Question:
Hi JP, You know, I used to tell myself that I wasn’t depressed too and that my trauma simply changed me forever and I just had to accept that the way I was feeling as the new changed me. It took me eight years to realise that, yes, the trauma changed me forever but the new me can make some changes too. It was extremely difficult seeking help but I just reached a point where I was fed up… at the end of my rope… and couldn’t stand living another day like I was. In my opinion you are getting close to that point but haven’t quite completely accepted your denial. This is strictly my opinion, but I realised and accepted that I needed both meds and therapy to get out of my state… meds being first to help bring me up and stop panic attacks (well, at least lessen) etc. and then therapy because my "problems" are not strictly chemical imbalance. So far, this combo has been working for me. I have ups and downs but my ups are higher then they have been in years… I give the credit for progress to the meds, therapy, and extreme effort on my part. ( I also am part of a group on the net that deals with ptsd issues and I have to give a great deal of credit to progress there too… they have been incredible). There is hope JP and it is difficult to obtain but once you obtain it you will be ready for the many steps ahead of you. : ) With the best of intentions at heart for you… make that appointment. Go for it! What have you got to lose, right? Take care and I wish you the best, Patricia. – Hide quoted text — Show quoted text – Thanks for the response. I rarely feel if I have any strength, just that if I donn’t do anything about this then I know I cannot put up with living much longer. Its just a case of doing what has to be done no matter how much I don’t want to. I suppose the difficult part will be actually going to make an appointment, something I hope to do soon. There were times when I actually considered the possibility that I wasn’t even depressed, that my feelings were just a natural reaction to life, which has always been bad (silly I know, perhaps this was just the depression making me think like this, as it there was in fact nothing wrong with me and life should be like this). Anyway, as I mentioned, the only way I think I am going to get out of this (if ever) is if I see a therapist, I don’t think meds will help until I sort my life out, or at least it becomes a little more bearable. Thanks for the support and understanding, although it doesn’t really give me any hope, it makes me feel a little better, knowing that somebody cares. I think this needs to be my next step, trying to convince myself that it doesn’t always have to be like this. — JP
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Response:
- Hide quoted text — Show quoted text – Hi JP, You know, I used to tell myself that I wasn’t depressed too and that my trauma simply changed me forever and I just had to accept that the way I was feeling as the new changed me. It took me eight years to realise that, yes, the trauma changed me forever but the new me can make some changes too. It was extremely difficult seeking help but I just reached a point where I was fed up… at the end of my rope… and couldn’t stand living another day like I was. In my opinion you are getting close to that point but haven’t quite completely accepted your denial. This is strictly my opinion, but I realised and accepted that I needed both meds and therapy to get out of my state… meds being first to help bring me up and stop panic attacks (well, at least lessen) etc. and then therapy because my "problems" are not strictly chemical imbalance. So far, this combo has been working for me. I have ups and downs but my ups are higher then they have been in years… I give the credit for progress to the meds, therapy, and extreme effort on my part. ( I also am part of a group on the net that deals with ptsd issues and I have to give a great deal of credit to progress there too… they have been incredible). There is hope JP and it is difficult to obtain but once you obtain it you will be ready for the many steps ahead of you. : ) With the best of intentions at heart for you… make that appointment. Go for it! What have you got to lose, right? Take care and I wish you the best, Patricia.
Thanks, I am going to make an appointment soon, I’ve just got a few things to sort out first. Hopefully it will also give me a chance to try and convinve myself that it is worth the effort. — JP
Response:
Oops… hit the wrong button… my message ended up further down the threads by itself. Sorry for the inconveinience. : ) Patricia. uhhhhhh, the thread was already "going"…..responses to a post I made. It would be a good idea to start a completely new thread, rather than "hijacking" another’s. Just seems more "polite". Thanks a lot, Heather You are quite correct, sorry for being rude and I apologise. — JP
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Hi JP, Hmmm…guess I hit the wrong button again with that second message. : / … didn’t think I did… oh well. I wish you the best in deciding whether it is worth it… I guess because I have made progress from it I want to see it happen for you too. : ) I see my therapist this afternoon and I have to admit I am scared. : ( We have reached "unpacking" of my trauma. I am afraid as to how I may react… panic attack, re-experiencing…<sigh… we’ll see. Hope your studies are going well… mind my asking what you are taking? Take care and I wish you the best, Patricia. – Hide quoted text — Show quoted text – Hi JP, You know, I used to tell myself that I wasn’t depressed too and that my trauma simply changed me forever and I just had to accept that the way I was feeling as the new changed me. It took me eight years to realise that, yes, the trauma changed me forever but the new me can make some changes too. It was extremely difficult seeking help but I just reached a point where I was fed up… at the end of my rope… and couldn’t stand living another day like I was. In my opinion you are getting close to that point but haven’t quite completely accepted your denial. This is strictly my opinion, but I realised and accepted that I needed both meds and therapy to get out of my state… meds being first to help bring me up and stop panic attacks (well, at least lessen) etc. and then therapy because my "problems" are not strictly chemical imbalance. So far, this combo has been working for me. I have ups and downs but my ups are higher then they have been in years… I give the credit for progress to the meds, therapy, and extreme effort on my part. ( I also am part of a group on the net that deals with ptsd issues and I have to give a great deal of credit to progress there too… they have been incredible). There is hope JP and it is difficult to obtain but once you obtain it you will be ready for the many steps ahead of you. : ) With the best of intentions at heart for you… make that appointment. Go for it! What have you got to lose, right? Take care and I wish you the best, Patricia. Thanks, I am going to make an appointment soon, I’ve just got a few things to sort out first. Hopefully it will also give me a chance to try and convinve myself that it is worth the effort. — JP
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