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Dominick, I went to the hospital, and it wasn’t bad at all. It helped me to learn afew things, and I thought the care was the care was very good. I did not have shock treatments, but some did and they were fine. Try to stop worring about going. They will help you.Louise
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Dear Cath, Thanks! I need something powerful and quick! Yours Truly, Dominick
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Margrove, In Pottsville Hospital (5th floor), it’s a locked ward. I was abused. Yours Truly, Dominick
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Margrove, That’s not how it was last time! They were mean and cruel. They restrained me. I think I have PTSD now. Yours Truly, Dominick
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Dear Arthur, All I see’s darkness! Yours Truly, Dominick Thanks!
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Dear Louise, I’m still scared of going! Too much!!! Yours Truly, Dominick
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Arthur, I feel better now. Just a little. I’m going to check in. Yours Truly, Dominick
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But I’m going anyhow. Yours Truly, Dominick
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: Dear Arthur, : All I see’s darkness! : Yours Truly, : Dominick : Thanks! Dear Dominick, Darkness may be all you see right now, but please keep in mind that there is more to you than is seen or felt. The simple fact that you post here shows that you are exploring options to improve your life. You may not feel in touch with that part of you that is exploring options, yet that part of you does exist and is finding expression. Very Best Wishes, Arthur
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: Arthur, : I feel better now. Just a little. That’s good. Always remember that better times do happen. : I’m going to check in. : Yours Truly, : Dominick Please let us know how you do. Very Best Wishes, Arthur
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Dear Dominick, Despite all the dark thoughts and hopeless feelings you are experiencing, I can still see some hope in your words. You know you need help and you are seeking help, both of which are good signs; signs of what I call "Unfelt Hope." Hope does not always come in the form of good feelings; sometimes hope is simply an awareness of possibilities. At times, dark emotions can completely convince us that all hope is lost, but this is a false illusion. Trust me, I’ve been there. Emotions can shape our thoughts and perspectives to a surprizing degree, not always for the better. But as long as there remain possibilities unexplored, there is hope. Very Best Wishes, Arthur
: Dear Group, : Well, well. It’s all over for me. I must go into a hospital within two : weeks. I have no alternative. I went to see Dr. Levy yesterday. He : treated me awful. He refused to treat me unless inpatient. I must : admit I need help quick. Weight’s down very low, and mood’s very : gloomy. I feel very desperate. I’m hopeless though. I can’t be : helped. Normal functioning’s nearly impossible. I’m worried a hospital : won’t understand. I can’t eat. I can’t sleep. Life’s nothing. What : will be done? How will I be treated? I’m very scared. I had an awful : hospital experience before. Dr. Levy talked about another course of ECT : (shock treatment). You can’t imagine how bad I am right now. I’m a : nervous wreck. I know I won’t make it on my own. I need help quick. : But I want compassion, not punishment. It’s hard having many : conditions. Who can understand and care? Worry hurts. I can’t think : well enough to decide. Dr. and hospital? What a mess. I can’t : possibly continue living this way. But I can’t change things. It’s : certain I have to go into a hospital now, and I don’t know what’s : ahead. What should I expect? The experience. Good or bad? I will : need very intensive care, and I don’t think treatment will be kind. I : can’t see improvement, not the way I’m feeling right now. Medications : aren’t working. It’s hard to survive. I’m a nervous wreck. Constant : thinking about hospitalization. I was abused before in a hospital, and : I’m afraid the same things will happen again. I tried best to keep out, : but effort failed. Putting it simple, I’m not living. I’m not going to : make it much longer. I’m desperate, but I’m sure no hospital can help : me. I hope someone cares enough to write back. I need comments, : advice, and suggestions. I need support now more than ever. Don’t let : me down. You all mean lots to me. Thanks for reading. The situation’s : awful! Help me! Please! : Yours Truly, : Dominick : Ps. Will they fix sleeping in a hospital? I have an awful case of : total insomnia, and I need immediate relief. Can they settle me down? : I’m very nervous. And afraid. Please help!
