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I don’t injure myself physically I deprive myself of stuff. Like I wasn’t good enough to deserve a soda or not to eat any meat at supper save it for someone else. Also buy all my clothes at the Salvation Army because I don’t feel I deserve to spend money on myself.
Hi Kat. I hit myself too. would that be before your strip show or after your lap dancing? 
I assume your a troll. , and if not your not funny
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I don’t injure myself physically I deprive myself of stuff. Like I wasn’t good enough to deserve a soda or not to eat any meat at supper save it for someone else. Also buy all my clothes at the Salvation Army because I don’t feel I deserve to spend money on myself.
Sounds like a case of Catholicitis to me. Go out and buy yourself a tonic you deserve it and if you feel guilty, tell the store owner popejed sent you. ;^) – Hide quoted text — Show quoted text – Hi Kat. I hit myself too. would that be before your strip show or after your lap dancing? I assume your a troll. , and if not your not funny —–= Posted via Newsfeeds.Com, Uncensored Usenet News =—– http://www.newsfeeds.com – The #1 Newsgroup Service in the World! —–== Over 100,000 Newsgroups – 19 Different Servers! =—–
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BTW, don’t take popejed’s comments seriously. He once told me to "lighten up" and something about how he copes by not taking things too seriously. I don’t think he meant his comments about razor blades being better than hitting oneself seriously.
Actually I was trying to get across to her that things could be worse. He has a, ummm, *unusual* sense of humour at times, but
HA! I think he’s (mostly) an OK guy.
SHhhhhhh! And his reply to you regarding therapists and wishing you good luck was probably an accurate reflection of his feelings.
I do wish her luck and I hate to see anyone hurt themselves because there’s too many assholes in this world that are more than happy to do it for free. ;^)
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Hi Kat. I hit myself too.
would that be before your strip show or after your lap dancing?
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All you have to do is to reach out and ask for help or support. There are plenty of people here who enjoy sharing their experiences. One of the more useful groups that I have ever come across. It has helped me. I hope you stay and at least lurk. – Hide quoted text — Show quoted text – Fuck you! Carving yourself with razor blades is way sicker. Bruises heal after a few weeks but razor blade scars are forever. How do you like them now? I’ve had it with this ng. I will just have to do with no support, not like I’m getting any here anyway. I have no dx so there is nowhere for me to go. Jesus Christ what’s up with these posts? God, in my younger days I carved my arms, wrist hands with razor blades but I never heard of punching the fuck out of yourself disorder, my God that’s sick. ;^) Hi Kat. I hit myself too. Most people who self injure cut, so it is nice to meet another hitter. Well, not nice because it means you are suffering teribly. I hit myself to deal with extreme emotions usually, but also to punish myself. I have ocd, depression, general anxiety and other stuff. I was diagnosed with borderline personality disorder in the past, but more recent doctors think I am not. I will be here to talk if you want. Sasha is there a disorder that is characterized by wanting to punish myself? When I am very overwhelmed sometimes I want to punish myself for having ever wanted more from life. I pull out hair and hit myself. A mental health professional suggested that this is borderline personality behavior, and that I am seeking release from hurting myself, but it doesn’t feel like I am doing anything to do with release. When I am doing it I feel like if I could have made myself small and meek enough I would have deserved a family, or respect, or something good and reliable, or at the least I would not have been a target then or now. My main diagnosis is ptsd, but my therapist says there is something else going on, too, because of the intensity of my fears and self loathing. I am disgusted with myself. Yesterday I hit myself in the forehead with the phone hard enough to leave a bruise, and pulled out a lot of my hair, enough so that I will need a short haircut or people will wonder what’s up. I hope there isn’t a bald area. This won’t make dealing with agoraphobia any easier!!! Kat
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Fuck you! Carving yourself with razor blades is way sicker. Bruises heal after a few weeks but razor blade scars are forever. How do you like them now? I’ve had it with this ng. I will just have to do with no support, not like I’m getting any here anyway. I have no dx so there is nowhere for me to go.
look on the bright side at least you’re not a lip picker.
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Fuck you! Carving yourself with razor blades is way sicker. Bruises heal after a few weeks but razor blade scars are forever. How do you like them now?
Shame on you for making fun of a person with problems. Fritz
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I will just have to do with no support, not like I’m getting any here anyway. I have no dx so there is nowhere for me to go.
Now there’s no reason to beat yourself up over this, there are plenty of therapist that can help you. ;^) Seriously, good luck!
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Fuck you! Carving yourself with razor blades is way sicker. Bruises heal after a few weeks but razor blade scars are forever. How do you like them now? I’ve had it with this ng. I will just have to do with no support, not like I’m getting any here anyway. I have no dx so there is nowhere for me to go.
