Trauma – PTSD

Question:

Hello, Wow! I used to post here pretty often over a year ago. What was a very supportive newsgroup, turned into a flame fest, and not healthy. I unsubscribed for quite awhile. For about 2 months now, I have been lurking. I wanted to emerge, but now look what happened. Worse than ever. The new trolls are sick fucking bastards. They are usenet scum who feel so bad, they have to stir it up with sick people to make themselves feel better. What a karma hole they are digging for themselves. In other words, sorry for my fake screen name… but you understand (I hope) As a part if PTSD I always thought I’d live a short life. I remember through the years: Age 16 "I won’t make to 18" Age 18 "I won’t make it to 21" Age 21 "I’ll die before age 25" Age 25 "Definitely won’t make it to 30" Age 30 "Amazing!… 35’s right around the corner. That’s GOT to be it" Age 35 "Well, I always had age 40 in the back of my mind. I’m sure I’ve developed a heart condition or SOMETHING by now. I’ll never make it past age 40…. NO WAY!" Hmmmm… Guess what? I turned 40 the other day. As you can see, I’m not dead. As a matter of fact, I have never felt better. I have years of sobriety behind me, and almost a year of not smoking. Maybe 25 years is enough of this destructive thinking. One can hope. That is all. Best wishes to you if you are not a troll Have a nice day -….who am I again?… oh yeah, -"In_Hiding"

Response:

Well if your legitimate, welcome.  It’s hard to tell these days.  There are some of us regulars still here and supporting. tiny dancer "In_Hiding" <In_Hiding@Under_rock.com> wrote in message

news:3BD1C66B.91646163@Under_rock.com… – Hide quoted text — Show quoted text -> Hello, > Wow! > I used to post here pretty often over a year ago. What was a very > supportive newsgroup, turned into a flame fest, and not healthy. I > unsubscribed for quite awhile. For about 2 months now, I have been > lurking. I wanted to emerge, but now look what happened. Worse than > ever. The new trolls are sick fucking bastards. They are usenet scum who > feel so bad, they have to stir it up with sick people to make themselves > feel better. What a karma hole they are digging for themselves. > In other words, sorry for my fake screen name… but you understand (I > hope) > As a part if PTSD I always thought I’d live a short life. I remember > through the years: > Age 16 "I won’t make to 18" > Age 18 "I won’t make it to 21" > Age 21 "I’ll die before age 25" > Age 25 "Definitely won’t make it to 30" > Age 30 "Amazing!… 35’s right around the corner. That’s GOT to be it" > Age 35 "Well, I always had age 40 in the back of my mind. I’m sure I’ve > developed a heart condition or SOMETHING by now. I’ll never make it past > age 40…. NO WAY!" > Hmmmm… > Guess what? > I turned 40 the other day. As you can see, I’m not dead. As a matter of > fact, I have never felt better. > I have years of sobriety behind me, and almost a year of not smoking. > Maybe 25 years is enough of this destructive thinking. > One can hope. > That is all. > Best wishes to you if you are not a troll > Have a nice day > -….who am I again?… oh yeah, > -"In_Hiding"

Response:

Hey, if you’re a returning regular well then welcome. Not sure why the need to play games like peek-a-boo, but whatever.  You may recognize some of us from a few  years ago. You have to look hard though. The trolls are having their lame fun. Maybe the group will be back to normal again. Maybe not. Maybe let us know who you are and we can go from there. Kristine

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In Hiding, Hi.  Yep, it’s been nuts around here.  Bleahhh…… > As a part if PTSD I always thought I’d live a short life. I remember > through the years: > Age 16 "I won’t make to 18" > Age 18 "I won’t make it to 21" > Age 21 "I’ll die before age 25" > Age 25 "Definitely won’t make it to 30" > Age 30 "Amazing!… 35’s right around the corner. That’s GOT to be it" > Age 35 "Well, I always had age 40 in the back of my mind. I’m sure I’ve > developed a heart condition or SOMETHING by now. I’ll never make it past > age 40…. NO WAY!"

My God, that’s exactly what I’ve always felt. > Hmmmm… > Guess what? > I turned 40 the other day. As you can see, I’m not dead. As a matter of > fact, I have never felt better. > I have years of sobriety behind me, and almost a year of not smoking.

Congrats on your sobriety, quitting smoking, and turning 40.  Happy birthday!  : ) > Maybe 25 years is enough of this destructive thinking. > One can hope. > That is all.

And hope, and hope, and hope, and hope. > Best wishes to you if you are not a troll > Have a nice day > -….who am I again?… oh yeah, > -"In_Hiding"

Best wishes to you as well.  : )  Take care. kat

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