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Hello, My name is Kathy. I don’t know why I am here but the therapist I’ve seen suggested it. She says I am part of a multiple system. I don’t believe it. I don’t hear, see or feel any other people inside! I’m totally confused. I have a terrible memory. I don’t remember a lot of things but that doesn’t make me a multiple. She also refered to someone else as the core, birth personality. But I am! I’ve always been here, and I’m perfectly real! This is really scary. I’m beginning to doubt my memories that I do have. I remember the first grade, second grade, then skip skip blank blank until junior high and high school. I can’t see too well so I hope I am writing ok. This therapist also said that the other alters have been writing here so maybe some of you know them? I don’t like the idea of there being others but if there are I guess I have to get to know them. Please, could anyone help? Kathy
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Hello, My name is Kathy. I don’t know why I am here but the therapist I’ve seen suggested it. She says I am part of a multiple system. I don’t believe it. I don’t hear, see or feel any other people inside! I’m totally confused. I have a terrible memory. I don’t remember a lot of things but that doesn’t make me a multiple. She also refered to someone else as the core, birth personality. But I am! I’ve always been here, and I’m perfectly real! This is really scary. I’m beginning to doubt my memories that I do have. I remember the first grade, second grade, then skip skip blank blank until junior high and high school. I can’t see too well so I hope I am writing ok. This therapist also said that the other alters have been writing here so maybe some of you know them? I don’t like the idea of there being others but if there are I guess I have to get to know them. Please, could anyone help? Kathy
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<< Hello, My name is Kathy. I don’t know why I am here but the therapist I’ve seen suggested it. She says I am part of a multiple system. I don’t believe it. I don’t hear, see or feel any other people inside! I’m totally confused. I have a terrible memory. I don’t remember a lot of things but that doesn’t make me a multiple. She also refered to someone else as the core, birth personality. But I am! I’ve always been here, and I’m perfectly real! This is really scary. I’m beginning to doubt my memories that I do have. I remember the first grade, second grade, then skip skip blank blank until junior high and high school. I can’t see too well so I hope I am writing ok. This therapist also said that the other alters have been writing here so maybe some of you know them? I don’t like the idea of there being others but if there are I guess I have to get to know them. Please, could anyone help? Kathy Hello, Kathy. I’m Jen (& sometimes Kate & sometimes jennylynn) First off: I’m sorry the idea of having "others" is scary for you. It’s scary for me, too, and I’ll bet lots of other people here think it’s scary. Second: If you have big blanks in your life (like you remember second grade but not 3rd, 4th, 5th or 6th), then *something* is going on, and your therp is probably right: it’s a good idea to think about checking the others out. Getting to know them and trying to listen to what they know will eventually help you get a better handle on what’s going on. Third: I’m sorry about the terrible memory. Have you told your therp what it is? Do you have any idea whether any other parts of you know about this memory, or maybe have memories of their own? Fourth: If it helps, I hope you can write here about what is happening in your life. even if it’s just to say that you don’t believe any of it, or you’re really really scared–or anything. I will try to help it be less scary, if that’s okay. Sometimes finding "common ground" makes things less terrifying. That’s what I learned after coming here a little over a week ago. Jen — For more information about this service, send e-mail to:
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Hello, My name is Kathy. I don’t know why I am here but the therapist I’ve seen suggested it. She says I am part of a multiple system. I don’t believe it. I don’t hear, see or feel any other people inside! I’m totally confused. I have a terrible memory. I don’t remember a lot of things but that doesn’t make me a multiple. She also refered to someone else as the core, birth personality. But I am! I’ve always been here, and I’m perfectly real! This is really scary. I’m beginning to doubt my memories that I do have. I remember the first grade, second grade, then skip skip blank blank until junior high and high school. I can’t see too well so I hope I am writing ok. This therapist also said that the other alters have been writing here so maybe some of you know them? I don’t like the idea of there being others but if there are I guess I have to get to know them. Please, could anyone help? Kathy
