Question:
Hey everyone, I’m new here, so here is my speel: my name is Tia, i’m 16 from fl…. and extremely new to the web groups, so give me time to get use to these things. My problem is, I feel like my mom (who I love more than my life, she is one of my best friends) seems to not acknowledge that I have a problem. Last october my biology teacher died (i was in private school, with about 150 kids in the whole highschool, so we knew everyone really well) Anyway, the day that we went back into his classroom, I cried so hard that I got a headache, that never went away. They tested me for everything, and anything physical, and said that it was psychological. I’ve been dealing with a bad case of depression since 6th grade (also dealt with self injury). Adding to a list of bad things that happend in my childhood, that bio teacher was about the 20-something person i know to die. Regardless of society, even i know that, that is a tough number of people to deal with who have passed away. Back to the story: in the emergency room, the doctor was questioning me, a lot of questions, and said I suffered from PTSD with possible borderline personality. Blah blah blah, to make a long story short, my mom (again, who is my life) seems oblivious that I have a problem. I know parents sometimes feel responsible for whatever happens to their children, but i feel lack of compassion hurts more than whatever has happend to me in my past. I love my mom, and have told her that i feel like i need more than what i’m getting for counseling (christian counseling, which i love my counselor dearly… she see’s me on a free basis, b/c i’m a friend of a friend.. and was suicidle.. but b/c of my *faith* (i hate the term religion) won’t label a problem) Even though I already have a diagnosis. Blah blah blah, i know this sounds like babble, and i’m trying hard to make this all make sense… but what do i do about my mom , and would it be better to go to another counselor. i have really horrible trust issues. hypocritical as it sounds, me telling the world, but whatever…. please help…. if you can catch my drift with how sloppy my post has been…. Shock on with a double edged razor blade, Always Tialynn
Response:
Hi Tia! All I can tell you is what my son’s psychologist told me that he told my son: The choices you make are your own choices now. You are almost completely physically and emotionally grown up. Your parents have done the best that they could (good or bad choices for you, it doesn’t matter … their ‘best’ may not have been your ‘best choice’). It’s up to you to make your own choices now. Good luck with making choices for ‘your life’ which are ‘right’ for you. It can be a wonderful journey! Smile and there will be something to smile about! Nancy
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Hi Tialynn:-) Welcome, you’re not invisible any longer.:-) There’s good advice here from people who’ve been where you are now. First of all, condolences on the passing of your friend, the biology teacher, I’m sure he felt grateful to know you while he was alive. It’s always hard to lose a friend. Your concern about the therapist and your mother acknowledging the ER doc’s diagnosis of ptsd and blah, blah, blah:-) is one many of us have felt too, like life would be a lot more tolerable if people wouldn’t minimize or discount our disorder, right? Have you researched ptsd on the internet? There are lots of interesting articles discussing postraumatic stress disorder, maybe you could read some and print up the ones which best describe how you feel then pass them on to your mom and therapist. Check out the FAQ on this NG, there are plenty of good sites featured. When I was first diagnosed I sent ptsd sites to some of my friends so they’d know what was up with me, everybody was pretty glad because before when I talked about depression and suicide it made them _real_ nervous. After they’d read the information, however, they were better able to understand me when I talked about how I felt. Maybe you’ll have a similar result with your mom and therapist, although as people here are fond of saying YMMV (Your Mileage May Vary:-). Good luck Tia, hope you’ll post here again and let us know how it’s goin’ for ya. …the best is yet to come, BroVetDave
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Thanks so much for the replies, i’m starting to get the hang of these groups <3 Tia
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Remember Tia your not alone! There is hope and people who care:) Stay strong, Pam
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Hiya, I’ve been on vacation so I missed the original post you put up (I think). welcome to the PTSD group here. Its an ever-changing group of people with a few old timers. Welcome and I hope that you find the support you are seeking. for myself, this place is invaluable. Knowing you aren’t alone with your strange symptoms of PTSD is a very positive experience. You don’t have to wonder if you’re weird, just come here and we’ll tell ya that ya are =) Welcome, Kristine The unexamined life is not worth living – Socrates
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