Question:
After days like today, I am further convinced that the VA is not so much a source of help, as it is a constant and continuing source of anger/rage(yes, I believe there is a difference in anger and rage). If you didnt suffer from stress h/a before you dealt with the VA, you sure will long before there done with you. What kind of system are they running??? The aggrevation and heartache do not seem worth it. Like I said in a previous post, I’m in a fight to keep whats left of my mind, before I go completely insane, and these people are just pushing and pushing and pushing…. What is it? They want you to go over the edge, so they can make more money when they finally decide that your worthy of treatment???!! I have to deal with a chaplain who is more interested in why I didnt fill out the spiritual assessment forms than whats going on… Then oh come back in 10 weeks… 10 WEEKS!!! HELLO?? Is that when hell will be frozen over?? So there just aint nothing for me to smile about, unless theres a gun to my head, and its the split second between the trigger pull and eternity.. "We had everything before us, we had nothing before us…" -A Tale of Two Cities C. Dickens
Response:
Hey, I must apologize for some of the things I said in my previous posting. specifically: "So there just aint nothing for me to smile about, unless theres a gun to my head, and its the split second between the trigger pull and eternity…" This is something I would never do. I spent too many years pulling people from NY Harbor to take that way out.
Response:
>After days like today, I am further convinced that the VA is not so >much a source of help, as it is a constant and continuing source of >anger/rage(yes, I believe there is a difference in anger and rage).
Wow. I can hear you loud and clear. Government agencies are _extremely_ frustrating and enraging. When we have the sort of problems diagnosable as PTSD, we do _not_ need to fill out forms! > I have to deal with a chaplain who is more interested in >why I didnt fill out the spiritual assessment forms than whats going >on… Then oh come back in 10 weeks… 10 WEEKS!!! HELLO?? Is that >when hell will be frozen over??
This is not a funny situation at all. I did LOL, though, when I read the last two sentences above! Did you express your feelings to the chaplain? I appreciated you apology for the _trigger stuff_ too.
Response:
>Wow. I can hear you loud and clear. Government agencies are >_extremely_ >frustrating and enraging. When we have the sort of problems diagnosable >as
PTSD, we do _not_ need to fill out forms! Personally, I think the worst things abouts forms are: <g> 1) Remembering where you put them so you can fill them out. 2) Remembering where you put them after you have filled them out. 3) Remembering to mail them. Hope everyone is having a nice evening.
Response:
I can only think of one more thing to add to your list off hand…. Being asked to rank top 3 flashbacks!! Oh yeah! There’s an easy request… I cant recall the last time I sat there and said ‘Hmmm I think I’ll put that on my list as my worst flashback yet’ Somedays, it seems quite hopeless. Like things will never get back to even semi normal,(which would be a blessing compared to what I seem to have now). I know they will, I’m just losing my patience, I would say my faith too, but that has been lost for quite some time. Oh well, I battle on.
Response:
Don’t give upI believe with all of my heart our prayers can help. Ask God everyday to get you through it. Get a good hobby that is quite no stress pray while you work. My favorite is the Lords Prayer. If I can’t pray I count from 1-100. It helps. Keep the faith we will all make it.
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