LOL! What is this a who’s sicker than who contest, I guess I win again. Oh God now I’m sounding like %, I guess I am sicker. ;^) – Hide quoted text — Show quoted text – Jesus Christ what’s up with these posts? God, in my younger days I carved my arms, wrist hands with razor blades but I never heard of punching the fuck out of yourself disorder, my God that’s sick. ;^) Hi Kat. I hit myself too. Most people who self injure cut, so it is nice to meet another hitter. Well, not nice because it means you are suffering teribly. I hit myself to deal with extreme emotions usually, but also to punish myself. I have ocd, depression, general anxiety and other stuff. I was diagnosed with borderline personality disorder in the past, but more recent doctors think I am not. I will be here to talk if you want. Sasha is there a disorder that is characterized by wanting to punish myself? When I am very overwhelmed sometimes I want to punish myself for having ever wanted more from life. I pull out hair and hit myself. A mental health professional suggested that this is borderline personality behavior, and that I am seeking release from hurting myself, but it doesn’t feel like I am doing anything to do with release. When I am doing it I feel like if I could have made myself small and meek enough I would have deserved a family, or respect, or something good and reliable, or at the least I would not have been a target then or now. My main diagnosis is ptsd, but my therapist says there is something else going on, too, because of the intensity of my fears and self loathing. I am disgusted with myself. Yesterday I hit myself in the forehead with the phone hard enough to leave a bruise, and pulled out a lot of my hair, enough so that I will need a short haircut or people will wonder what’s up. I hope there isn’t a bald area. This won’t make dealing with agoraphobia any easier!!! Kat
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Fuck you! Carving yourself with razor blades is way sicker. Bruises heal after a few weeks but razor blade scars are forever. How do you like them now? I’ve had it with this ng. I will just have to do with no support, not like I’m getting any here anyway. I have no dx so there is nowhere for me to go.
– Hide quoted text — Show quoted text – Jesus Christ what’s up with these posts? God, in my younger days I carved my arms, wrist hands with razor blades but I never heard of punching the fuck out of yourself disorder, my God that’s sick. ;^) Hi Kat. I hit myself too. Most people who self injure cut, so it is nice to meet another hitter. Well, not nice because it means you are suffering teribly. I hit myself to deal with extreme emotions usually, but also to punish myself. I have ocd, depression, general anxiety and other stuff. I was diagnosed with borderline personality disorder in the past, but more recent doctors think I am not. I will be here to talk if you want. Sasha is there a disorder that is characterized by wanting to punish myself? When I am very overwhelmed sometimes I want to punish myself for having ever wanted more from life. I pull out hair and hit myself. A mental health professional suggested that this is borderline personality behavior, and that I am seeking release from hurting myself, but it doesn’t feel like I am doing anything to do with release. When I am doing it I feel like if I could have made myself small and meek enough I would have deserved a family, or respect, or something good and reliable, or at the least I would not have been a target then or now. My main diagnosis is ptsd, but my therapist says there is something else going on, too, because of the intensity of my fears and self loathing. I am disgusted with myself. Yesterday I hit myself in the forehead with the phone hard enough to leave a bruise, and pulled out a lot of my hair, enough so that I will need a short haircut or people will wonder what’s up. I hope there isn’t a bald area. This won’t make dealing with agoraphobia any easier!!! Kat
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Jesus Christ what’s up with these posts? God, in my younger days I carved my arms, wrist hands with razor blades but I never heard of punching the fuck out of yourself disorder, my God that’s sick. ;^) – Hide quoted text — Show quoted text – Hi Kat. I hit myself too. Most people who self injure cut, so it is nice to meet another hitter. Well, not nice because it means you are suffering teribly. I hit myself to deal with extreme emotions usually, but also to punish myself. I have ocd, depression, general anxiety and other stuff. I was diagnosed with borderline personality disorder in the past, but more recent doctors think I am not. I will be here to talk if you want. Sasha is there a disorder that is characterized by wanting to punish myself? When I am very overwhelmed sometimes I want to punish myself for having ever wanted more from life. I pull out hair and hit myself. A mental health professional suggested that this is borderline personality behavior, and that I am seeking release from hurting myself, but it doesn’t feel like I am doing anything to do with release. When I am doing it I feel like if I could have made myself small and meek enough I would have deserved a family, or respect, or something good and reliable, or at the least I would not have been a target then or now. My main diagnosis is ptsd, but my therapist says there is something else going on, too, because of the intensity of my fears and self loathing. I am disgusted with myself. Yesterday I hit myself in the forehead with the phone hard enough to leave a bruise, and pulled out a lot of my hair, enough so that I will need a short haircut or people will wonder what’s up. I hope there isn’t a bald area. This won’t make dealing with agoraphobia any easier!!! Kat
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Somehow I miss the drift of that logic about labels if you bothered to read things in order you wouldn’t-but logic isn’t your forte anyway LM
Ok , the order of the post was what was important, I get it ! Wink wink. So labels are not important although the symptoms says borderline. I love when the message is clear.
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Somehow I miss the drift of that logic about labels
if you bothered to read things in order you wouldn’t-but logic isn’t your forte anyway LM
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was diagnosed with borderline personality disorder in the past, but more recent doctors think I am not. labels are limiting-the symptoms are consistant with bpd-however, there are degrees, co-morbidity issues and axis issues that all interplay with ones behaviors. If someone exhibits these types of behavior, it is typical to want to compartmentalize them into a catagory. This often misses the picture-you are many things-being self punitive is one small aspect of how you manage your emotions LM
and by the way, "the symptoms are consistant with Bpd" ? Somehow I miss the drift of that logic about labels Margrove?
