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"D" <nos…@spam.com> wrote in message
news:t1b6jvk0hhm58boosb38ti5cvvf71968bn@4ax.com… – Hide quoted text — Show quoted text -> Wow, you have a mood swing, too? Kewl 
> D > On Thu, 7 Aug 2003 23:38:43 -0400, "crackwalker" > <crackwalk…@sympatico.ca> wrote: > >I quite often let them go when I am outside playing on my mood swing. > >Crackwalker > >"D" <nos…@spam.com> wrote in message > >news:5sh3jvobikla48c38dgepb32ohgiao4rkb@4ax.com… > >> I let them seep in…and so far, they slowly seep out. One day, maybe > >> not. One never knows, do they? > >> D > >> On Wed, 6 Aug 2003 19:51:58 -0400, "crackwalker" > >> <crackwalk…@sympatico.ca> wrote: > >> >You know those thoughts try to get in but I keep them at bay. > >> >"D" <nos…@spam.com> wrote in message > >> >news:ac82jv8cj3s1b0plpvtdem66p64pgsogi5@4ax.com… > >> >> Well that ain’t all bad. At least you’re not suicidal > >> >> D > >> >> On Wed, 6 Aug 2003 01:36:57 -0400, "crackwalker" > >> >> <crackwalk…@sympatico.ca> wrote: > >> >> >sigh… > >> >> >I think I’ll just be content knowing I’m alive. even if it is christly > >> >> >lonely. > >> >> >Crackwalker > >> >> >"Rambo" <nos…@spam.com> wrote in message > >> >> >news:ntiuiv8tmqlr2fc386p7r78kd0j9lg8tqo@4ax.com… > >> >> >> On Tue, 5 Aug 2003 01:50:48 -0400, "crackwalker" > >> >> >> <crackwalk…@sympatico.ca> wrote: > >> >> >> >I wish I could be normal. In my eyes normal is being able to > >control > >> >> >> >emotions, handle stress effectively, being self-confidant, being > >able > >> >to > >> >> >> >leave my house. > >> >> >> I think we all wish those things. Some of us have part of them, > >some > >> >> >> of us have none of them. I can leave my house. I can control my > >> >> >> emotions to a point (until the hormones or depression kicks > >> >> >> in…whichever is first). Stress? Never been good at that. I’m > >not > >> >> >> sure really that anyone is "normal". We all have our faults and > >> >> >> weaknesses…that’s what makes us human. Still doesn’t make it any > >> >> >> easier, does it? > >> >> >> DooBee DooBee Doooooooo! > >> >> >> D
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Damn I’m feeling down lately. Can’t get the positives going on… I hate BPD, I hate socialphobia. I feel those dark thoughts coming back.. It’s hard to put them in the background lately… but I do. Just need to make contact with those who have been there. Crackwalker
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On Mon, 4 Aug 2003 01:27:00 -0400, "crackwalker" <crackwalk…@sympatico.ca> wrote: >Damn I’m feeling down lately. Can’t get the positives going on… >I hate BPD, I hate socialphobia. >I feel those dark thoughts coming back.. >It’s hard to put them in the background lately… but I do. >Just need to make contact with those who have been there. >Crackwalker
I’m sorry for how you’re feeling, Crackwalker. Although I am not BPD, I understand the ‘downs’ because I have them as well. I struggle with depression (Dysthymia, PTSD…etc. etc.) I came to this group for assitance in dealing with a BPD friend, and was able to get lots of help. I too get dark thoughts. It’s good you are able to put them in the background, but I know that is very stressful to do. Sometimes you feel you are just living a lie when you have to deny something that is part of who you are. So I can honestly say I’ve been there…even though I’m not BPD. Do you have a therapist by chance? Feel free to talk in here if it helps. I’m sure everyone understands! I hope you feel better. D – Hide quoted text — Show quoted text –
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Hi, yeah, I hate the "downs" they creep in so insiduosly and before you know it you are keeping your distance from everyone. I slept the whole day away. It’s 9:45 at night and I am just getting up. My schedule is backwards. Sometimes I like that beause then I don’t have to deal with people. I feel like explodibg. But I hold back. Soon I won’t be able to and someone is gonna get the resulting barrage of junk spewing outta my mouth. God I wish I was normal Crack "Rambo" <nos…@spam.com> wrote in message
