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>I shouldn’t have to defend myself in this group. The fact that I’m here >should say >something about where my interests lie. .
Yes, your interests lie in being a big pain in all of our asses. You do NOT have PTSD, nor do you have an interest in it. You are here to irritate us, just as you irritate other newsgroups like alt.marriage.
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Once again, I have to say that to continue with the name calling and flaming is not making anyone on this newsgroup any healthier. Any ideas when this will stop? The trolls are the ones who continue to flame just for the sake of hurting someone. Think about your response before hitting the send button, please. Risa Some days, it’s just not worth chewing through the restraints.
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Hi Stephanie! > Maybe if the people here see that I’m making an attempt to get this thread into > normal mode, they’ll stick up for me wen they see Luanne trying to grab me by the > leg again.
Actually, I think that you are doing fine for yourself … if you like this kind of exchange. I see no reason to defend you, or to attack you. > I shouldn’t have to defend myself in this group. The fact that I’m here should say > something about where my interests lie. .
Actually, I think that you do NOT need to defend yourself, or anyone else, on this ng. It seems to me that if we have a personality disorder and distorted thinking, we need to learn that we do NOT need to defend ourselves externally (like writing in this ng), but internally where we can heal our own hurts. I think that these heated exchanges are an opportunity for my own healing. They give me a mirror to see how others have seen me in the past, and a mirror to see what progress I have made over the last several years. I seem to have achieved some sort of inner peace! Amazing! I feel little need to be involved in the blame and judgment game which is currently rampant. One of the finest compliments I receive in this ng is that many times my messages have no responses. Someone posted lately that s/he felt let down when no one replied. I believe that expecting a bunch of people with personality disorders to agree with me is a useless task. If no one replies, I figure that either they cannot agree, do not comprehend or have not distorted their thinking in the same way that I have in the past. Then again, they may not be at the same stage of recovery as I am. Rambling can be useful 
Smile and there will be something to smile about! Nancy
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Thank You Nancy… I’m learning things myself as well. Inspite of the back and forth debates between Luanne Scott and I. As you can see we have an opposing difference of opinion as to what’s acceptable conduct on this NG. . . It’s best you not get involved. But thank you for your comments. Today I received 700 , yes, I said 700 posts on my email. All from unsolicited advertising that someone thoughtfully signed me up for. I also received two calls from my Internet provider asking where the complaints were generating from and why. The only one I haven’t received a call from is My Boss. However Roger Smith the Troll did so I’m still waiting my turn. . This is one of those cases where I "DO" need to defend myself externally. I’m patient though. It will all blow over. Stephanie – Hide quoted text — Show quoted text -kipco wrote: > Hi Stephanie! > > Maybe if the people here see that I’m making an attempt to get this thread into > > normal mode, they’ll stick up for me wen they see Luanne trying to grab me by the > > leg again. > Actually, I think that you are doing fine for yourself … if you like this kind > of exchange. I see no reason to defend you, or to attack you. > > I shouldn’t have to defend myself in this group. The fact that I’m here should say > > something about where my interests lie. . > Actually, I think that you do NOT need to defend yourself, or anyone else, on > this ng. It seems to me that if we have a personality disorder and distorted > thinking, we need to learn that we do NOT need to defend ourselves externally > (like writing in this ng), but internally where we can heal our own hurts. > I think that these heated exchanges are an opportunity for my own healing. They > give me a mirror to see how others have seen me in the past, and a mirror to see > what progress I have made over the last several years. I seem to have achieved > some sort of inner peace! Amazing! > I feel little need to be involved in the blame and judgment game which is > currently rampant. > One of the finest compliments I receive in this ng is that many times my > messages have no responses. Someone posted lately that s/he felt let down when > no one replied. I believe that expecting a bunch of people with personality > disorders to agree with me is a useless task. If no one replies, I figure that > either they cannot agree, do not comprehend or have not distorted their thinking > in the same way that I have in the past. Then again, they may not be at the > same stage of recovery as I am. > Rambling can be useful > Smile and there will be something to smile about! > Nancy
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> Don’t respond to them. They will settle down. But you two keep going at it > fling for fling. Its a battle of egos honey – nobody wins. > Laure
You made some good points Laure. I have tried several times to cut the crap but it’s hard walking when you have to keep kicking the Pit Bull off your leg. . Maybe if the people here see that I’m making an attempt to get this thread into normal mode, they’ll stick up for me wen they see Luanne trying to grab me by the leg again. Will some one also help me get this Troll weapon out of Luannes hand. I’m getting tired of ducking insults. I also don’t owe it to anyone to produce any documentation about whether or not I have or ever had PTSD. This is just ignorant abusive behavior and I would appreciate some help from the people here when Luanne starts in on me with accusations of whether or not I belong here or not. I shouldn’t have to defend myself in this group. The fact that I’m here should say something about where my interests lie. . Stephanie
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>I’m making an attempt to get this thread into >normal mode, they’ll stick up for me wen they see Luanne trying to grab me by >the >leg again.