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Dear Cath, I can’t do anything without medication! I’m scared! Yours Truly, Dominick
There are some temoprorary alternatives you can try…. I use them when I’m waiting for perscription updates.. 1. go to the emergency room, explain the situation, and the date of the appt. Usually you can get a "temp" perscription. 2. Call the doc you have the appt with, and tell him/her that NOW or never, because of your fear, you need a temp perscription. (Xanax was given to me this way twice… it helped) 3. Hit the health food store/or Dr. Weil website, and try some Valerian Root, Kava, or other temporary herbal mixtures. In a desperate situation, you’d be surprised that someof the herbals work quickly, and do a great job for short periods of time. And, I’m glad you’re scared…as weird as that sounds…because it means you are really caring for yourself, and you are looking in the right direction. Cat
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- Hide quoted text — Show quoted text – Dear Group, Well, well. It’s all over for me. I must go into a hospital within two weeks. I have no alternative. I went to see Dr. Levy yesterday. He treated me awful. He refused to treat me unless inpatient. I must admit I need help quick. Weight’s down very low, and mood’s very gloomy. I feel very desperate. I’m hopeless though. I can’t be helped. Normal functioning’s nearly impossible. I’m worried a hospital won’t understand. I can’t eat. I can’t sleep. Life’s nothing. What will be done? How will I be treated? I’m very scared. I had an awful hospital experience before. Dr. Levy talked about another course of ECT (shock treatment). You can’t imagine how bad I am right now. I’m a nervous wreck. I know I won’t make it on my own. I need help quick. But I want compassion, not punishment. It’s hard having many conditions. Who can understand and care? Worry hurts. I can’t think well enough to decide. Dr. and hospital? What a mess. I can’t possibly continue living this way. But I can’t change things. It’s certain I have to go into a hospital now, and I don’t know what’s ahead. What should I expect? The experience. Good or bad? I will need very intensive care, and I don’t think treatment will be kind. I can’t see improvement, not the way I’m feeling right now. Medications aren’t working. It’s hard to survive. I’m a nervous wreck. Constant thinking about hospitalization. I was abused before in a hospital, and I’m afraid the same things will happen again. I tried best to keep out, but effort failed. Putting it simple, I’m not living. I’m not going to make it much longer. I’m desperate, but I’m sure no hospital can help me. I hope someone cares enough to write back. I need comments, advice, and suggestions. I need support now more than ever. Don’t let me down. You all mean lots to me. Thanks for reading. The situation’s awful! Help me! Please! Yours Truly, Dominick Ps. Will they fix sleeping in a hospital? I have an awful case of total insomnia, and I need immediate relief. Can they settle me down? I’m very nervous. And afraid. Please help!
Dear Dominick, I am very sorry about your prolonged suffering. I think the only way to do something about it is as an inpatient. This means you can also leave when you want to. They should treat you kindly and explain every step they take with you. You had a bad experience with ECT. If you do not want ECT nobody can *force* you. And yes, they can make you sleep. I wish I could *do* something for you but I can only speak words of encouragement. Go to the hospital, don’t accept ECT, ask them to be kind to you. Philip
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- Hide quoted text — Show quoted text – Dear Group, Well, well. It’s all over for me. I must go into a hospital within two weeks. I have no alternative. I went to see Dr. Levy yesterday. He treated me awful. He refused to treat me unless inpatient. I must admit I need help quick. Weight’s down very low, and mood’s very gloomy. I feel very desperate. I’m hopeless though. I can’t be helped. Normal functioning’s nearly impossible. I’m worried a hospital won’t understand. I can’t eat. I can’t sleep. Life’s nothing. What will be done? How will I be treated? I’m very scared. I had an awful hospital experience before. Dr. Levy talked about another course of ECT (shock treatment). You can’t imagine how bad I am right now. I’m a nervous wreck. I know I won’t make it on my own. I need help quick. But I want compassion, not punishment. It’s hard having many conditions. Who can understand and care? Worry hurts. I can’t think well enough to decide. Dr. and hospital? What a mess. I can’t possibly continue living this way. But I can’t change things. It’s certain I have to go into a hospital now, and I don’t know what’s ahead. What should I expect? The experience. Good or bad? I will need very intensive care, and I don’t think treatment will be kind. I can’t see improvement, not the way I’m feeling right now. Medications aren’t working. It’s hard to survive. I’m a nervous wreck. Constant thinking about hospitalization. I was abused before in a hospital, and I’m afraid the same things will happen again. I tried best to keep out, but effort failed. Putting it simple, I’m not living. I’m not going to make it much longer. I’m desperate, but I’m sure no hospital can help me. I hope someone cares enough to write back. I need comments, advice, and suggestions. I need support now more than ever. Don’t let me down. You all mean lots to me. Thanks for reading. The situation’s awful! Help me! Please! Yours Truly, Dominick Ps. Will they fix sleeping in a hospital? I have an awful case of total insomnia, and I need immediate relief. Can they settle me down? I’m very nervous. And afraid. Please help!
