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Hi Sabin! Welcome to this group. I am sorry that you qualify. > Just found this group, and found this comment really helpful. I still wake up with > negative voices greeting me, and couldn’t relate it to anybody.
Thank you for this gift. > PS. I just went off zoloft, and for those considering it, I would highly recommend > that you research and consider it. I am going back on it as soon as possible (my > health insurance ran out). It helped with the anger, phsyical irritation, anxiety, > flashes, etc.. all those are back now unfortunately..
As a temporary substitute, you might want to get some St. John’s Wort from a health food store. It is alleged to contain the same active ingredient as Zoloft. (I am terrified of going off my Zoloft/sertraline, so little old hypervigilant me ‘heard’ this comment several years back.) Isn’t it wonderful how some of our symptoms come in handy 
Smile and there will be something to smile about! Nancy
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Okay, self-recrimination is an awful pattern I’ve developed. I’ve finally concretely connected it to the one person that heaped it upon me all my life until I was 12.5. My father, abuser, etc. Now what do I do? Just talking about the self-condemnation (should haves could haves) made me obsessively start doing it! Sheesh. Positive self-talk is the therapist’s prescription. That and trying to HEAR and GET the compliments and positive reinforcements I receive in life (anyone else have fun with that one?) ~considering calling myself crazy~ Kristine
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Hi Kristine! > Positive self-talk is the therapist’s prescription. That and trying to HEAR > and GET the compliments and positive reinforcements I receive in life (anyone > else have fun with that one?)
Apparently, one of the hallmarks of PTSD is distorted thinking, including distorted hearing. I’ve been working on this for 6 years. OTOH, I had a lifetime before then of hearing the negative self-talk and believing that it was confirmed by my trauma experiences. Considering that I believed God was punishing me in this life by ‘giving me’ my traumas, I’m not surprised that it’s taking so long to get the hang of positive hearing and positive self-talk. Acceptance (rather than judgment) has been the first stage for me, and it’s taking a very long time to get over the judging (shoulds musts etc). What I am having to learn is to ‘let go and let God’ rather than ‘taking others inventory’. One of the hallmarks of 12 Step groups is ‘Don’t should on me’. :) [Anyone here from New Hampshire?] Anyway, when something is being removed, rather than leaving an empty spot, I need to have a replacement habit. Smile and there will be something to smile about! Nancy
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Just found this group, and found this comment really helpful. I still wake up with negative voices greeting me, and couldn’t relate it to anybody. PS. I just went off zoloft, and for those considering it, I would highly recommend that you research and consider it. I am going back on it as soon as possible (my health insurance ran out). It helped with the anger, phsyical irritation, anxiety, flashes, etc.. all those are back now unfortunately.. – Hide quoted text — Show quoted text -ki…@cris.com wrote: > Hi Kristine! > > Positive self-talk is the therapist’s prescription. That and trying to HEAR > > and GET the compliments and positive reinforcements I receive in life (anyone > > else have fun with that one?) > Apparently, one of the hallmarks of PTSD is distorted thinking, including > distorted hearing. I’ve been working on this for 6 years. OTOH, I had a > lifetime before then of hearing the negative self-talk and believing that it was > confirmed by my trauma experiences. > Considering that I believed God was punishing me in this life by ‘giving me’ my > traumas, I’m not surprised that it’s taking so long to get the hang of positive > hearing and positive self-talk. Acceptance (rather than judgment) has been the > first stage for me, and it’s taking a very long time to get over the judging > (shoulds musts etc). What I am having to learn is to ‘let go and let God’ > rather than ‘taking others inventory’. One of the hallmarks of 12 Step groups > is ‘Don’t should on me’. :) [Anyone here from New Hampshire?] > Anyway, when something is being removed, rather than leaving an empty spot, I > need to have a replacement habit. > Smile and there will be something to smile about! > Nancy
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