Question:
Anyone here know what I’m talking about? Flashback bouts of severe heartwrenching emotionally debilitating chest pain from having been exposed to 20 years of fear, humiliation, lack of love, on constant combat alert with a physically violent, unpredictable, emotionally and psychologically abusive mother, herself a victim of PTSD disorder. Anyone know what that feels like ? Or expereinced anything similar? Anyone here expereince complete emotional drain and burnout from their expereinces like a flat battery unable to sustain a charge for long ? Stephanie
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Well it’s been at least 25 years, so I’ve given up hoping that the effects of trauma are just going to disappear into time. The good news: The emotional pain disappeared with a stable environment after 10 years. Then something one should NEVER EVER do if one has been through trauma is end up in another traumatic situation down the road. The second time, you have no more resources to battle what is attacking you. If you think you were emotionally weakened the first time and had trouble coping, the second time is like trying to squeeze the last drop of juice from a dead battery. A second time knee injury takes twice as long to heal as did the first and so it goes with emotional energy. Man, it’s a slow climb out of the shit hole. Stephanie – Hide quoted text — Show quoted text ->Anyone here know what I’m talking about? >Flashback bouts of severe heartwrenching emotionally debilitating >chest pain from having been exposed to 20 years of fear, humiliation, >lack of love, on constant combat alert with a physically violent, >unpredictable, emotionally and psychologically abusive mother, herself >a victim of PTSD disorder. >Anyone know what that feels like ? Or expereinced anything similar? >Anyone here expereince complete emotional drain and burnout from their >expereinces like a flat battery unable to sustain a charge for long ? >Stephanie
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Stephanie, I really like the way you write. It is down to earth and very sincere. To the point and not in a way that triggers others. I like you and your style. Joseph Faith is the substance of things hoped for, the evidence of things not seen.
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In article <36c4ced3.32679…@news.v-wave.com>, stepha…@v-wave.com (S – Hide quoted text — Show quoted text -Baziuk) wrote: > Well it’s been at least 25 years, so I’ve given up hoping that the > effects of trauma are just going to disappear into time. > The good news: The emotional pain disappeared with a stable > environment after 10 years. > Then something one should NEVER EVER do if one has been through trauma > is end up in another traumatic situation down the road. The second > time, you have no more resources to battle what is attacking you. > If you think you were emotionally weakened the first time and had > trouble coping, the second time is like trying to squeeze the last > drop of juice from a dead battery. > A second time knee injury takes twice as long to heal as did the first > and so it goes with emotional energy. Man, it’s a slow climb out of > the shit hole. > Stephanie
Nice to find someone I can somewhat relate to. You’d think by my age I’d be over much of this stuff, but no. From the time I was about 15 to about 28 every 6 months like clockwork my mother was in the hospital, after my filing missing persons reports, and her running away from me thinking I was trying to poison her. This was after massive cusotdy battles (I’m the only child), amongst other things. The breakdowns stopped (in between which she would call me daily pretending nothing had happened, and telling me what to do with my life which, then, I was doing my best to make a ‘go’ of), when I moved to this city, where I then fell in love with a man who eventually raped me. And a good friend, who recently published a self-help book, did not believe me that he did this. Thank god I found a therapist I can relate to, who is treating me for ptsd. It helps having a nice home (which I’ve worked hard at – painted it twice), a sanctuary to come home to. All the best, – Willow
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