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Mark Brown wrote… Jackie, Unfortunately for some that’s easier said than done — Mark Brown
Thank you for making my stay in this newsgroup just a little bit easier: as a newbie, not knowing the background of the trolling allegations, I was giving you the benefit of doubt. Given this message where you obviously are trolling for sympathy by abusing posts made by people at a vulnerable time *2 weeks* ago I need not bother to read your messages any longer. Thank you, and goodnight. Vashti
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See Mark? You are a putz no matter what personality breaks out next. Shame. — TC3
– Hide quoted text — Show quoted text – Mark Brown wrote… Jackie, Unfortunately for some that’s easier said than done — Mark Brown Thank you for making my stay in this newsgroup just a little bit easier: as a newbie, not knowing the background of the trolling allegations, I was giving you the benefit of doubt. Given this message where you obviously are trolling for sympathy by abusing posts made by people at a vulnerable time *2 weeks* ago I need not bother to read your messages any longer. Thank you, and goodnight. Vashti
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– Hide quoted text — Show quoted text -Mark Brown wrote… Jackie, Unfortunately for some that’s easier said than done — Mark Brown Thank you for making my stay in this newsgroup just a little bit easier: as a newbie, not knowing the background of the trolling allegations, I was giving you the benefit of doubt. Given this message where you obviously are trolling for sympathy by abusing posts made by people at a vulnerable time *2 weeks* ago I need not bother to read your messages any longer. Thank you, and goodnight. Vashti
Thank you, and good morning — Mark Brown
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– Hide quoted text — Show quoted text -Mark Brown wrote… Jackie, Unfortunately for some that’s easier said than done — Mark Brown Thank you for making my stay in this newsgroup just a little bit easier: as a newbie, not knowing the background of the trolling allegations, I was giving you the benefit of doubt. Given this message where you obviously are trolling for sympathy by abusing posts made by people at a vulnerable time *2 weeks* ago I need not bother to read your messages any longer. Thank you, and goodnight. Vashti
A bit of a contradiction in terms , I don’t need sympathy want it thank you — Mark Brown
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Ok, lemme give this a shot…if nothing else I have to *think* for a minute right? I have made a call to my psychologist to talk to him and see if he feels I should talk to the psychiatrist to call in something to gain a little control…but he does a lot of PTSD work with veterans and I would imagine he has his hands more than full today with the VA hospital. You’re obviously having a lot of difficulty, Robin, so why are you any less important than anyone else?
Not less important, but when he works with the VA hospital he isn’t in his normal office. SO it is hard to reach him… If he has a lot to do or not isn’t your concern. What your concern right now is getting the help you need. We all do, in some way.
I’m trying….I actually napped, didn’t think I could do that today. I thought that it was something that would just pass for me, but it hasn’t. I’m not often surprised, but my "own" reactions surprise me.
Waking up to senate decisions I don’t know anything about…you can’t help be feel rattled…I know in all reality I am not the only one. Regardless…. your reactions/feelings about being alone at home, of not wanting to go out… well, I think this quite natural, PTSD or not. But you won’t be convinced of that without help. Get in touch with your medical support team, and allow yourself to feel, but also allow yourself to be helped.
I agree that some of it is normal. The things that relate to the PTSD issues also stretch to PD issues, the startle response, the cat can make me jump through my skin right now…the dizzy feeling, disoriented sometimes. I have been through all these sensations, but before there were no rational thoughts going with them. That’s almost worse, because my analytical mind is functioning now, and it was obviousy a blessing NOT to be able to think then. I seriously doubt that you’ll slide back, Robin (just this short term anxiety that most are feeling, IMO). I don’t doubt that you feel that way, or that you’re afraid of it. I think there’s a lot of healing for so many, and that’s going to take time for all.
I know that you are right Sloop… I’d suggest you and everyone allow yourself to "feel," – but not dwell (such as keeping the TV on, for example). I turned it off, and the damn radio broke in with Bush speaking. So, back on went the TV in my office.
I can’t explain the guilt I feel if I walk away, but I’m sure I’m not the only one. I know this reaction, it came last time…pre PTSD, pre Panic….that reassures me that life will return, because I knew this before, it was *extreme* but not out of the range of normal…so I can imagine getting past it again…it’s just the mind tricks I’m too curious, I guess. I "should" just turn the damn thing off and listen to CDs. I’m off to mail some letters, but I really don’t feel like it. I think I know what you’re talking about, Robin, to "some" degree. ( and I don’t think it’s irrational one single bit )
It does help to know that others understand, even not knowing what degree each of us are dealing with it, to know that it doesn’t make us sound like we are wrong to have the feelings…it helps Even if I stay home for the rest of the day (I took a short drive this AM), so be it. Each has to put things into perspective as best as possible, and as soon as possible, I believe. It’s different for everyone. If one needs help in doing so, get it. For many of us, because of the "sliding back" feeling, after SO MUCH work, can be unbearable. Don’t allow that feeling to sneak in, but allow it to be a natural reaction to the recent actions. It’s normal – very much so.
I decided to let it ride today, let myself be inactive…let myself soak in the fear but let it wash out too…while I know that so many other emotions are going to be replacing and rotating through the weeks ahead, I know that I can do this…I came from my own personal hell once…I can again. Again, anyone who needs help – seek it right away. That "set back" feeling (true or not – and it can be) might make it that we ARE more prone to need help than most others. If so, get it!
I agree, I said I would wait until after noon and then just call the pdoc myself….I’m going to now. You’re not alone…
Thank you When a friend is in trouble, don’t annoy him by asking if there is anything you can do. Think up something appropriate and do it. — E. W. Howe
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– Hide quoted text — Show quoted text -Robin wrote…… I can’t move…I had to go to the gas station, somewhere I was able to go to first in my recovery….not far, familiar…but today I couldn’t drive. I couldn’t go alone off the porch. Wes made me go with him driving because at least I would get out. I shook all the way there, all the way in, all the way home….it’s unbearable. It’s almost worse with the mind working, understanding how irrational the reactions are. I was scheduled to do the voc rehab (rescheduled from the migrane day) this morning. Driving alone for a 4 hour appointment is something I KNEW I couldn’t handle today. I talked to the counselor and she was very understanding. I feel paralyzed today. I feel like I am mid-meltdown….can’t cry, no release, guilt overwhelming over just being alive today…it’s repetitive for me, although the last time, I didn’t have the PD and PTSD issues, I was glued to the TV, unable to let it go and move on with life. The kids didn’t come today, they ground me when I am like this, but their mom took off work today, and I don’t know if they even went to school. So with Wes leaving soon, I will be alone again today to face the fears that mount in my head. For those of you who have known me all along, you know I came to far to let this take me back there….I’m fighting like hell, but right now I am feeling I have to give in to get past it. I hope I’m right. God bless everyone….I’m still scared Dear Robin, I understand you are scared {{{{{Robin}}}}} I think you are expecting alot from yourself at this point. I was listening to a psychiatrist on the TV today and he said that anyone involved, even people just watching the events on TV can suffer from some PTSD and that was to be expected. I think almost everybody, anxiety disorder or not are having setbacks today. Nobody wants to leave their house, there is this paralysis that I think many of us are experiencing. Take this time to pamper and reassure yourself that you will be okay. I can understand that you don`t want to be alone, if I could I would keep you company. Jackie Strength We don’t always have to be strong to be strong. Sometimes our strength is expressed in being vulnerable.
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