hi Kathy. it’s scary to find out there are others. we’ve seen posts from others posting from the same account. you might want to go look for past posts from your account–you can find them on the web at deja news or alta vista (or at least some of them). we’ve even seen some other current posts from your account, so you might simply check what’s on your newsreader now. either way, you might find something to think about if you allow yourself to see and notice them (the posts). and, btw, the folks who have posted from your account seem pretty nice, so you don’t have to worry about finding out about mean or nasty people this way. pink bunnies / ~ ) All conditions are temporary //| ( `o’_* — For more information about this service, send e-mail to:
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Kathy: You are welcome here. We can relate to a lot of what you’re talking about. I don’t know what to tell you except that you’re not alone with the struggles you are facing. I think that each of us has to find our own way. But we can share and support each other along the way. Keep writing and reading. Sara of Beckie – Hide quoted text — Show quoted text – Hello, My name is Kathy. I don’t know why I am here but the therapist I’ve seen suggested it. She says I am part of a multiple system. I don’t believe it. I don’t hear, see or feel any other people inside! I’m totally confused. I have a terrible memory. I don’t remember a lot of things but that doesn’t make me a multiple. She also refered to someone else as the core, birth personality. But I am! I’ve always been here, and I’m perfectly real! This is really scary. I’m beginning to doubt my memories that I do have. I remember the first grade, second grade, then skip skip blank blank until junior high and high school. I can’t see too well so I hope I am writing ok. This therapist also said that the other alters have been writing here so maybe some of you know them? I don’t like the idea of there being others but if there are I guess I have to get to know them. Please, could anyone help? Kathy
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- Hide quoted text — Show quoted text – Hello, My name is Kathy. I don’t know why I am here but the therapist I’ve seen suggested it. She says I am part of a multiple system. I don’t believe it. I don’t hear, see or feel any other people inside! I’m totally confused. I have a terrible memory. I don’t remember a lot of things but that doesn’t make me a multiple. She also refered to someone else as the core, birth personality. But I am! I’ve always been here, and I’m perfectly real! This is really scary. I’m beginning to doubt my memories that I do have. I remember the first grade, second grade, then skip skip blank blank until junior high and high school. I can’t see too well so I hope I am writing ok. This therapist also said that the other alters have been writing here so maybe some of you know them? I don’t like the idea of there being others but if there are I guess I have to get to know them. Please, could anyone help? Kathy
Hi, Kathy. Welcome to asd. What you are going through sounds confusing. I’d hate to find out that I knew so little about myself (well, kinda myself and kinda other ppl who are related through a common body). I don’t think I’d want to find out that I’d had these "roommates" with whom I’d been living for years and that I didn’t even have a clue. (Well, actually, sometimes I wish that I had alters, bc I could relate better to ppl here, but that’s kind of a special situation and not how I usually feel.) You are right that having a terrible memory doesn’t mean that you are multiple. Many multiples have a bad memory, but not all, and lots of ppl who aren’t multiple have bad memories. But your therp may have good reasons to think you are multiple. And you can certainly be multiple without knowing it. It seems fairly common, both in the literature and among the ppl in this group (many of whom were multiple for years before they realized it). I think that you will have to figure out for yourself if you are a multiple. Either way, it’s OK. If you decide to stay in this group, and I hope that you will, you will meet many wonderful, intelligent, sensitive, supportive ppl who also happen to be multiples. I think that this is a great group and hope that you decide to stay, whether you post or lurk. Whatever you learn about whether you’re a multiple, you are still you. And of course you are real! Being a multiple might change your understanding of yourselves, but the few multiple ppl I have known in RL didn’t seem any different to me after they learned they were multiple than they did before. K is still K to me and J is still J. (I haven’t been formally introduced to any of their alters, although I think I’ve met a few of them – but then I think that I’d met most of them before and didn’t realize that they were alters.) If different alters have posted here, reading their posts might be a good way to start to get to know them. Good luck, e — For more information about this service, send e-mail to:
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Hello, My name is Kathy.
