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I'm Making an Example of Artemesia

Question:

You anti-feminist trolls from soc.men better watch your step!  I have an advantage over you!  And that is, that I HAVE NO LIFE!  

So I have tons of time to research EVERYONE’s skeletons!  Do you hear me??  EVERYONE’S skeletons!

 I will burrow my way into your core like a worm and expose your stinking innards for all to see!!! Ahahah!  AHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!

do you remember this post from earlier this week. Arte

Response:

You anti-feminist trolls from soc.men better watch your step!  I have an advantage over you!  And that is, that I HAVE NO LIFE!  

[snip] do you remember this post from earlier this week. Arte

Have you met % ? George

Response:

You should post in every thread. Without DL, you’re by far the best person here.

– Hide quoted text — Show quoted text – You anti-feminist trolls from soc.men better watch your step!  I have an advantage over you!  And that is, that I HAVE NO LIFE!  So I have tons of time to research EVERYONE’s skeletons!  Do you hear me??  EVERYONE’S skeletons!  I will burrow my way into your core like a worm and expose your stinking innards for all to see!!! Ahahah!  AHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!! Bbblllaaaaaahahahahahahahahaha <snicker I haven’t seen this much fun since I hired Carmlo to annoy everyone for me. — The REAL Raven Blackbane Victoria Borg is a Sweedish Woman that I am impersonating http://anneli.com/blackbane IRC : /server anneli.com #witchcraft creator of alt.witchcraft creator of alt.traditional.witchcraft I am not the creator of alt.religion.wicca don’t like my postings, then go to where I am banned for life:   alt.religion.wicca.moderated                                     //// /// ‘~ (    —–                                    // /  // :    ) —–   Raven                                   /  /  /  /)   / —-   BlackBane                                        /   //..       A Fake Witch

Response:

Let’s play the guessing game.

Here’s a short list of things that the vast majority of my "friends" do not know about me.  With time and trust, lots of it is revealed, but I see no reason to lay it all out on them at once. 1.  i’m and upper middle class white southerner from an old colonial family that owned slaves.  in fact, i am a Maryland Lloyd.  We owned Fredrick Douglas.

I knew that.  Or not. 2.  I’m an adult child of an alcoholic.

You’re also an alcoholic yourself, correct? 3.  I was once raped by a man older than my father who had proudly donated a new building at his synagog…..a building that bears his name.

Grandfather? 4.  That I make more money than 95% of the owmen in the united states,     (I’m a senior VP at a naitonal brokerage firm.)  i usually just tell people     that I work for the firm.

I make more than 95% of owmen in the US too.  What’s a owmen? 5.  That my 1st husband, and my first cousin were both shot down in VietNam and are still missing in Action.  (They have never been accounted for…..2,500 of our men are still issing in that war.

Ha! 6.  My weight, my IQ, my net worth.

A hair less than Talesin’s.  46. A nickel and a can of beefaroni. 7.  That my 2nd husband was related to the Winemaking family of the same name and that I have inherited almost 5% of the company from him and his mother.

Alcoholism again? 8.  That i have recently been diagnosed as bipolar II and that manic depression runs rampant in my mother’s maternal line.

Big surprise. 9.  that I am pro Palestinan and do not believe Isreal is the 51st State.

This is actually a good thing. 10.  What I’m really thinking most of the time.

Nothing?  A totally vapid personality?

Response:

I’m feeling really shakey tonight, and i guess it’s a good idea to reveal this as it happens because it is very much a manifestation. Just before this war thing i was almost ready to go back to work.  I know that the war has triggered PTSD–i’m the widow of a Viet Nam USMC pilot who was shot down in Viet Nam. I had been finally slleping during the nights and being awake during the days….a real requirement in my line of work.  That is totally gone.  I’ve also slowed down into stupor and am more into "doing nothing at all" than I have been for a long while. I’e been doing my "to do list" a whole lot less than I should be. All of these have dramatically droped off since the WTC thing.  Was that 2 and a half weeks ago? Alan has been really lovely to me.  Our letters have been realy beautiful and we both know in this situation our values are very, very similar.  I think we’ve gotten even closer than we were before. This morning, I received a little letter in which he pouredhis heart out to me about 3 very minor little disasters that happened to him this morning, and the way he did it lets me know that he needs me as much as I need him…..and we’re probably pretty close to taking the leap.  (The disasters are tiny and irrelevant…..broken fridge, broken zipper, needs an auto repair.) I haven’t heard from him all day. This comment is significant because we are not even remotely fighting, hardly missing. In the last few days the letters i’ve written him have been so cute that I’ve laughed out loud writing them, and even reading them later. I’ve laid in bed feeling peacefully post coital and really, securely loved. Today I slept all day long.  Being out of bed less than 3 hours in the last 18. I feel very vaguely suicidal. He’s making a speech and getting an award in 6 weeks, and I’ll probably go.  But i went to check the calander and paniced that I won’t have time to lose enough weight.  (I weigh within 10 pounds of what I did when i met him.)  I looked in the mirror and i looked so ugly that I was overwhelmed with the thought of being seen in public, and how I couldn’t possibly let him or his friends see me like this. I’m crying now, and I don’t know what to do.  I may have told you that I decided long ago that I will never commit suicide because so many people in my family have done it and it’s hard on the survivors…….but, in those little moments between sleep and waking I want to be dead. I don’t know how I can present myself to him in this condition.  And wonder if I will have to hide in my house for the rest of my life. Of course this is academic because I’ve gone thought all my savings and if I don’t go back to work I will loose my house.  i’m not in arrears now, but money is tight. A few hours ago I posted to rebfla that I’m doing so much better, but this self loathing and fear of abandonment can sweep over me from out of the blue because it’s never really all that far from the surface. What do I do now? Artemesia For those of you who no who I am and who he is,,,,,,,,DO NOT PANIC—-Do not tell him. I’ve felt like this before and I know it will pass, but I want you to see what it looks like when it’s here. It’s so painful! The minute he shows me once again that he loves me, I see every reason why nobody ever could. what do I do now. I’m going to take a prescribed sleeping pill, just one, and go back to bed. I can’t keep going through this, but I don’t know how to stop the recurrances. Arte