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was diagnosed with borderline personality disorder in the past, but more recent doctors think I am not.
labels are limiting-the symptoms are consistant with bpd-however, there are degrees, co-morbidity issues and axis issues that all interplay with ones behaviors. If someone exhibits these types of behavior, it is typical to want to compartmentalize them into a catagory. This often misses the picture-you are many things-being self punitive is one small aspect of how you manage your emotions LM
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Hi Kat. I hit myself too. Most people who self injure cut, so it is nice to meet another hitter. Well, not nice because it means you are suffering teribly. I hit myself to deal with extreme emotions usually, but also to punish myself. I have ocd, depression, general anxiety and other stuff. I was diagnosed with borderline personality disorder in the past, but more recent doctors think I am not. I will be here to talk if you want. Sasha
– Hide quoted text — Show quoted text – is there a disorder that is characterized by wanting to punish myself? When I am very overwhelmed sometimes I want to punish myself for having ever wanted more from life. I pull out hair and hit myself. A mental health professional suggested that this is borderline personality behavior, and that I am seeking release from hurting myself, but it doesn’t feel like I am doing anything to do with release. When I am doing it I feel like if I could have made myself small and meek enough I would have deserved a family, or respect, or something good and reliable, or at the least I would not have been a target then or now. My main diagnosis is ptsd, but my therapist says there is something else going on, too, because of the intensity of my fears and self loathing. I am disgusted with myself. Yesterday I hit myself in the forehead with the phone hard enough to leave a bruise, and pulled out a lot of my hair, enough so that I will need a short haircut or people will wonder what’s up. I hope there isn’t a bald area. This won’t make dealing with agoraphobia any easier!!! Kat
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By the way what is ptsd ?
Post Tramatic Stress Disorder. Or the old term – shell shock..
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By the way what is ptsd ? Post Tramatic Stress Disorder. Or the old term – shell shock.. Then I believe she probably doesn’t have boderline but thats totally a
guess .
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is there a disorder that is characterized by wanting to punish myself? When I am very overwhelmed sometimes I want to punish myself for having ever wanted more from life. I pull out hair and hit myself.
Pulling out your own hair is called trichotillomania. You can do a Google search and find lots of info. It will probably apply to your other "self-mutilating" behaviors as well. A mental health professional suggested that this is borderline personality behavior,
Self-mutillation is an element of anxiety disorder. You also can look up the classifications of disorders in the DSM, which may or may not help you see how they are categorized, which may help you see their relation to one another. Anxiety has many forms. Your PTSD falls under this category as well. and that I am seeking release from hurting myself, but it doesn’t feel like I am doing anything to do with release. When I am doing it I feel like if I could have made myself small and meek enough I would have deserved a family, or respect, or something good and reliable, or at the least I would not have been a target then or now.
This newsgroup is very behaviorally oriented, so you won’t find much agreement with the analytic theory of your own therapist. No one on the internet knows you from a three-paragraph post. But, if what your own therapist says–or his philosophies–seems wrong to you, talk (have consultations) with other therapists and see if you can find a proper fit for yourself – be it through medication or a different form of therapy or simply an analytic therapist whom you find understands you better. My main diagnosis is ptsd, but my therapist says there is something else going on, too, because of the intensity of my fears and self loathing.
Fear and self-loathing are, or can be, symptoms of PTSD, but your therapist knows more about you than you’ve written here. I am disgusted with myself. Yesterday I hit myself in the forehead with the phone hard enough to leave a bruise, and pulled out a lot of my hair, enough so that I will need a short haircut or people will wonder what’s up.
This is a compulsive act. Look up OCD – obsessive-compullsivedisorder. Look up self-mutilation. Hair-pulling is the same. I hope there isn’t a bald area. This won’t make dealing with agoraphobia any easier!!!
Agoraphobia, too, is an an element of anxiety disorder (specific phobias). Your bald area, which probably doesn’t exist from a hit to the head, is a short-lived situation – it’s a diversion from the real problems you face, as it now allows you to focus on what you perceive as a "real" reason not to go out. My suggestion: read the DSM definitions of all the anxiety disorders, as you seem to have a few. Then, read about various therapies: cognitive, behavioral, analytic, pharmacologic, etc., and see what feels right for you. Have a consultation w/the sort of therapist that practices this and, again, see if it feels right. Trust yourself most. Kat
Best of luck, Kat. Jennifer Recovery is a process, not an event.
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Kat, Have you tried psychotherapy? How was your family growing up ? Loving , etc? I am kind of doubting there was conistency there. If there was , then its possible borderline might have something to do with it and its nothing to do with past. But Remember if one can assume anxiety is excess energy , it might be very easy to fathom how that energy turns against self when there is no other place to go. I use to pull hairs out. I felt no good but I blamed myself for failing in life also and didn’t realize or understand how my past which I couldn’t control had a big reason for my own lack of self . I wanted to destroy myself and let out steam from anxiety at the same time. Many of these things play into each other. So I don’t think your alone with all this . By the way what is ptsd ?
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