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I sent this and missed one of the *w*’s in twwells!!! my comp should know this by heart by now. So it is not a reply. It’s a hello again. PS (pre script): Vera, i read your posts and i am glad you are here. someday when i am over feeling sorry for myself or foolish or being sorry (how tedious is this) i will post just to you. we can talk about anyeverything. you pick. (no pun intended) :-} – Hide quoted text — Show quoted text – This is b. thogh you don’t know it and are generous enough not to need it i owe all a large apology. I posted a spoilered ms ystrdy and it was very difficult for me. Then, later, when i checked into the ng and no one had responed i was devastated. (i know, big word for small incident) I thought that no one could stomach what i had talked about and so were just pretending it wasn’t there. Sort of like pretending that the person talking to you so seriously and intently doesn’t have spinach in between their teeth, their fly down, and sn*t isn’t congealed just within your visual field of their left nostril. :] (yuk) Anyhoo, i decided that i was awful (am convinced anyway so don’t know why the big surprise :l ) and ppl were politely ignoring me. I would rather _always_ have a truthful response no matter how harsh (never as harsh as i am to me and often there is much to learn or new way to see) than to be invisible. H*te invisible!! Then when i was feeling all sick and sad inside, Kat was sad for me and got angry on my behalf (i just shut down, run away, give up etc, i guess you know the routine) and so wrote that ppl were mean and not true. For Kat, being true is , as much as i can construe, being real, honest, kind and truthful all sort of rolled into one. (no, she was never a boy scout) 
Since then we have gotten many responses to all posts and i feel foolish and sick of my overwrought ways and childish behavior. FWIW i have been dx as DID, PTSD, Depression and (ugh) Borderline. The first 3 don’t bother me, but sickened by last one. At first (some years back) i thought this was just a garbage pail dx for t’s who were too dumb and lazy to figure out hurt human feelings. I still think that is prolly often the case, but i am beginning to see stuff i do in light of that dx and accept it (not gracefully i’m afeerd) as having *some* validity for me. I think that the need to have immed. and near perfect response to my voice (ie. the post) is an example of that aspect of me. FWIW, there are other, more interesting and fun aspects to this old boot so if you can put up with my learning curve of trust in all of you and impatience for the limitations of communication via cyberspace i will try very much to be a worth the time. special thanks to Grace, Chiquitita, sierra, e., Painted Rainbow, and Lionheart. Kat is only eight and i am the host big (i think tho that image is beginning to crumble around its crispy little edge) but i think she is more mature at center than i am. I am beginning to wonder, seriously, about who is really taking care of whom…. If ppl are in need of it, i have info about *newspapers* and such that deal with DID, tr*uma …etc. i spect everyone pretty much has this already or can find it themselves but for newly dx ppl this may be useful. in fact, if there isn’t already one put together, why don’t we do a compilation of resources-books, journals, newrags, phone #’s, net/web sites…. that we have found helpful. I don’t mean all the dry psych. tracts but the *real* things we have used on our way through this maze of mirrors and m*nure. (some alliteration, huh) %] If anyone wants contribute, email me with name of thing/place with concise (in dissoid terms concise) description of it and maybe, if you want to take the time, why/how it helped so others will know if it applies, and i will compile and post as it grows. If this has been done already, please send me copy. Also will be good joke on me that i wrote all this for exercise only. Fingers are getting bigger!!! Is it ok if i keep saying how gladgladglad i am that _all_ of you are here. i may bore you with it until i get over the gladpleasurereliefhappy of your existence. each all of you. "It’s just situations strike like lightning, you come out of the corner fighting or bow your head and walk away. What’s done is done, even if no one knows all the facts. There is no shame in rising up to push what’s pushing you back." -Carrie Newcomer- my current favorite songsingingwriter enough. thank you for listening (those who haven’t fallen asleep on your keyboard) b.
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huge snip If ppl are in need of it, i have info about *newspapers* and such that deal with DID, tr*uma …etc. i spect everyone pretty much has this already or can find it themselves but for newly dx ppl this may be useful. in fact, if there isn’t already one put together, why don’t we do a compilation of resources-books, journals, newrags, phone #’s, net/web sites…. that we have found helpful. I don’t mean all the dry psych. tracts but the *real* things we have used on our way through this maze of mirrors and m*nure. (some alliteration, huh) %]
I like your alliteration. (: If anyone wants contribute, email me with name of thing/place with concise (in dissoid terms concise) description of it and maybe, if you want to take the time, why/how it helped so others will know if it applies, and i will compile and post as it grows. If this has been done already, please send me copy. Also will be good joke on me that i wrote all this for exercise only. Fingers are getting bigger!!!
I think a list would be good. I’ve seen various resources posted here from time to time but never in one list. I’ll try to track down the stuff I’ve found helpful (but you’ll probably think most of it is dry – I find it the most helpful for me. . Is it ok if i keep saying how gladgladglad i am that _all_ of you are here. i may bore you with it until i get over the gladpleasurereliefhappy of your existence. each all of you.
It’s fine if you keep saying that you’re glad that everyone’s here. I’m glad you’re here, too. (: e — For more information about this service, send e-mail to:
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a resource list sounds like a wonderful idea pls let us know where to find it when it is up and running! "ghyie" Instigator
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