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Here’s a short list of things that the vast majority of my "friends" do not know about me.  With time and trust, lots of it is revealed, but I see no reason to lay it all out on them at once. 1.  i’m and upper middle class white southerner from an old colonial family that owned slaves.  in fact, i am a Maryland Lloyd.  We owned Fredrick Douglas. 2.  I’m an adult child of an alcoholic. 3.  I was once raped by a man older than my father who had proudly donated a new building at his synagog…..a building that bears his name. 4.  That I make more money than 95% of the owmen in the united states,     (I’m a senior VP at a naitonal brokerage firm.)  i usually just tell people     that I work for the firm. 5.  That my 1st husband, and my first cousin were both shot down in VietNam and are still missing in Action.  (They have never been accounted for…..2,500 of our men are still issing in that war. 6.  My weight, my IQ, my net worth. 7.  That my 2nd husband was related to the Winemaking family of the same name and that I have inherited almost 5% of the company from him and his mother. 8.  That i have recently been diagnosed as bipolar II and that manic depression runs rampant in my mother’s maternal line. 9.  that I am pro Palestinan and do not believe Isreal is the 51st State. 10.  What I’m really thinking most of the time. Why bother?  If they stick around and keep their eyes open, they’ll probably figure it out themselves, if and only if they recognize it when the see it. Many people wouldn’t figure any of this out if it came out and bit them on the butt. And besides, so many people are really just not paying that close attention to me. Disclaimer:  I will not be having any children at this point in my life, so that doesn’t become an issue.  I do let them know, if they need to know, that I won’t be bearing their child. Artemesia

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You anti-feminist trolls from soc.men better watch your step!  I have an advantage over you!  And that is, that I HAVE NO LIFE!  So I have tons of time to research EVERYONE’s skeletons!  Do you hear me??  EVERYONE’S skeletons!  I will burrow my way into your core like a worm and expose your stinking innards for all to see!!! Ahahah!  AHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!

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You anti-feminist trolls from soc.men better watch your step!  I have an advantage over you!  And that is, that I HAVE NO LIFE!  So I have tons of time to research EVERYONE’s skeletons!  Do you hear me??  EVERYONE’S skeletons!  I will burrow my way into your core like a worm and expose your stinking innards for all to see!!! Ahahah!  AHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!

Either that’s the funniest forgery I’ve ever read, or the stupidest troll post…. –Joel Version: 3.12 GCS/O d- s++:- a– C++++$ P+ L E? N+++ K- w++ M– PS Y+ PGP- t(+) 5(++) R++ tv(–) b+++ DI+++ D+ G++++ e**++ h-(+) !r y(**)+(++)

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You anti-feminist trolls from soc.men better watch your step!  I have an advantage over you!  And that is, that I HAVE NO LIFE!  So I have tons of time to research EVERYONE’s skeletons!  Do you hear me??  EVERYONE’S skeletons!  I will burrow my way into your core like a worm and expose your stinking innards for all to see!!! Ahahah!  AHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!

Bbblllaaaaaahahahahahahahahaha <snicker I haven’t seen this much fun since I hired Carmlo to annoy everyone for me. — The REAL Raven Blackbane Victoria Borg is a Sweedish Woman that I am impersonating http://anneli.com/blackbane IRC : /server anneli.com #witchcraft creator of alt.witchcraft creator of alt.traditional.witchcraft I am not the creator of alt.religion.wicca don’t like my postings, then go to where I am banned for life:   alt.religion.wicca.moderated                                     //// /// ‘~ (    —–                                    // /  // :    ) —–   Raven                                   /  /  /  /)   / —-   BlackBane                                        /   //..       A Fake Witch

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