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- Hide quoted text — Show quoted text – Hi. I couldn’t decide exactly where to post this, so I thought I’d start here. I am in the middle of some fairly anxiety-provoking stuff right now, and thought that I would see what others do for similar issues. Seems like most of you do drugs of some sort or another. No help for me, I *won’t* do psychotropic drugs. Period. Status: A) Diagnosed with severe PTSD in 1982 after attending the dedication of the Vietnam Memorial in Wash DC. (Spent some time there in combat – messy business.) Recently, due to some other stresses, the nightmares and dissociative episodes returned. Enough to land me in the hospital for a heart angiogram, the palps were so bad. They found a heart anomaly which could drop me if my heartrate gets above 135 or so. I am struggling mightily with this whole issue. B) Due to the Heart issues, my business failed this Sept. I am struggling with some deep feelings over this one as well right now. Many customers were friends, and it is truly embarassing. C) Due to the business going under, I am currently in a Federal Personal Bankruptcy proceeding. This is also not easy at all for me to accept on top of everything else right now. D) The big hammer. It is 99.9% certain that I have cancer. I am waiting for an answer this week as to whether I have one, three, five, or ten years left. Best case might be around 13 years. Means that my 2 & 6 yr old daughters will lose daddy at 15, or even younger. We have been chasing the damned stuff for two years. I have had to think about it for two long years, on top of, and along with everything else. This week I find out. I almost don’t care. The damned war-related crap is harder right now. I trust doctors about as far as I can throw a grand piano. I don’t trust shrinks at all, and won’t do drugs, or live therapy groups. This is the first time I have posted anything like this on the net. So, what can you suggest? I’ve about had it. Sorry if the post was group-inappropriate.
Charlie, Boy do you have a load of troubles. I can imagine how powerless you feel. I don’t have any quick fixes. But I do know a way you can have a happier more fulfilled life with a lot less pain. I was in your position. Combat scars in Korea, nervous wreck, 22year old daughter died, addicted to valium, cocaine, grass, 4 packs a day, compulsive overeater, diabetes, heart problems and those were my more joyous qualities. A man came into my life fifteen years ago who taught me how to mature. He taught me a way to grow from the trials of life. So the tougher things get the more mature and happy I become. (Most of the time) My arteries were all clogged up and now they are perfectly clear
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