Question:
Hi all I know you’re just waiting with baited breath for me to resurface with more pressing ptsd issues that require urgent attention and oodles of discussion. BUT I’m taking 5 I’m not sure whether it will be 5 minutes or 5 days. I had a visitor today, who I’d been looking forward to seeing, I knew he had some important stories for me about matters very close to heart. Well I gave him a very sentimental gift, which he didn’t open but would take home for his wife, when I gave him the gift I could see he was only just hanging on, he had jitters, the jitters that come with nervous tension and high emotions. He told me some stories, they were glorious stories of great times and things I didn’t know, there were also tragic stories and reminisences, there was also sad resignation. In hearing what he had to say, my triggers set, not gone off, but well triggered up. what’s happened since he left? that inner shakey thing, mental meanderings and journeyings to days past. vivid recollection and remembrances reflection over the hours that followed, eventual decline into weakened physical state inability to focus and concentrate eventually mental fatigue gloom and that’s how it is with no drugs. I took what he shared on board, as he left I noticed his jittery nervous tension was alleviated and I was pleased, he’d been carrying a heavy load. I took it for him. I was pleased to do so, because what he shared is bigger and more important than anything else at present. My ‘intellectual’ mind is telling me this is temporary, and for the day since his visit, i’ve been conscious to take all matters easy, go with the flow, move slow, remain thoughtful, don’t rush and continue to be mindful. Well that’s how it happens, I’m sure there’s more to add but I haven’t the energy to think of it for now I have started to read some of the posts here, but aren’t up to replying to anything for now, time to rest. go lightly Morine
Response:
Morine, you just described a classic picture of a person with ptsd with or without medication, I mean you.We all share these symptoms, my hope is that you gave him a place to put his heavy load and I don’t mean on your back,to carry along with your own issues.Smart idea to take a well deserved break and regroup if for no other reason then to sharpen your tools and to place in your memory these feelings that many of us may have on any given day, go lightly, John De
Response:
JBOLOIDEGARAY <jboloidega…@aol.com> wrote in message
news:20010131234150.05571.00000220@ng-da1.aol.com… > Morine, you just described a classic picture of a person with ptsd with or > without medication, I mean you.
Thanks John De it is no stranger. As i said in another post it used to be daily. I know the dread of walking up to the office door. The dread of releasing the current angry customer on the phone line, knowing there will likely be another disgruntled one incoming on the next call. At least the current angry one is under control …for now, worrying all weekend because Monday morning rise for work is only 2 days away, 1 day away, 8 hours away 1 hour away but it went back way before then, at least, these days, it’s within my realms of control and i don’t often have tremors. >We all share these symptoms, my hope is that you > gave him a place to put his heavy load and I don’t mean on your back,to carry > along with your own issues.
his burden is one that we already shared and I in a way I am pleased, it is a real connection. >Smart idea to take a well deserved break and > regroup if for no other reason then to sharpen your tools and to place in your > memory these feelings that many of us may have on any given day,
I would prefer to erase it from memory, but i guess if i were to do that then I wouldn’t be me eh >go lightly,
It’s not easy Morine – Hide quoted text — Show quoted text -> John De
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