally and physically and mentally wiped out. I know he is too and it can’t be easy to help hold me up when he is barely able to stand himself! He is still sick and I hope since the skids go home today (which will really be hard too no matter what…we miss them when they go) and I have a dr appointment this afternoon…I hope we can both come home and just CRASH! I don’t think he is going to work tonight…he was sick at work all night last night. But we will see! Basically I am just so sick and tired of all of this. I should get my medicine scripts today (for ALL my meds..asthma, stomach, allergies AND anxiety related) but we won’t have the money to get them filled. So there again..I am faced with a dilemma…I am pretty sure my dr will give me some samples (at least one more month) of Paxil…so that is one worry we won’t have. We both have basically the same meds so if we could just get one filled until mid-month when we see if they are going to pay me or not…we could make it a little better! But we won’t have it today…or even this week as far as I can tell. Family and friends don’t have it to help either…So basically we are in the hole already…hoping the electric company forgot about us…wishing we hadn’t bought the truck when we did last year because the payment was SUPPOSED to be covered by a policy for disability…but they denied the claim because of some stupid questionnaire that was filled out in May (after a diagnosis of asthma in April) and I FORGOT TO CHECK LUNG DISEASE. So they decided to refund the cost of the policy, but that doesn’t make a payment for us. Can you tell if there is a little stress in my world…sorry to lay all of this out here…I just needed to vent..seems like all I have been doing lately though. All the night time tricks just haven’t been helping. Going to talk to my doc about something to sleep…but won’t be able to get it filled yet. LOL OH and about the house work…believe me…it sits…and sits..and sits. Hubby does most of it when it does get done, and he is great, it has just been impossible lately to do all of the things needed ya know? Robin I know * Sent from RemarQ http://www.remarq.com The Internet’s Discussion Network * The fastest and easiest way to search and participate in Usenet – Free!
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Gee, I am in the same boat as you are. I am lucky to get 3 or 4 hours a night. I had a very rough week and my anxiety level is high. I would like to sleep for days just to catch up but nothing would get done around here. But you know what, it doesn’t matter, does it.Everything will be here for us the next day, and if it doesn’t get done tomorrow then there is th e next day. Are the s-kids old enough to fend for themselves? I hope that hubby lends a hand. Laundry is just pushing buttons. Darks and whites are seperate.Easy? Not for my old man. He put all the whites and darks together to save a wash load. The whites never looked white again. ANd he pours fabric softnener in instead of detergent. SOmetimes it is best if they don’t help.LOL What I do for horrible insomnia is not go on the computer. The light from the screen is telling your brain that it is time to stay up. The darker it is the better. If you have a dim light or night light that you can just sit up by and have a cup of caffeine free tea-chamomile is very relaxing. Ok, if you don’t like tea, have some warm milk. If not, take a bath with the lights off..just light a scented candle. IT takes a while to get use to doing all this in the dark. Unless you step on a dog bone or hotwheel, then there could be some problems. Hop into bed and just try and have it as quiet as you can. That means husbands snoring too. Just poke him awake or to roll to the other side. If I am in a deep sleep I will not hear him at all. I wish you all the best. I hope that you will find some way to get some much needed sleep. Let the housework sit. It isn’t as important as your health! all my best,Julie * Sent from RemarQ http://www.remarq.com The Internet’s Discussion Network * The fastest and easiest way to search and participate in Usenet – Free!
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Robin I hope you finally got some sleep last night after your puter venting!!! The insomnia is thee worst. When I first started having PA’s I was "Sleepless in Iowa" for about 3 weeks. Not only did I think I was dying most of the time, but then I thought I was going to go insane from lack of REM sleep and dreaming, which I think can happen, because the mind and body does need deep sleep often. Now I’m on meds. that have calmed me for the most part. But I have a nightly ritual that I perform to get me relaxed and ready for bed. My kids are in bed by 8:30 every night, no matter what has been left undone, I take a warm bath or shower at 9pm and put on comforable PJ’s, I make myself some decaffeneited tea ( Celestial Seasonings Sleepy Time tea is my fave ) with a bit of milk and honey, and I drink my tea as I read the postings on this here ASAP and do lengthy respondings to some! I’m usually in bed by midnight, and for the first time in my life asleep in 5 minutes. I’m sleeping very well now, if not too much! Maybe deriving a ritual of some sort every night may help you relax to get the sleep you need. Take care Amanda
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I know the feeling, too many things that have some time to simmer seem to work to the surface on a Sun. eve. The monster likes to wear out the mind to a frazzle so it can easily have its way with you. If you can wear yourself out physically during the day some how, it might help (unless you are doing that already I do not know). When you are not tired you will not sleep. The brain wants to do stuff, find it a focus. Read something, do something that normally makes you really bored. I find trying to study usually does it for me. Food that has tryptophane (natural sedative), can be eaten a couple of hours before desired sleep time. The two that I know are bananas and turkey. Some herbal teas can help. Look for some other natural sedative stuff from the health food store, if you can take that with the meds (ask Pharmacist or doc). Some that I know contain Valerian root. The old relaxation or hypno tapes can help as well. I hope that I could help a little. :)J — "Just when you think life sucks, someone hands you a vacuum cleaner; it is at this time you start cleaning some house". 