Dom don’t be scared-I have had patients require ect periodically for depression-when it works it works well. It may not have helped you in the past but it may help you now. I don’t know what meds you have taken or are on but this will be sorted out as well your general health will be attended to if you go into a good facility. You are not a prisoner or trapped in some locked ward. You can exit when you want and you are there to be treated-not abused or hurt or killed or punished. You need to do this-life is too precious for you to wait any longer. you will be ok and will be better when you are finished with your stay. they have computers there you can post from there-you can read, watch tv relax and have some people around you who treat people like you for a living-the got into this field because they care and want to help people. go with some confidence LM
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Dear Cath, I can’t do anything without medication! I’m scared! Yours Truly, Dominick
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Dear Philip, I want relief which sleeping provides. I want to be calmed down. I can’t stand it. Yours Truly, Dominick
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Well, well. It’s all over for me.
Hi Dominick, Hopefully what will be "over" for you is having to face so much pain alone. Hopefully Dr. Levy will be sure you get good help this time, and you will be thankful that the pain might finally lift. I am sending you the strength to let the professionals help you recover in the hospital. Hoping you can feel better soon. — Take care, Liz To everything there is a season …and to every season, a special beauty.
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Dear Group, Well, well. It’s all over for me. I must go into a hospital within two weeks. I have no alternative. I went to see Dr. Levy yesterday. He treated me awful. He refused to treat me unless inpatient. I must admit I need help quick.
You admitted to yourself now you need help quick. And maybe this is really for the best ! Weight’s down very low, and mood’s very gloomy. I feel very desperate. I’m hopeless though. I can’t be helped. Normal functioning’s nearly impossible. I’m worried a hospital won’t understand. I can’t eat. I can’t sleep. Life’s nothing. What will be done? How will I be treated? I’m very scared.
Of course you are scared It sounds very difficult. But please try to look on it like this : What do you have to lose dear friend. You felt sick for a long time now. I had an awful hospital experience before. Dr. Levy talked about another course of ECT (shock treatment). You can’t imagine how bad I am right now. I’m a nervous wreck. I know I won’t make it on my own. I need help quick. But I want compassion, not punishment.
Can you explain why you see this as punishment ? We all want compassion and we are entitled to it ! Dou you have IRL family or friends ? Someone who can help you ? If not keep posting here,we will help you. I promise you that ! It’s hard having many conditions. Who can understand and care? Worry hurts. I can’t think well enough to decide. Dr. and hospital? What a mess. I can’t possibly continue living this way. But I can’t change things. It’s certain I have to go into a hospital now, and I don’t know what’s ahead. What should I expect? The experience. Good or bad? I will need very intensive care, and I don’t think treatment will be kind. I can’t see improvement, not the way I’m feeling right now.
You can be helped Dom,really,tho everything looks totally hopeless. I cannot answer all your questions ( I wished I could ) But you cannot go on like this. Medications aren’t working. It’s hard to survive. I’m a nervous wreck. Constant thinking about hospitalization. I was abused before in a hospital, and I’m afraid the same things will happen again.
So sad to hear this. Did you tell your p-doc about the abuse and the fear ? I tried best to keep out, but effort failed. Putting it simple, I’m not living. I’m not going to make it much longer. I’m desperate, but I’m sure no hospital can help me. I hope someone cares enough to write back.
I care Dom I really do ! I need comments, advice, and suggestions. I need support now more than ever. Don’t let me down. You all mean lots to me. Thanks for reading. The situation’s awful! Help me! Please!
My suggestion is not to fight the hospital anymore. You sound totally on the end of your rope. You do need a lot of help. Yours Truly, Dominick Ps. Will they fix sleeping in a hospital? I have an awful case of total insomnia, and I need immediate relief. Can they settle me down? I’m very nervous. And afraid. Please help!
