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You are numb. There is a reason if you have numb out right now. Definitely talk about it with your therapist. Numb can start to feel comfortable, and that is bad. – Hide quoted text — Show quoted text -hannah81…@my-deja.com wrote: > x-no-archive: yes > I’m trying to figure out if what I feel is the classic > numbness/disconnectedness that is characteristic of PTSD, or if it’s just me > pulling back from relationships, sort of a distrust issue. > I am just coming through the roughest week I’ve ever experienced – it is just > starting to fade a bit, thank goodness. Replacing it is a weird distanced > feeling that’s sort of like I don’t know anyone, like everyone is surreal – > it’s like I never knew the person I’m talking to in the first place. > Example: I had a therapy session today, but it felt like I hardly knew my > therapist at all, and I know her well. Usually I feel better having seen > her; today I feel like I was talking to a total stranger. Like the heart and > soul of me wouldn’t come out, like the part of me that matters was absent. I > went through the motions and intellectually told her what’s been going on, > but left feeling emptier than usual. > Has anyone had a similar experience? Is this that roller coaster many of you > have mentioned? Thanks in advance for any input. > Sent via Deja.com http://www.deja.com/ > Before you buy.
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Hannah, yes its the familiar rollercoaster. I interpret it as a survival mechanism. A good one at that. Just think of all the times the numbness has allowed you to get done what you needed to, in spite of the awful trauma…in that way, numbness = survival right? I too am feeling a little disconnected. Had a bad physical flashback and went through a night of hell. Since then I’ve been distant from it. Told therapist I didn’t want to discuss it in therapy and she respected that. We talked on some other foundational stuff and I was able to maintain my grasp on distancing myself from the horrible memories pushing their way out. I’m afraid though that its not permanent (how can it be?) and that the awful stuff will again be back, eventually. I am, however, more prepared this time. My therapist advised me to train my flashing back child in some of the things I use as an adult for relief. I have lists here for that time, when it comes…Kristine
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Elsie, great stuff on this post about dissociation. Since its a new experience (at least I’m newly aware that I do it), I’m saving your post for future help/reminder. Thank you! Kristine
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You’re welcome Hannah, I liked reading your reply too. You’re right, nurturing is good. It gives gentleness. I’m hoping someone else may have a thing or two to share? Kristine
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> I’m hoping someone else may have a thing or two to share?
Sorry! I am still so numb after all these years of therapy and meds that I still cannot sit in a room for an aromatherapy exercise. I had a complete panic attack and left the second ‘presentation’ last Tuesday. It’s supposed to be an on-going thing in group, and I don’t know how to be in group for only half the time without being impolite! I hate not being polite! Numbness is just a protective device for me. Don’t know what I am protecting myself from, tho. Smile and there will be something to smile about! Nancy
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Kristine, > cat love-a loving cat is therapeutic
My kitties have been invaluable for me over the years. My oldest furry son, Rocky, has been with me since 1989. Although he is not a lap/cuddly cat, he is affectionate and will head butt me when he wants a scratching behind the ears. I have found that just rubbing my fingers through their fur feels so good on my hands and it really relaxes me for the few minutes that I do it. Deeanna
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Nancy, I have that reaction myself to one oil and I won’t use it. Not everything can work for everyone, but wouldn’t it be incredible if it did? =) Kristine
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