Question:
Lea, I hear your pain and hope that you are finding a way to work through some of it. I know it is very difficult. blessings, Renee *what other people think of you is none of your business* *If you are going through hell, KEEP MOVING!* ______________________________ – Hide quoted text — Show quoted text -Lea Filos wrote in message <301d2.1246$vg4.2092…@newshog.newsread.com>… >i have ptsd from repeated rape, physical and emotional abuse, and most >recently from verbal assult by coworkers accusing me of being a sexual >preditor, incompetent, unprofessional, and criminal. >i take effexor-300mg trazodone-150mg inderal-40mg ativan-1mg darvoct-100mg >and a lot of asprin and ibupropen. >i agree with cyndy lou that it is to learn from; it really hurts me a >lot……………….
Response:
Hi Lea I have been having a hard time responding to you, even though I was sexually assaulted and understand partly what your going through. I too have been accused of being the preditor, I’ll give in to being a flirt but I think preditor is a lil strong. After I was 30 most of my friends had gotten married, so I began to be left out of social gatherings simply because I was single, this really hurt a lot as my friends are my biggest support group. I have a very high degree of integrity and would never consider make moves on a married person….flirt and dance yes….but only as a sign of friendly affection. Of course the guys didn’t like this. I have also been accused of incompetance recently, it really hurts because I have typically been known as a person who goes beyond the call of duty. I think you have to look at the motivations of the accusers as there can be many, in my case it is money but I can see being envious, jealous and a lot more motivations. We almost must look at ourselves and own our own shit too, this can be especially hard for us, but it is a major part of the healing. However if people have alterior motives it is incredibly easy for them to blow lil imperfections way out of proportion. Who in hell wants to be perfect anyhoo, it is an impossible goal, we have to love ourselves for who we are and if we see something we don’t like then we have the power to change it. Feel your pain and acknowledge it, knowing that it will go away and there will be sunny days ahead. Have FUN!!! James Lea Filos wrote in message <301d2.1246$vg4.2092…@newshog.newsread.com>…
i have ptsd from repeated rape, physical and emotional abuse, and most recently from verbal assult by coworkers accusing me of being a sexual preditor, incompetent, unprofessional, and criminal. i take effexor-300mg trazodone-150mg inderal-40mg ativan-1mg darvoct-100mg and a lot of asprin and ibupropen. i agree with cyndy lou that it is to learn from; it really hurts me a lot……………….
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