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I have been feeling like you lately . I also have boughten shells for my 357 magnun. But I have my kids and for 6 more yr’s they need me , after that I will probrobly shoot myself. I am also thinkin of taking some Society Maggots w/me. Thanks for the ear if you want someone to join you in this event E me at
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I have been feeling like you lately . I also have boughten shells for my 357 magnun.
Go to the range and punch some paper. The focus required for shooting at targets can be helpful. But I have my kids and for 6 more yr’s they need me , after that I will probrobly shoot myself. I am also thinkin of taking some Society Maggots w/me.
You are thinking about homicide/suicide? That is some pretty heavy shit. What do you mean by "Society Maggots," are they specific sorts of people? Thanks for the ear if you want someone to join you in this event E me at
I still haven’t seen the original post in this thread. I wonder if it was canceled before it made it to the server I use. I will not enter into any email conspiracies.
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Don’t do it Carmen, you have a lot to live for. You may not be able to see it now but you do. You are loved.
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Carmen, I feel the same way that you do but keep struggling with that survival instinct. I too have lost my job, have no family near me and feel that there is no reason to go on. I keep telling myself that there has to be a reason, yet i cannot find one. Perhaps the reason was for me to find you and we can help each other through the hard times. I know how hard it is when you feel so alone and like nobody really would care if you left this world or not. I hope that you do not. It is because of so many losses in my life that my illness had been worsened by PTSD. I knew, for one brief moment, what happiness felt like and there is nothing i won’t do to feel it again. We just have to have faith. Please let me know that you will go on.
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do not do it. There is a reason for every life on earth. Go and get a few part time jobs at book stores, craft shops or any place positive. You need to go find a place of happiness maybe it will work for you… but, please put the gun away.
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Carmen, I’m new to this group and your situation, but I was exactly where you were two years ago, right down to the gun, note, and selected place. I’ve been trying to get myself out of recurring depression and suicidal periods for many years, with much therapy and drugs like you. A couple of years ago, I did go down to my selected place, but after much trying I was just too scared to go from existence to non-existence in a split second, and couldn’t pull the trigger, no matter how painful and hopeless I felt. In the past couple of years, I’ve done two things which have helped me, though my struggle is not yet over. The first is that I found a good chemical psychiatrist who worked with me trying out medications till we found ones that worked well enough to give me a lift. I went from prozac, which had stopped working for me, and went to zoloft and welbutrin, which I’m still on. It made a big difference in how I felt. The second thing was that I started to break away from my family, who seemed to actually be intimately related to my depression and suicidal thoughts without me being aware of it, even after 18 years in therapy. So you may want to check this out, maybe with a new therapist. I hope that you don’t do yourself in. I think that as bad as it seems now, it can get better for you as it did for me. with much caring, Lon
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