news:1fativk78mrgp1p7r9qb9cuanco15sbnqv@4ax.com… – Hide quoted text — Show quoted text -> On Mon, 4 Aug 2003 01:27:00 -0400, "crackwalker" > <crackwalk…@sympatico.ca> wrote: > >Damn I’m feeling down lately. Can’t get the positives going on… > >I hate BPD, I hate socialphobia. > >I feel those dark thoughts coming back.. > >It’s hard to put them in the background lately… but I do. > >Just need to make contact with those who have been there. > >Crackwalker > I’m sorry for how you’re feeling, Crackwalker. Although I am not BPD, > I understand the ‘downs’ because I have them as well. I struggle with > depression (Dysthymia, PTSD…etc. etc.) I came to this group for > assitance in dealing with a BPD friend, and was able to get lots of > help. I too get dark thoughts. It’s good you are able to put them in > the background, but I know that is very stressful to do. Sometimes > you feel you are just living a lie when you have to deny something > that is part of who you are. So I can honestly say I’ve been > there…even though I’m not BPD. Do you have a therapist by chance? > Feel free to talk in here if it helps. I’m sure everyone understands! > I hope you feel better. > D
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On Mon, 4 Aug 2003 21:48:08 -0400, "crackwalker" <crackwalk…@sympatico.ca> wrote: >Hi, yeah, I hate the "downs" they creep in so insiduosly and before you know >it you are keeping your distance from everyone. I slept the whole day away. >It’s 9:45 at night and I am just getting up. My schedule is backwards. >Sometimes I like that beause then I don’t have to deal with people.
I don’t blame you there! >I feel like explodibg. But I hold back. Soon I won’t be able to and someone >is gonna get the resulting barrage of junk spewing outta my mouth.
Been there, done that….still doing it! >God I wish I was normal >Crack
What is normal? D
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I wish I could be normal. In my eyes normal is being able to control emotions, handle stress effectively, being self-confidant, being able to leave my house. "Rambo" <nos…@spam.com> wrote in message
news:tb8uivgfmt89lrs5maubj6sate25m8cut0@4ax.com… – Hide quoted text — Show quoted text -> On Mon, 4 Aug 2003 21:48:08 -0400, "crackwalker" > <crackwalk…@sympatico.ca> wrote: > >Hi, yeah, I hate the "downs" they creep in so insiduosly and before you know > >it you are keeping your distance from everyone. I slept the whole day away. > >It’s 9:45 at night and I am just getting up. My schedule is backwards. > >Sometimes I like that beause then I don’t have to deal with people. > I don’t blame you there! > >I feel like explodibg. But I hold back. Soon I won’t be able to and someone > >is gonna get the resulting barrage of junk spewing outta my mouth. > Been there, done that….still doing it! > >God I wish I was normal > >Crack > What is normal? > D
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On Tue, 5 Aug 2003 01:50:48 -0400, "crackwalker" <crackwalk…@sympatico.ca> wrote: >I wish I could be normal. In my eyes normal is being able to control >emotions, handle stress effectively, being self-confidant, being able to >leave my house.
I think we all wish those things. Some of us have part of them, some of us have none of them. I can leave my house. I can control my emotions to a point (until the hormones or depression kicks in…whichever is first). Stress? Never been good at that. I’m not sure really that anyone is "normal". We all have our faults and weaknesses…that’s what makes us human. Still doesn’t make it any easier, does it? DooBee DooBee Doooooooo! D
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sigh… I think I’ll just be content knowing I’m alive. even if it is christly lonely. Crackwalker "Rambo" <nos…@spam.com> wrote in message
