Question:
Hello, I appreciate the number of insightful replies that were posted to my message. When I was younger, I lived in a different state, and I had quite a few problems with time loss. I would lose two or three hours at a time, and I would usually "wake" in the middle of an activity. I would be completely confused about the activity, and I would have no recollection of the time. An example would be carrying on conversations, and I would "wake" in the middle of a sentence not recalling anything from the previous hour or two. I had a few problems with time loss after I moved. The time loss occurred a couple times during conversations, and I walked to a place while I was at school I shouldn’t have been without remembering it. The school incident was rather disturbing. I had been doing well for the past two or three years aside from depression and a complex PTSD diagnosis. This all changed after I visited Disney World though. I didn’t lose time, but my anxiety attacks became more frequent, and I started to hear thoughts that weren’t my own. I wasn’t sure what they were from, but it told me to choose a certain course when I was trying to make a decision. It would sometimes tell me little things when I wasn’t trying to make a decision. Some examples are, turn off the light, shut the door, and just little stuff like that. The problem I faced is the thoughts aren’t mine, and the commands aren’t at all necessary. I didn’t need to shut the door because it is an internal door, and I didn’t need to turn out the light. The stray thought happened again yesterday while I was trying to decide which pair of shoes to wear. I only have two by the way, but one is old, and one is new. The new ones are less comfortable, but the old ones look awful. I got a thought in my head to wear the old ones. This disturbed me because the "other" thoughts are getting more frequent, and it was the first time I had a really clear "other" thought while under the influence of the prescribed medicines I take for my physical pain that are rather strong. I have not lost time that I am aware of recently, but I have stayed pretty relaxed with my medication recently also.
Response:
Hi James. It takes me a long time to get dressed. I have many more than two pairs of shoes. I also have lots of clothes of various styles. Sometimes I listen to arguments in my head about stuff to wear. Sometimes I must begin with a particular pair of socks and build an outfit around it to keep one "voice/thought/kid" happy. Sometimes I am surprised to realize what I’m wearing when I get somewhere. I am usually late for most activities. I’m lucky to have a few patient friends. trill
– Hide quoted text — Show quoted text – Hello, I appreciate the number of insightful replies that were posted to my message. When I was younger, I lived in a different state, and I had quite a few problems with time loss. I would lose two or three hours at a time, and I would usually "wake" in the middle of an activity. I would be completely confused about the activity, and I would have no recollection of the time. An example would be carrying on conversations, and I would "wake" in the middle of a sentence not recalling anything from the previous hour or two. I had a few problems with time loss after I moved. The time loss occurred a couple times during conversations, and I walked to a place while I was at school I shouldn’t have been without remembering it. The school incident was rather disturbing. I had been doing well for the past two or three years aside from depression and a complex PTSD diagnosis. This all changed after I visited Disney World though. I didn’t lose time, but my anxiety attacks became more frequent, and I started to hear thoughts that weren’t my own. I wasn’t sure what they were from, but it told me to choose a certain course when I was trying to make a decision. It would sometimes tell me little things when I wasn’t trying to make a decision. Some examples are, turn off the light, shut the door, and just little stuff like that. The problem I faced is the thoughts aren’t mine, and the commands aren’t at all necessary. I didn’t need to shut the door because it is an internal door, and I didn’t need to turn out the light. The stray thought happened again yesterday while I was trying to decide which pair of shoes to wear. I only have two by the way, but one is old, and one is new. The new ones are less comfortable, but the old ones look awful. I got a thought in my head to wear the old ones. This disturbed me because the "other" thoughts are getting more frequent, and it was the first time I had a really clear "other" thought while under the influence of the prescribed medicines I take for my physical pain that are rather strong. I have not lost time that I am aware of recently, but I have stayed pretty relaxed with my medication recently also.