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– Hide quoted text — Show quoted text – First off, this is Robin Williams….I have just decided that if I am going to post I will go through this "spam-free" way rather than the other way. After promising my husband (who is at work) two hours ago…that I would go to bed..I am still glued to this damn computer screen. I just feel like the world has stopped because we were sick yesterday, and have had my stepkids since Wednesday, so tonight was my catch up time with my message boards, ng’s etc. WHY CAN’T I SLEEP NOW? I have read everything…replied to what I could I think…but I can’t seem to quiet this silent tick in my head. I can’t even relax enough to lay down and TRY to sleep. The kids will be up in a couple of hours, and hubby will be home. I get to sleep in since he knows I was up late..but give me a break! The original intention of staying up was to get some shit done around the house (been in a funk lately and haven’t felt like cleaning) and I have done nothing but sit in front of this computer reading and reading…and reading. This week has been stressful for us..the kids mom had surgery, so that was one thing… my job issues are BACK at the front lines…don’t know where that is going yet. And I can’t quit worrying about EVERYTHING…how does this work? Do I just find a pill that makes me NOT stress somewhere? I am not sure. But I know most of you guys don’t know my WHOLE story…and that is fine…what you do know is enough…I have Panic Disorder…it is becoming more and more obvious daily to me that it is not a new thing, just something that has been waiting to attack me for a while. The PTSD has just tipped it into overdrive. But how do I function like this? Insomnia is driving me nuts tonight! Any help, suggestions, relaxation tips (although I tried all of my normal ones…to no avail) or just a good knocking out would do me a world of good. Thanks for the place to vent. My husband is so supportive of this, I just HATE having to rely on him for everything, and want it to stop. Good grief the sun is actually coming up and I haven’t been to sleep. I used to function on no sleep, but that was long ago, and not with kids LOL. I don’t know how to do this…VENT VENT VENT…maybe now I can go to BED! * Sent from RemarQ http://www.remarq.com The Internet’s Discussion Network * The fastest and easiest way to search and participate in Usenet – Free!
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First off, this is Robin Williams….I have just decided that if I am going to post I will go through this "spam-free" way rather than the other way. After promising my husband (who is at work) two hours ago…that I would go to bed..I am still glued to this damn computer screen. I just feel like the world has stopped because we were sick yesterday, and have had my stepkids since Wednesday, so tonight was my catch up time with my message boards, ng’s etc. WHY CAN’T I SLEEP NOW? I have read everything…replied to what I could I think…but I can’t seem to quiet this silent tick in my head. I can’t even relax enough to lay down and TRY to sleep. The kids will be up in a couple of hours, and hubby will be home. I get to sleep in since he knows I was up late..but give me a break! The original intention of staying up was to get some shit done around the house (been in a funk lately and haven’t felt like cleaning) and I have done nothing but sit in front of this computer reading and reading…and reading. This week has been stressful for us..the kids mom had surgery, so that was one thing… my job issues are BACK at the front lines…don’t know where that is going yet. And I can’t quit worrying about EVERYTHING…how does this work? Do I just find a pill that makes me NOT stress somewhere? I am not sure. But I know most of you guys don’t know my WHOLE story…and that is fine…what you do know is enough…I have Panic Disorder…it is becoming more and more obvious daily to me that it is not a new thing, just something that has been waiting to attack me for a while. The PTSD has just tipped it into overdrive. But how do I function like this? Insomnia is driving me nuts tonight! Any help, suggestions, relaxation tips (although I tried all of my normal ones…to no avail) or just a good knocking out would do me a world of good. Thanks for the place to vent. My husband is so supportive of this, I just HATE having to rely on him for everything, and want it to stop. Good grief the sun is actually coming up and I haven’t been to sleep. I used to function on no sleep, but that was long ago, and not with kids LOL. I don’t know how to do this…VENT VENT VENT…maybe now I can go to BED! * Sent from RemarQ http://www.remarq.com The Internet’s Discussion Network * The fastest and easiest way to search and participate in Usenet – Free!
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