Question:
Gonna spoiler here just in case I get graphic. It’s about a dream I had that is abuse related. x x x x x x x x x x Ok, I haven’t had this kind of dream in _years_! Good thing I remember how to cope with them! I think it’s like riding a bike… Anyway, so I guess all of this OB cr*p is triggering stuff because I’ve noticed more intrusive thoughts and past related PTSD stuff flairing up lately. Good thing I got it figured out and got a new dr! The dream was one of those typical, perp chasing me and me trying to get help and all that. At least I try to get help now. _That_ never happened befor t’py. Of course help is always late or not enough or whatever, but maybe some day I’ll figure out how to get it to show up sooner. So, perp was chasing me, threatening to k*ll me, very life like and memory like. I ran to a neighbors house and they let me in and I tried to call the police but 911 wasn’t working. I told the neighbors to keep trying and I went and hid. Perp kept looking for me and started going door to door ‘have you seen my kid?’ stuff. Neighbors told him no but he heard me or something. I ran. He ran. The neighbor went and got his gun (a new twist) and chased after. FINALLY 911 worked and the cops said they would be right there. Perp caught me and started doing ’stuff’. As usual that was the real memory. Cops ran up just then and grabbed him (much earlier in the dream than normal) and he started fighting them and yelling and all that. They shot him 
I forced the dream to continue at that point (t’py taught closure to the dream to keep from PTSDing all over the place for the next few days) and went up and confronted the dead perp. I kicked him and yelled at him. I wished he was still alive so I could do it to his face. Then I took a shower (in my dream). All t’py taught closure stuff. Today I feel perfectly normal and fine, no PTSD stuff hanging around. WOW! Some day I hope to get to the point where I’ll get a weapon and I’ll get to confront the perp before someone kills him for me. OR I’ll get to kill him myself. Just dumping cause it’s one more t’py taught step. Thanks for reading if you have RC — The colors blend, the edges soften. Swirling and mixing we are becoming white light.
Response:
My t and I were talking about dreams last week and he said something about changing them. What you wrote here is interesting, but as usual, I have no idea how you did what you did. I am a sloooooooooow learner. 
) But getting there! I told my t about how when I was a child, I used to plan what to dream sometimes. And sometimes I would continue the story in another dream another night. I think that I must have understood how to do changing a dream then. Maybe I will someday find it again. It sounds as if you are feeling better flu-wise, too. I’m glad. Have a good holiday, Jill, kidlette, fritz and SO. Jane – Hide quoted text — Show quoted text – Gonna spoiler here just in case I get graphic. It’s about a dream I had that is abuse related. x x x x x x x x x x Ok, I haven’t had this kind of dream in _years_! Good thing I remember how to cope with them! I think it’s like riding a bike… Anyway, so I guess all of this OB cr*p is triggering stuff because I’ve noticed more intrusive thoughts and past related PTSD stuff flairing up lately. Good thing I got it figured out and got a new dr! The dream was one of those typical, perp chasing me and me trying to get help and all that. At least I try to get help now. _That_ never happened befor t’py. Of course help is always late or not enough or whatever, but maybe some day I’ll figure out how to get it to show up sooner. So, perp was chasing me, threatening to k*ll me, very life like and memory like. I ran to a neighbors house and they let me in and I tried to call the police but 911 wasn’t working. I told the neighbors to keep trying and I went and hid. Perp kept looking for me and started going door to door ‘have you seen my kid?’ stuff. Neighbors told him no but he heard me or something. I ran. He ran. The neighbor went and got his gun (a new twist) and chased after. FINALLY 911 worked and the cops said they would be right there. Perp caught me and started doing ’stuff’. As usual that was the real memory. Cops ran up just then and grabbed him (much earlier in the dream than normal) and he started fighting them and yelling and all that. They shot him I forced the dream to continue at that point (t’py taught closure to the dream to keep from PTSDing all over the place for the next few days) and went up and confronted the dead perp. I kicked him and yelled at him. I wished he was still alive so I could do it to his face. Then I took a shower (in my dream). All t’py taught closure stuff. Today I feel perfectly normal and fine, no PTSD stuff hanging around. WOW! Some day I hope to get to the point where I’ll get a weapon and I’ll get to confront the perp before someone kills him for me. OR I’ll get to kill him myself. Just dumping cause it’s one more t’py taught step. Thanks for reading if you have RC — The colors blend, the edges soften. Swirling and mixing we are becoming white light.