Response:
same. only 2 choices for shoes, though, cuz otherwise it just gets stupid here. the choices are: black woman’s dress shoes, or black men’s dress shoes. There’s a pair of white sneakers (men’s, but that’s cuz i wear a 4e width more than anything else) <suuuuure it is. uh huh. *nods wisely* *hee* that pretty much is a subset of the men’s dress shoes (three pair of shoes total; woman’s, men’s and sneakers) – most situations where i’d wear the men’s shoes the sneakers substitute fine and are newer. So that choice isn’t hard – sneakers vs men’s shoes that is. If we’ve actually managed to settle on a dress, found the appropriate accoutrements to go with it, and put it on without one of the guys feeling unacceptably uncomfortable (we always feel like we’re in drag in a dress)(but that’s not necessarily a problem)[not for you, maybe]{hush}, then we’re almost always gonna do the women’s shoes, but there’re 2 dresses that look cool and funky with the men’s dress shoes. That just comes down to an easy decision, cuz we know by the time we hit the shoe section what the fall-out is inside regarding wearing a dress. So if it’s a near-thing that we’re still wearing a dress by the time we hit the door, then chances are it’s one of the dresses that look cool with the men’s shoes, so we either go right for them or …um, Bry-Bry’s telling me i can’t keep writing about this cuz it’s gotta be boring, so i have to stop writing about it. but we have problems like trill says for getting dressed. and JT loves bright bright bright lotsa colors and Thomas only likes black and navy blue and Jen and Sunshine and dyenths like pink, and most folk like purple, so we have to decide on color and style (dressy or casual, feminine or "butch", flamboyant or understated) and try really hard not to get a combo that mixes one major style with another major style without something that pulls it together. We like scarves for this reason. Lotsa colors, so as long as the pants and the shirt have one of the colors in the scarf, we’re fine. James, as soon as you said u had 2 pair of shoes and one was uncomfortable i knew you were gonna say that the "other" voice was gonna say wear the more comfy ones. It’s like maybe the voice is asking for you to make it feel safe. we shut inside doors when we don’t feel safe. and turning out the light means that we wouldn’t get yelled at for wasting electricity, and maybe if the light’s off then no one knows we’re here. we didn’t really realize we were we again until we made it feel safe for the little scared ones to come forward. so maybe whatever you’ve been doing in thpy or working on your issues however you do…maybe that’s been working to make some part of you (whether you’re multiple or not – we all have different aspects of the self) feel safe enough to communicate directly with you. Congratulations. It takes a lot to win the trust of a scared little kid who’s been h*rt too much. And it’s sooooooooo worth it to me to figure out what the voice wants and find a way to get it for it if possible. Though it wanted 0re0s the other day, and we can’t eat them cuz we’re terribly allergic to the main ingredient (besides sugar) of the filling. It’s basically soybean oil and sugar. So we knew that we didn’t *really* want 0re0s, though in some small way we did. We just wanted to know that we’d be taken care of. And m*m (scared kids here call whichever big part is being a care-taker "m*m") found some stuff that we wanted to eat instead, and did some stuff to make us feel safer, and talked to the hubby a bit (he’s nice to us), and made it safe so we could cry cuz we were sad bout something that didn’t really have anything to do with 0reos. Though I really like 0re0s. :) So we cried for a bit on the hubby, and he got the crying part to laugh after it’d cried for awhile, then we went bowling and we did pretty good for us. 79 and 87. Ok, Bry-Bry’s saying we’re being boring again. Got to go. Keep writing, James, ok? This ng is one of the main reasons I got so much worked out in my head so fast once I figured out we were multiple, k? one of da kids for dyenths/jt
Hi James. It takes me a long time to get dressed. I have many more than two pairs of shoes. I also have lots of clothes of various styles. Sometimes I listen to arguments in my head about stuff to wear.
Sometimes I must begin – Hide quoted text — Show quoted text – with a particular pair of socks and build an outfit around it to keep one "voice/thought/kid" happy. Sometimes I am surprised to realize what I’m wearing when I get somewhere. I am usually late for most activities. I’m lucky to have a few patient friends. trill Hello, I appreciate the number of insightful replies that were posted to my message. When I was younger, I lived in a
different state, and – Hide quoted text — Show quoted text – I had quite a few problems with time loss. I would lose two or three hours at a time, and I would usually "wake" in the middle of an activity. I would be completely confused about the activity, and I would have no recollection of the time. An example would be carrying on conversations, and I would "wake" in the middle of a sentence not recalling anything from the previous hour or two. I had a few problems with time loss after I moved. The time loss occurred a couple times during conversations, and I walked to a place while I was at school I shouldn’t have been without remembering it. The school incident was rather disturbing. I had been doing well for the past two or three years aside from depression and a complex PTSD diagnosis. This all changed after I visited Disney World though. I didn’t lose time, but my anxiety attacks became more frequent, and I started to hear thoughts that weren’t my own. I wasn’t sure what they were from, but it told me to choose a certain course when I was trying to make a decision. It would sometimes tell me little things when I wasn’t trying to make a decision. Some examples are, turn off the light, shut the door, and just little stuff like that. The problem I faced is the thoughts aren’t mine, and the commands aren’t at all necessary. I didn’t need to shut the door because it is an internal door, and I didn’t need to turn out the light. The stray thought happened again yesterday while I was trying to decide which pair of shoes to wear. I only have two by the way, but one is old, and one is new. The new ones are less comfortable, but the old ones look awful. I got a thought in my head to wear the old ones. This disturbed me because the "other" thoughts are getting more frequent, and it was the first time I had a really clear "other" thought while under the influence of the prescribed medicines I take for my physical pain that are rather strong. I have not lost time that I am aware of recently, but I have stayed pretty relaxed with my medication recently also.
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