news:ntiuiv8tmqlr2fc386p7r78kd0j9lg8tqo@4ax.com… – Hide quoted text — Show quoted text -> On Tue, 5 Aug 2003 01:50:48 -0400, "crackwalker" > <crackwalk…@sympatico.ca> wrote: > >I wish I could be normal. In my eyes normal is being able to control > >emotions, handle stress effectively, being self-confidant, being able to > >leave my house. > I think we all wish those things. Some of us have part of them, some > of us have none of them. I can leave my house. I can control my > emotions to a point (until the hormones or depression kicks > in…whichever is first). Stress? Never been good at that. I’m not > sure really that anyone is "normal". We all have our faults and > weaknesses…that’s what makes us human. Still doesn’t make it any > easier, does it? > DooBee DooBee Doooooooo! > D
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Well that ain’t all bad. At least you’re not suicidal D On Wed, 6 Aug 2003 01:36:57 -0400, "crackwalker" – Hide quoted text — Show quoted text -<crackwalk…@sympatico.ca> wrote: >sigh… >I think I’ll just be content knowing I’m alive. even if it is christly >lonely. >Crackwalker >"Rambo" <nos…@spam.com> wrote in message >news:ntiuiv8tmqlr2fc386p7r78kd0j9lg8tqo@4ax.com… >> On Tue, 5 Aug 2003 01:50:48 -0400, "crackwalker" >> <crackwalk…@sympatico.ca> wrote: >> >I wish I could be normal. In my eyes normal is being able to control >> >emotions, handle stress effectively, being self-confidant, being able to >> >leave my house. >> I think we all wish those things. Some of us have part of them, some >> of us have none of them. I can leave my house. I can control my >> emotions to a point (until the hormones or depression kicks >> in…whichever is first). Stress? Never been good at that. I’m not >> sure really that anyone is "normal". We all have our faults and >> weaknesses…that’s what makes us human. Still doesn’t make it any >> easier, does it? >> DooBee DooBee Doooooooo! >> D
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You know those thoughts try to get in but I keep them at bay. "D" <nos…@spam.com> wrote in message
news:ac82jv8cj3s1b0plpvtdem66p64pgsogi5@4ax.com… – Hide quoted text — Show quoted text -> Well that ain’t all bad. At least you’re not suicidal > D > On Wed, 6 Aug 2003 01:36:57 -0400, "crackwalker" > <crackwalk…@sympatico.ca> wrote: > >sigh… > >I think I’ll just be content knowing I’m alive. even if it is christly > >lonely. > >Crackwalker > >"Rambo" <nos…@spam.com> wrote in message > >news:ntiuiv8tmqlr2fc386p7r78kd0j9lg8tqo@4ax.com… > >> On Tue, 5 Aug 2003 01:50:48 -0400, "crackwalker" > >> <crackwalk…@sympatico.ca> wrote: > >> >I wish I could be normal. In my eyes normal is being able to control > >> >emotions, handle stress effectively, being self-confidant, being able to > >> >leave my house. > >> I think we all wish those things. Some of us have part of them, some > >> of us have none of them. I can leave my house. I can control my > >> emotions to a point (until the hormones or depression kicks > >> in…whichever is first). Stress? Never been good at that. I’m not > >> sure really that anyone is "normal". We all have our faults and > >> weaknesses…that’s what makes us human. Still doesn’t make it any > >> easier, does it? > >> DooBee DooBee Doooooooo! > >> D
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Wow, you have a mood swing, too? Kewl D On Thu, 7 Aug 2003 23:38:43 -0400, "crackwalker" – Hide quoted text — Show quoted text -<crackwalk…@sympatico.ca> wrote: >I quite often let them go when I am outside playing on my mood swing. >Crackwalker >"D" <nos…@spam.com> wrote in message >news:5sh3jvobikla48c38dgepb32ohgiao4rkb@4ax.com… >> I let them seep in…and so far, they slowly seep out. One day, maybe >> not. One never knows, do they? >> D >> On Wed, 6 Aug 2003 19:51:58 -0400, "crackwalker" >> <crackwalk…@sympatico.ca> wrote: >> >You know those thoughts try to get in but I keep them at bay. >> >"D" <nos…@spam.com> wrote in message >> >news:ac82jv8cj3s1b0plpvtdem66p64pgsogi5@4ax.com… >> >> Well that ain’t all bad. At least you’re not suicidal >> >> D >> >> On Wed, 6 Aug 2003 01:36:57 -0400, "crackwalker" >> >> <crackwalk…@sympatico.ca> wrote: >> >> >sigh… >> >> >I think I’ll just be content knowing I’m alive. even if it is christly >> >> >lonely. >> >> >Crackwalker >> >> >"Rambo" <nos…@spam.com> wrote in message >> >> >news:ntiuiv8tmqlr2fc386p7r78kd0j9lg8tqo@4ax.com… >> >> >> On Tue, 5 Aug 2003 01:50:48 -0400, "crackwalker" >> >> >> <crackwalk…@sympatico.ca> wrote: >> >> >> >I wish I could be normal. In my eyes normal is being able to >control >> >> >> >emotions, handle stress effectively, being self-confidant, being >able >> >to >> >> >> >leave my house. >> >> >> I think we all wish those things. Some of us have part of them, >some >> >> >> of us have none of them. I can leave my house. I can control my >> >> >> emotions to a point (until the hormones or depression kicks >> >> >> in…whichever is first). Stress? Never been good at that. I’m >not >> >> >> sure really that anyone is "normal". We all have our faults and >> >> >> weaknesses…that’s what makes us human. Still doesn’t make it any >> >> >> easier, does it? >> >> >> DooBee DooBee Doooooooo! >> >> >> D
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I quite often let them go when I am outside playing on my mood swing. Crackwalker "D" <nos…@spam.com> wrote in message
news:5sh3jvobikla48c38dgepb32ohgiao4rkb@4ax.com… – Hide quoted text — Show quoted text -> I let them seep in…and so far, they slowly seep out. One day, maybe > not. One never knows, do they? > D > On Wed, 6 Aug 2003 19:51:58 -0400, "crackwalker" > <crackwalk…@sympatico.ca> wrote: > >You know those thoughts try to get in but I keep them at bay. > >"D" <nos…@spam.com> wrote in message > >news:ac82jv8cj3s1b0plpvtdem66p64pgsogi5@4ax.com… > >> Well that ain’t all bad. At least you’re not suicidal > >> D > >> On Wed, 6 Aug 2003 01:36:57 -0400, "crackwalker" > >> <crackwalk…@sympatico.ca> wrote: > >> >sigh… > >> >I think I’ll just be content knowing I’m alive. even if it is christly > >> >lonely. > >> >Crackwalker > >> >"Rambo" <nos…@spam.com> wrote in message > >> >news:ntiuiv8tmqlr2fc386p7r78kd0j9lg8tqo@4ax.com… > >> >> On Tue, 5 Aug 2003 01:50:48 -0400, "crackwalker" > >> >> <crackwalk…@sympatico.ca> wrote: > >> >> >I wish I could be normal. In my eyes normal is being able to control > >> >> >emotions, handle stress effectively, being self-confidant, being able > >to > >> >> >leave my house. > >> >> I think we all wish those things. Some of us have part of them, some > >> >> of us have none of them. I can leave my house. I can control my > >> >> emotions to a point (until the hormones or depression kicks > >> >> in…whichever is first). Stress? Never been good at that. I’m not > >> >> sure really that anyone is "normal". We all have our faults and > >> >> weaknesses…that’s what makes us human. Still doesn’t make it any > >> >> easier, does it? > >> >> DooBee DooBee Doooooooo! > >> >> D
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I let them seep in…and so far, they slowly seep out. One day, maybe not. One never knows, do they? D On Wed, 6 Aug 2003 19:51:58 -0400, "crackwalker" – Hide quoted text — Show quoted text -<crackwalk…@sympatico.ca> wrote: >You know those thoughts try to get in but I keep them at bay. >"D" <nos…@spam.com> wrote in message >news:ac82jv8cj3s1b0plpvtdem66p64pgsogi5@4ax.com… >> Well that ain’t all bad. At least you’re not suicidal >> D >> On Wed, 6 Aug 2003 01:36:57 -0400, "crackwalker" >> <crackwalk…@sympatico.ca> wrote: >> >sigh… >> >I think I’ll just be content knowing I’m alive. even if it is christly >> >lonely. >> >Crackwalker >> >"Rambo" <nos…@spam.com> wrote in message >> >news:ntiuiv8tmqlr2fc386p7r78kd0j9lg8tqo@4ax.com… >> >> On Tue, 5 Aug 2003 01:50:48 -0400, "crackwalker" >> >> <crackwalk…@sympatico.ca> wrote: >> >> >I wish I could be normal. In my eyes normal is being able to control >> >> >emotions, handle stress effectively, being self-confidant, being able >to >> >> >leave my house. >> >> I think we all wish those things. Some of us have part of them, some >> >> of us have none of them. I can leave my house. I can control my >> >> emotions to a point (until the hormones or depression kicks >> >> in…whichever is first). Stress? Never been good at that. I’m not >> >> sure really that anyone is "normal". We all have our faults and >> >> weaknesses…that’s what makes us human. Still doesn’t make it any >> >> easier, does it? >> >> DooBee DooBee Doooooooo! >> >> D
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