Response:
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– Hide quoted text — Show quoted text – Gonna spoiler here just in case I get graphic. It’s about a dream I had that is abuse related. x x x x x x x x x x Ok, I haven’t had this kind of dream in _years_! Good thing I remember how to cope with them! I think it’s like riding a bike… Anyway, so I guess all of this OB cr*p is triggering stuff because I’ve noticed more intrusive thoughts and past related PTSD stuff flairing up lately. Good thing I got it figured out and got a new dr! The dream was one of those typical, perp chasing me and me trying to get help and all that. At least I try to get help now. _That_ never happened befor t’py. Of course help is always late or not enough or whatever, but maybe some day I’ll figure out how to get it to show up sooner. So, perp was chasing me, threatening to k*ll me, very life like and memory like. I ran to a neighbors house and they let me in and I tried to call the police but 911 wasn’t working. I told the neighbors to keep trying and I went and hid. Perp kept looking for me and started going door to door ‘have you seen my kid?’ stuff. Neighbors told him no but he heard me or something. I ran. He ran. The neighbor went and got his gun (a new twist) and chased after. FINALLY 911 worked and the cops said they would be right there. Perp caught me and started doing ’stuff’. As usual that was the real memory. Cops ran up just then and grabbed him (much earlier in the dream than normal) and he started fighting them and yelling and all that. They shot him I forced the dream to continue at that point (t’py taught closure to the dream to keep from PTSDing all over the place for the next few days) and went up and confronted the dead perp. I kicked him and yelled at him. I wished he was still alive so I could do it to his face. Then I took a shower (in my dream). All t’py taught closure stuff. Today I feel perfectly normal and fine, no PTSD stuff hanging around. WOW! Some day I hope to get to the point where I’ll get a weapon and I’ll get to confront the perp before someone kills him for me. OR I’ll get to kill him myself. Just dumping cause it’s one more t’py taught step. Thanks for reading if you have RC — The colors blend, the edges soften. Swirling and mixing we are becoming white light.
Response:
Keep dumpin’ girl! How did yous learn to control the dreams? We suggested it to our daughter when she was having nightmares after her d*ddy died and she said it worked on that one, but she doesn’t know how and hasn’t ever been able to since. We don’t seem to find ourselves aware enough in the dream to keep going. We do have one set of dream(s) that has sort of evolved over the years, but not due to our conscious control. This is interesting, we’d like to hear more about how this works. Are you talking, like, lucid dreaming? Raven, trying to scratch hir head, with a wing, so sie can stay on both feet, the branch is swaying!
– Hide quoted text — Show quoted text – Gonna spoiler here just in case I get graphic. It’s about a dream I had that is abuse related. x x x x x x x x x x Ok, I haven’t had this kind of dream in _years_! Good thing I remember how to cope with them! I think it’s like riding a bike… Anyway, so I guess all of this OB cr*p is triggering stuff because I’ve noticed more intrusive thoughts and past related PTSD stuff flairing up lately. Good thing I got it figured out and got a new dr! The dream was one of those typical, perp chasing me and me trying to get help and all that. At least I try to get help now. _That_ never happened befor t’py. Of course help is always late or not enough or whatever, but maybe some day I’ll figure out how to get it to show up sooner. So, perp was chasing me, threatening to k*ll me, very life like and memory like. I ran to a neighbors house and they let me in and I tried to call the police but 911 wasn’t working. I told the neighbors to keep trying and I went and hid. Perp kept looking for me and started going door to door ‘have you seen my kid?’ stuff. Neighbors told him no but he heard me or something. I ran. He ran. The neighbor went and got his gun (a new twist) and chased after. FINALLY 911 worked and the cops said they would be right there. Perp caught me and started doing ’stuff’. As usual that was the real memory. Cops ran up just then and grabbed him (much earlier in the dream than normal) and he started fighting them and yelling and all that. They shot him I forced the dream to continue at that point (t’py taught closure to the dream to keep from PTSDing all over the place for the next few days) and went up and confronted the dead perp. I kicked him and yelled at him. I wished he was still alive so I could do it to his face. Then I took a shower (in my dream). All t’py taught closure stuff. Today I feel perfectly normal and fine, no PTSD stuff hanging around. WOW! Some day I hope to get to the point where I’ll get a weapon and I’ll get to confront the perp before someone kills him for me. OR I’ll get to kill him myself. Just dumping cause it’s one more t’py taught step. Thanks for reading if you have RC — The colors blend, the edges soften. Swirling and mixing we are becoming white light.
