Trauma – PTSD

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I’m an impatient patient, although I’m forced to be patient by the pace of this process.  Wave your arms (|||||||||{}||||||||) if, like me, you initially planned to wave your magic wand to impatiently erase all of this, for lack of a better term:  Stuff! Disbelief:  "This can’t be happening to MMMMMEEEEE!!!"   Rationalization:  "Somehow my brain wires have gotten tangled up.  It’s age, yeah, that’s what it is.  It’s hormones!  Yeah, that’s it! Magical Thinking:  "Hosiptal?  Hmmmmmmm…maybe, briefly."  I got to the hospital.  "This is a PSYCH hospital!!!  I thought you meant a REGULAR hospital!  Get me outta here!"  Ooops.  Doors locked.  Can’t leave.  Trapped!   Well, I don’t know where I’m going with this.  Just popping off from reading the newsgroup.  I was struck both sad and amused by the "patience/impatience" notes.   Love ya!

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Hi folks! I love this thread! > I’m an impatient patient, although I’m forced to be patient by the pace of this > process.  Wave your arms (|||||||||{}||||||||) if, like me, you initially > planned to wave your magic wand to impatiently erase all of this, for lack of a > better term:  Stuff!

I’d wave like crazy (not sure if a pun is intended) except for the fact that I’m still waiting for Glenda, the good witch of the east, to wave her magic wand over me.  I used to own a small black dog … will that speed up Glenda’s visit? > Disbelief:  "This can’t be happening to MMMMMEEEEE!!!"

Every one who has known me for the last 30 years has this problem.  So, in trying to be all things to all people, I’ve tried to accept their views of me, rather than my own. :/ > Rationalization:  "Somehow my brain wires have gotten tangled up.  It’s age, > yeah, that’s what it is.  It’s hormones!  Yeah, that’s it!

The VA bought this load of horse manure in the early 1970s.  I’ve been on thyroid meds ever since.  Who, me with PTSD?   Not to P & C’s knowledg!.  Everything is fine! ???  So, why am I working on my 6th year of therapy?  Am I bored, without something useful to do?  or, do I just like writing off the medical miles each year on my tax return? > Magical Thinking:  "Hosiptal?  Hmmmmmmm…maybe, briefly."  I got to the > hospital.  "This is a PSYCH hospital!!!  I thought you meant a REGULAR > hospital!  Get me outta here!"  Ooops.  Doors locked.  Can’t leave.  Trapped!

The best part of this was when I got to sign myself out of a civilian hospital in the late 1970s with all the medical threats as part of the process.  After 6 days on the ward, I still hadn’t seen or talked to a therapist or psychiatrist.  All that was accomplished was I glued the hem back in my leather coat during OT … the working knowledge of rubber cement has helped me in later life, but I could have learned in an easier, more user-friendly manner.  No wonder that the suggestion of OT makes me crazed now! > Well, I don’t know where I’m going with this.  Just popping off from reading > the newsgroup.  I was struck both sad and amused by the "patience/impatience" > notes.

Thanks for the chance to see some facts that I’d forgotten about myself. Smile and there will be something to smile about! Nancy

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