I wouldn’t go NEAR your leg, you smelly troll and do not UNDERSTAND why your so-called husband ANDY could get BETWEEN ‘em. <shudder>
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Thank You Chris for the thoughts. And how is life treating you these days. Are you happy, sad, frustrated, satisfied with yourself ? Stephanie – Hide quoted text — Show quoted text -Chris Drew wrote: > x-no-archive: yes > EVERYBODY KNOWS… > You can’t be all things to all people. > You can’t do all things at once. > You can’t do all things equally well. > You can’t do all things better than everyone else. > Your humanity is showing just like everyone else’s. > SO… > You have to find out who you are, and be that. > You have to decide what comes first, and do that. > You have to discover your strengths, and use them. > You have to learn not to compete with others, > Because no one else is in the contest of *being you*. > THEN… > You will have learned to accept your own uniqueness. > You will have learned to set priorities and make decisions. > You will have learned to live with your limitations. > You will have learned to give yourself the respect that is due, > And you’ll be a most vital mortal. > DARE TO BELIEVE… > That you are a wonderful, unique person. > That you are a once-in-all-history event. > That it’s more than a right, it’s your duty, to be who you are. > That life is not a problem to solve, but a gift to cherish. > And you’ll be able to stay one up on what used to get you down. > UNKNOWN
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>Thank You Chris for the thoughts. >And how is life treating you these days. >Are you happy, sad, frustrated, satisfied with yourself ?
Can’t you understand what you are doing to the people on here? You are really doing a lot of damage, Stephanie….everybody is starting to leave because of you. Luanne
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Luanne, You’re a bit much to take. I’m sure I haven’t been the only person in your life to tell you to piss off. You need a re make of your character. Born again wouldn’t hurt you either. Stephanie – Hide quoted text — Show quoted text -LuanneP wrote: > >Thank You Chris for the thoughts. > >And how is life treating you these days. > >Are you happy, sad, frustrated, satisfied with yourself ? > Can’t you understand what you are doing to the people on here? You are really > doing a lot of damage, Stephanie….everybody is starting to leave because of > you. > Luanne
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Stephanie, I’m asking just this. Why are you here?
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I guess for the same reason why your probably here. PTSD has been so much a part of my life that I feel a sense of belonging and otherwise, I’m still trying to learn about it, overcome it and hopefully put my two cents in from experience in trying to help someone else through the maze. If the "Troll Control" Psychologists and Experts on who is PTSD and who isn’t, Scott and Lulu didn’t keep antagonizing me and name calling me, and trying to push me out the door with the "No body likes You go home Troll" I wouldn’t feel the need to constantly defend my integrity. I could actually relax and get into some of the posts here. Kind of hard to post though when everything you say gets twisted and pissed on. Just makes you mad and you can’t exactly concentrate on anything serious because they won’t let you. You know what I mean ? It’s all about collecting votes on who likes Stephanie and who doesn’t. I guess Luanne figures if she collects enough votes, Stephanie will just disappear. NOT. Stephanie – Hide quoted text — Show quoted text -LAURE82 wrote: > Stephanie, > I’m asking just this. Why are you here?
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Stephanie wrote: >I guess for the same reason why your probably here.
I’m here to assert my POV that you can be a warrior PTSD survivor, not a helpless victim. PTSD has been so<BR> >much a part of my life that I feel a sense of belonging and otherwise,<BR>
I hear what you’re saying. Its unfortunate that we keep repeating the same abuse over and over. Not intentionally, but on a whole other gut level. I had crazy people in my life, survivors share hostility and warfare as part of the past – its this stuff that I am getting through myself. I can’t afford to live in my head or re-create it. That part is over – its the bloody scar. But doesn’t hurt as friggin much anymore. >I’m still trying to learn about it, overcome it and hopefully put my two<BR> >cents in from experience in trying to help someone else through the<BR> >maze.<BR>
The thing is to start respecting who you are and give yourself the credit for getting through the hell. Its also knowing that putting yourself now in the middle of a war can’t be doing good things to your head. Not to mention the innocent bystanders. >If the "Troll Control" Psychologists and Experts on who is PTSD and who<BR> >isn’t, Scott and Lulu didn’t keep antagonizing me and name calling me,<BR> >and trying to push me out the door with the "No body likes You go home<BR> >Troll" I wouldn’t feel the need to constantly defend my integrity.
You don’t. You have as much right to be here as anyone else. I still think this is a free-speech society. You got to know when to draw the line though, for your own sanity’s sake. You can’t let the bastards win. By playing wargames with them you’re indulging them. All it would take is for you to stop resopnding. They won’t change – but you can. I’d be more than happy to discuss any topic (other than this bloody shit fest) with you. I<BR> >could actually relax and get into some of the posts here.
Kind of hard<BR> >to post though when everything you say gets twisted and pissed on.<BR> >Just makes you mad and you can’t exactly concentrate on anything serious<BR> >because they won’t let you. You know what I mean ?<BR>
Don’t respond to them. They will settle down. But you two keep going at it fling for fling. Its a battle of egos honey – nobody wins. >It’s all about collecting votes on who likes Stephanie and who doesn’t.<BR> >I guess Luanne figures if she collects enough votes, Stephanie will just<BR> >disappear. NOT.<BR>
Who gives a flying fuck who likes Luanne or not. In the end its you who have to live with yourself and be comfortable in your skin. You’re not going to change her. She’s lived this way for a long, long time. I don’t care what’s made her this way, its no concern of mine. Everybody has their story. The point is – you have to carry your own weight – nobody elses. Not your mother’s, father’s, perps’, kids’ or co-posters. Just look after yourself. Think about it. Laure
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