Of course they can settle you down. They will look at your sleepingproblems along with all your other problems. I will think of you Dom And please keep us posted,if you feel like it you can write every day Much Love Anna
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Hi, Dominick, You sound really in need of help and maybe it is time to get into the hospital and be cared for by doctors and nurses. I am sure that your doctor could give you something to get yourself there that might make it easier on you. Dominick, you have been going through this for such a long time it is time to try anything that might help you. You can count on us to be here for you. We know how much you have suffered with eating and sleeping and it isn’t good for your health. I send you lots of strength to get through all of this and I know you can do it. I will keep you in my thoughts and prayers. Please let us know what you decide to do… smiles, Elise
– Hide quoted text — Show quoted text – Dear Group, Well, well. It’s all over for me. I must go into a hospital within two weeks. I have no alternative. I went to see Dr. Levy yesterday. He treated me awful. He refused to treat me unless inpatient. I must admit I need help quick. Weight’s down very low, and mood’s very gloomy. I feel very desperate. I’m hopeless though. I can’t be helped. Normal functioning’s nearly impossible. I’m worried a hospital won’t understand. I can’t eat. I can’t sleep. Life’s nothing. What will be done? How will I be treated? I’m very scared. I had an awful hospital experience before. Dr. Levy talked about another course of ECT (shock treatment). You can’t imagine how bad I am right now. I’m a nervous wreck. I know I won’t make it on my own. I need help quick. But I want compassion, not punishment. It’s hard having many conditions. Who can understand and care? Worry hurts. I can’t think well enough to decide. Dr. and hospital? What a mess. I can’t possibly continue living this way. But I can’t change things. It’s certain I have to go into a hospital now, and I don’t know what’s ahead. What should I expect? The experience. Good or bad? I will need very intensive care, and I don’t think treatment will be kind. I can’t see improvement, not the way I’m feeling right now. Medications aren’t working. It’s hard to survive. I’m a nervous wreck. Constant thinking about hospitalization. I was abused before in a hospital, and I’m afraid the same things will happen again. I tried best to keep out, but effort failed. Putting it simple, I’m not living. I’m not going to make it much longer. I’m desperate, but I’m sure no hospital can help me. I hope someone cares enough to write back. I need comments, advice, and suggestions. I need support now more than ever. Don’t let me down. You all mean lots to me. Thanks for reading. The situation’s awful! Help me! Please! Yours Truly, Dominick Ps. Will they fix sleeping in a hospital? I have an awful case of total insomnia, and I need immediate relief. Can they settle me down? I’m very nervous. And afraid. Please help!
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Help me! Please! Yours Truly, Dominick Ps. Will they fix sleeping in a hospital? I have an awful case of total insomnia, and I need immediate relief. Can they settle me down? I’m very nervous. And afraid. Please help!
Geez Dominick, you seriously need a huge hug!!!! The good part is that you are aware there are problems, and you are smart enough to really invest time into taking care of yourself. I know insomnia and losing weight are probably not helping your body cope with all of the angst you are going through. You may have to force yourself into doing some deep breathing exercises. Push yourself to be mindless for moments at a time, just to remind yourself that you are able to handle things, or will be soon. It sounded like your mind is completely filled up with the "what if’s". That’s probably not helping you either. If you start thinking "what if..blah blah blah" and it sounds negative, stop yourself and counter it with "What if everything is going to work out?" — change the pattern into thinking about positive outcomes. I’m glad you took time to write about what you’re feeling. It means you are a lot more brave than you give yourself credit for. hang tough Cat
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Dear Group, Well, well. It’s all over for me. I must go into a hospital within two weeks. I have no alternative. I went to see Dr. Levy yesterday. He treated me awful. He refused to treat me unless inpatient. I must admit I need help quick. Weight’s down very low, and mood’s very gloomy. I feel very desperate. I’m hopeless though. I can’t be helped. Normal functioning’s nearly impossible. I’m worried a hospital won’t understand. I can’t eat. I can’t sleep. Life’s nothing. What will be done? How will I be treated? I’m very scared. I had an awful hospital experience before. Dr. Levy talked about another course of ECT (shock treatment). You can’t imagine how bad I am right now. I’m a nervous wreck. I know I won’t make it on my own. I need help quick. But I want compassion, not punishment. It’s hard having many conditions. Who can understand and care? Worry hurts. I can’t think well enough to decide. Dr. and hospital? What a mess. I can’t possibly continue living this way. But I can’t change things. It’s certain I have to go into a hospital now, and I don’t know what’s ahead. What should I expect? The experience. Good or bad? I will need very intensive care, and I don’t think treatment will be kind. I can’t see improvement, not the way I’m feeling right now. Medications aren’t working. It’s hard to survive. I’m a nervous wreck. Constant thinking about hospitalization. I was abused before in a hospital, and I’m afraid the same things will happen again. I tried best to keep out, but effort failed. Putting it simple, I’m not living. I’m not going to make it much longer. I’m desperate, but I’m sure no hospital can help me. I hope someone cares enough to write back. I need comments, advice, and suggestions. I need support now more than ever. Don’t let me down. You all mean lots to me. Thanks for reading. The situation’s awful! Help me! Please! Yours Truly, Dominick Ps. Will they fix sleeping in a hospital? I have an awful case of total insomnia, and I need immediate relief. Can they settle me down? I’m very nervous. And afraid. Please help!
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