Question:
Tina, Nights have always been the worst for me. I have had trouble with insomnia since I was a child. Sleeping was not safe, so I didn’t until I had to, and then, very lightly. I am lucky to have a wonderful husband, who does his best to understand my tendency to be up to all hours. He tells me to wake him whenever I need to. Most nights, I don’t, but there have been nights that I have. As I progressed in my recovery, I found that the ghosts haunted me, less often. The nightmares became less frequent, the flashbacks too. My biggest problem, those terrifying middle of the night panic attacks, even began to lose their power. I wish I could make it all stop for you, but I don’t have that power. However, here are a few of the things that helped me through the bad times. I hope that this can give you a little help. If you have somebody you can talk to, that will understand the middle of the night need, call them, talk for a bit. It sounds like you are doing that, already. Do you have a VCR? Sometimes, a favorite movie will take your mind of your unwanted thoughts. I like to read. A good book is something I can lose myself in, if just for a little while. A warm bath, with some really nice bubbles. I have a couple of great scented bath foams, that I save, just for when I feel bad. Sometimes, I combine the two, a good book, and a nice long soak in a warm bubble bath. Once I feel relaxed and a little sleepy, I take that book off to bed with me, and read until I drift off. As I said, I have a very understanding husband, that doesn’t say a word, when I fall asleep with the light on. He just turns it off, in the morning, and places my book on the nightstand. Then he gives me a little kiss, and heads off to work. I don’t know if any of this will help, but I thought that I would at least let you know what has helped me, in the past, and sometimes, in the present. take care, rosee — # Netscape folder cache Last night was a very bad night for me..nights seem to be the worst…you know, when kids are asleep, noone else is around except the ghosts in your head to haunt your thoughts. Are nights bad for everyone? If so …HELP.. how do I keep from waking uop or for that matter, not even falling asleep , because of thoughts from the past, worries of the future…I was so crazy last night that I phoned my fiance in Dallas…told him I wasn’t moving..& broke the engagement. Fortunately for me, he was very patient & understanding & "talked" me thru this. Does this happen to anyone else? Just curious on how you deal with it? Tina
Response:
Hi Tina: There is a psychic energy attached to memory that resides in the muscles, the body. This is where the larger mind is. Now the memory is very helpful, as it is who you are, and who you are is a very beautiful person. It is the psychic energy that is attached to the muscle memory that is not so good, it powers the obessive compulsive reflex. When I came back from my vietnam service, I had some PTSD issues that came up in night dreams with sweats and other phonomema. Waking up at 3 am screaming with my arms outstreached trying to strangle a invisable persons neck – a past perpatrator. I would fall back in bed, outstreached, praying to my higher power to heal of this anger and rage. Then I would set out and perform my visual imagery exercise, that seperates the psychic energy from the muscles (applied psychophysiology interventions are the best but when that is not there for money and vector reasons – there are other ways to help) What this imagery is: Is to create a rose (powerfull healing archtypay symbol) in my mindseye. Place the rose outside of my body (has to do with locus of control, if you want to get rid of something "see" it outside of the body, want to enhace and keep something "see" inside the body) and make the rose as big as my body and the head of the rose as big as my head. Then I would impose a picture image of the situation, dream, perpatrator, what ever problematical image in the rose, and explode it, fazer it like Capt Kirk, or use butterflys with rose patterns to carry it away. The more anger you have at the image, the better it is to express that energy in a constructive healing way instead of going completely passive – I opinion. And keep creating roses, and blowing up the image of dad, mom, uncle, exs, whoever, until I can not long conjure up that image. Then you are done with it for today. Tomorrow or the next day you will get more stuff. This unconscious energy that is buried is a lot like a iceberg. Only 1/8 is above the surface, in consciousness. When you lop off the top, the berg gets lighter, and more of what was underwater surfaces, to get loped off some more. An 1/8 at a time. This to my recknoing is why there is a process and a timeing to recovery, everybody does it differently, but they get there. Keep up the good work, I am so proud of you. Alan P&M 4 comsec — # Netscape folder cache Last night was a very bad night for me..nights seem to be the worst…you know, when kids are asleep, noone else is around except the ghosts in your head to haunt your thoughts. Are nights bad for everyone? If so …HELP.. how do I keep from waking uop or for that matter, not even falling asleep , because of thoughts from the past, worries of the future…I was so crazy last night that I phoned my fiance in Dallas…told him I wasn’t moving..& broke the engagement. Fortunately for me, he was very patient & understanding & "talked" me thru this. Does this happen to anyone else? Just curious on how you deal with it? Tina
– Alan Brainiac Mac Farlane Disclaimer, don’t need no stinkin disclaimer. I am on a Macintosh !
Response:
– # Netscape folder cache Last night was a very bad night for me..nights seem to be the worst…you know, when kids are asleep, noone else is around except the ghosts in your head to haunt your thoughts. Are nights bad for everyone? If so …HELP.. how do I keep from waking uop or for that matter, not even falling asleep , because of thoughts from the past, worries of the future…I was so crazy last night that I phoned my fiance in Dallas…told him I wasn’t moving..& broke the engagement. Fortunately for me, he was very patient & understanding & "talked" me thru this. Does this happen to anyone else? Just curious on how you deal with it? Tina
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