Hi Kathy and welcome to the best ng you will ever find. Well that is what I feel anyway. I don’t know why I am here but the therapist I’ve seen suggested it.
Yes when I first started a therapist I met suggested it as well. Since then so many doors have opened up to me. Your therapist is right. I was always alone No one to share with, no one who understood and feels what I feel. But everyone does here on the NG. The support and caring and love you will find here is enormous. We also have allot of humor and fun. Like we once had a ice cream party. It was so much fun. Everyone wrote whatflavors they liked and what they would bring to the party. It was a good subject. When I am scared and don’t know where to run or hide and I can’t reach my therapist I now reach to the She says I am part of a multiple system. I don’t believe it. I don’t hear, see or feel any other people inside! I’m totally confused.
Yes, I would be confused as well. I have a terrible memory. I don’t remember a lot of things but that doesn’t make me a multiple.
I as well have a memory problem. It’s a big problem too. And that is right it doesn’t make you a multiple. But there must be more to this. Yes? She also refered to someone else as the core, birth personality. But I am! I’ve always been here, and I’m perfectly real! This is really scary.
It would scare the sh-t out of me as well. She needs to explain much more to you. I have complex PTSD and a severe Diss disorder. I maybe can understand what you are saying. I don’t have DID. (And yes labels doesn’t really matter) Not here anyway but to ans your post I will say. I am one person me but I do feel 2 parts to ME. A day girl and a night girl. Maybe I do have DID It doesn’t really matter.I know I Diss and allot and thats for sure. I am real very real. I’m beginning to doubt my memories that I do have. I remember the first grade, second grade, then skip skip blank blank until junior high and high school.
Yes I have amnesia as well. Childhood and from age 17 to 19 I lived through some really trauamtic experinces.You too? I can’t see too well so I hope I am writing ok.
You are writing just fine. This therapist also said that the other alters have been writing here so maybe some of you know them?
What are there names. Well maybe you don’t know that. Tell me if you do. I will know if you have been here. I don’t like the idea of there being others but if there are I guess I have to get to know them.
Yes you do. It’s okay. I can’t help you with that but you have come to the right place. I bet you will get allot of responses from people who do know. Good luck, Write me anytime saveatot
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Donnerstag, 26 September 1996, StrmKat writes to All: Hi Kathy, I’d like to help but how … ? Unfortunately, I don’t remember whether I or anybody else in here saw messages from one of your alters (ehm – we all got a problem with names, we keep forgetting and confusing them). You sound so tense and scared. And I don’t have anything real to offer. Well, maybe one tiny weeny little suggestion: No matter whether you are or you aren’t the birth person (we got no birth person, we’re all part of that mysterious birth person which became us through splitting – but we know there are multiple systems who got birth persons), no matter whether there are alters with you or not — you are REAL. Of course you’re real – we wouldn’t write to unreal non-existent persons, right? 
Take care, oh, and we’ll be here to listen, though sometimes mails don’t get through ‘cuz of stupid technical problems (which are, unfortunately real, too ) Mischa & co. S Hello, S My name is Kathy. I don’t know why I am here but the S therapist S I’ve seen suggested it. She says I am part of a multiple system. I don’t S believe it. I don’t hear, see or feel any other people inside! I’m S totally confused. I have a terrible memory. I don’t remember a lot of S things but that doesn’t make me a multiple. She also refered to someone S else as the core, birth personality. But I am! I’ve always been here, S and I’m perfectly real! This is really scary. I’m beginning to doubt my S memories that I do have. I remember the first grade, second grade, then S skip skip blank blank until junior high and high school. I can’t see too S well so I hope I am writing ok. This therapist also said that the other S alters have been writing here so maybe some of you know them? I don’t S like the idea of there being others but if there are I guess I have to get S to know them. Please, could anyone help? S Kathy
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