Response:
Have you ever worked with lucid dreaming? If you could get lucid during any of these dreams, you could consciously decide what you would do. It takes practice to do lucid dreaming, and there are books about how to learn to do it – one of the ones is just called *Lucid Dreaming* by Stephen LaBerge. We like it the best. He’s a scientist who studies sleep and dreaming, and his descriptions of techniques are specific. Also, he does a good lit. review. I can talk a lot more about this if anyone is interested. I got very interested in the phenom, and have had some experiences – very affecting, powerful. Beauty. – Hide quoted text — Show quoted text – Gonna spoiler here just in case I get graphic. It’s about a dream I had that is abuse related. x x x x x x x x x x Ok, I haven’t had this kind of dream in _years_! Good thing I remember how to cope with them! I think it’s like riding a bike… Anyway, so I guess all of this OB cr*p is triggering stuff because I’ve noticed more intrusive thoughts and past related PTSD stuff flairing up lately. Good thing I got it figured out and got a new dr! The dream was one of those typical, perp chasing me and me trying to get help and all that. At least I try to get help now. _That_ never happened befor t’py. Of course help is always late or not enough or whatever, but maybe some day I’ll figure out how to get it to show up sooner. So, perp was chasing me, threatening to k*ll me, very life like and memory like. I ran to a neighbors house and they let me in and I tried to call the police but 911 wasn’t working. I told the neighbors to keep trying and I went and hid. Perp kept looking for me and started going door to door ‘have you seen my kid?’ stuff. Neighbors told him no but he heard me or something. I ran. He ran. The neighbor went and got his gun (a new twist) and chased after. FINALLY 911 worked and the cops said they would be right there. Perp caught me and started doing ’stuff’. As usual that was the real memory. Cops ran up just then and grabbed him (much earlier in the dream than normal) and he started fighting them and yelling and all that. They shot him I forced the dream to continue at that point (t’py taught closure to the dream to keep from PTSDing all over the place for the next few days) and went up and confronted the dead perp. I kicked him and yelled at him. I wished he was still alive so I could do it to his face. Then I took a shower (in my dream). All t’py taught closure stuff. Today I feel perfectly normal and fine, no PTSD stuff hanging around. WOW! Some day I hope to get to the point where I’ll get a weapon and I’ll get to confront the perp before someone kills him for me. OR I’ll get to kill him myself. Just dumping cause it’s one more t’py taught step. Thanks for reading if you have RC — The colors blend, the edges soften. Swirling and mixing we are becoming white light.
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x no archive – yes I hope I did that right. It *wasn’t* there, and I tried to just copy it from below, but I might not have gotten it right. Anyhow – wow – what did you lucid dream about at 3? Cool. Beauty. – Hide quoted text — Show quoted text – Wow Jill! Way to go! That’s really *awesome*!!! All of it! Listen… if you’re aware enough next time, "remind" yourself that you have a g*n in your pocket. Just remember that it’s definitely there and reach in to get it. Chances are it will be there. -Melissa Who was "lucid" dreaming at age 3 and learned all kinds of tricks! -But I think your tpst did a really good job with your closure stuff. That’s an amazing skill to have!
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Keep dumpin’ girl! How did yous learn to control the dreams? We suggested it to our daughter when she was having nightmares after her d*ddy died and she said it worked on that one, but she doesn’t know how and hasn’t ever been able to since. We don’t seem to find ourselves aware enough in the dream to keep going. We do have one set of dream(s) that has sort of evolved over the years, but not due to our conscious control. This is interesting, we’d like to hear more about how this works. Are you talking, like, lucid dreaming? Raven, trying to scratch hir head, with a wing, so sie can stay on both feet, the branch is swaying!
Yes, it’s lucid dreaming. It took _years_ to learn it and I’m not sure I can explain how I did it. Basically I took the advice of castenadas and taught myself to find my hand in my dream. I worked on being aware I had a hand and then learning to make it do what I wanted (like scratch my chin). Once I figured that out it got easier over time. I also worked on it during t’py with hypnosis. I also practiced it during t’py in that I would retell a dream and then ‘fix’ the parts I wanted different. I would do this over and over and over for the same dream. I didn’t realize I was really good at this until about two years ago and I’ve been working on it since about 1977 or so. Rainbow Colors (Jill) — The colors blend, the edges soften. Swirling and mixing we are becoming white light.
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Wow Jill! Way to go! That’s really *awesome*!!! All of it! Listen… if you’re aware enough next time, "remind" yourself that you have a g*n in your pocket. Just remember that it’s definitely there and reach in to get it. Chances are it will be there. -Melissa Who was "lucid" dreaming at age 3 and learned all kinds of tricks! -But I think your tpst did a really good job with your closure stuff. That’s an amazing skill to have!
The problem with weapons is that some of them were involved in abuse stuff and so I have to be careful how I use them in dreams/trance work or it sets me off. My t’pist and I worked on this some and we both agreed that it’s a touchy subject. I’m still working on it though:) Rainbow Colors (Jill) — The colors blend, the edges soften. Swirling and mixing we are becoming white light.
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