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Why I did not [sp. suicide]

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We have the usual kind of small town cops too. Every one knows each other. No one gives a crap. They are usually at the local coffee stop off so if you need help just walk a block and grab a cop.   If you can’t get to the coffee shop be prepared to wait for assistance. My dog peed on the toe of one cop when they came for me one night.   If they know you and your family and they like you, things are hunky-dorey.  If they don’t know you or just plain don’t like you, you will probably not see them until the following week. I will add to their credit that like all places there are one or two really nice men that are pleasant and will talk to you if you have a problem but out of a police force of about 3-5 I am not sure if that is a good thing or not. It is like playing Russina-roulette when you call. I did however have a very sincere police officer tell my husband one day on the phone that "gee your wife has a really sexy voice on the phone". lol Becky Safe in the womb Of an everlasting night You find the darkness can Give the brightest light Safe in your place deep in the earth That’s when they’ll know what you’re really worth Forgotten while you’re here

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– Hide quoted text — Show quoted text – policepersons are excellent social workers yes, in some cases…most likely in larger cities Here in a small town (population 9,000) I’ve found the opposite to be true. When I called the police after my ex had broken my nose, first thing they asked, "what did you do to provoke him?" when a online divorce grp I used to use, tracked me down and called the police, they came to my door and asked me about it, told them yes I’ve been depression, no wasn’t suicdal, and their response was, "Good, we didn’t think you looked like a crazy." I could go on and on. On my local police force; one cop was arrested for shoplifting, another for stalking, another for having an affair with a minor. Recently a local man shot and killed his wife.  The police arrived, he came out of the house w/no weapon and they shot him 5 times. Awhile back, a local woman had left her husband because he was violent. He had vilolated the order of protection several times.  She called police, screaming he was on the way to kill her.  Her place was only a 5 minute walk from the police dept.  It took them 20 minutes to get there….too late, she was dead. ensoul

alabama was like this. i moved.

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policepersons are excellent social workers

yes, in some cases…most likely in larger cities Here in a small town (population 9,000) I’ve found the opposite to be true. When I called the police after my ex had broken my nose, first thing they asked, "what did you do to provoke him?" when a online divorce grp I used to use, tracked me down and called the police, they came to my door and asked me about it, told them yes I’ve been depression, no wasn’t suicdal, and their response was, "Good, we didn’t think you looked like a crazy." I could go on and on. On my local police force; one cop was arrested for shoplifting, another for stalking, another for having an affair with a minor. Recently a local man shot and killed his wife.  The police arrived, he came out of the house w/no weapon and they shot him 5 times. Awhile back, a local woman had left her husband because he was violent.  He had vilolated the order of protection several times.  She called police, screaming he was on the way to kill her.  Her place was only a 5 minute walk from the police dept.  It took them 20 minutes to get there….too late, she was dead. ensoul I’m like a bird, I’ll only fly away I don’t know where my soul is I don’t know where my home is ~Nelly Furtado

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SPOILER:  suicide … kill myself last night.   I was going to.  Feel desperate enough and you give it serious consideration. I could not figure out a method I had access to that would not potentially leave me a vegetable.   Do you know how _hard_ it is to kill yourself?   Some methods are more certain but hurt too damn much. This ain’t alt.suicide.holiday, I won’t elaborate.

Yeah, this is certainly true. It is the only reason I didn’t go through with it when I was 18. I thought about this alot last year, and I believe I have come up with such a method. I will not discuss it, but unless someone intervenes (which would leave me a vegetable) then it is 100% certain, and quick/painless. Expensive too. I will not consider it until I am in my 30’s. Anyway, I’m glad you didn’t, nice to hear from you again. — JP

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policepersons are excellent social workers

– Hide quoted text — Show quoted text – Wouldn’t you know it, one of the late-night cops gave me a Useful Suggestion.  I followed it up and alas!  it just might work! what was the suggestion? if that’s not prying. — For info about this service, see http://anon.twwells.com/help/ or e-mail:

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I’m very glad you’re still here, for whatever reason. -lisa

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That made me want to check in for the sake of being polite. I’m glad the thread held once more. ***

– Hide quoted text — Show quoted text – SPOILER:  suicide … kill myself last night.   I was going to.  Feel desperate enough and you give it serious consideration. I could not figure out a method I had access to that would not potentially leave me a vegetable.   Do you know how _hard_ it is to kill yourself?   Some methods are more certain but hurt too damn much. This ain’t alt.suicide.holiday, I won’t elaborate. I feel terrible for some of the things I’ve done recently… now I’m _really_ going to find out who my friends are.  Not only who can accept my apologies and attempts to make amends, not only who has the guts to stick around… but who will respect my _rational_ decisions made from experience.  (Planning my suicide was not a rational decision, curse me out all you want about that one.) I hate it when people call the cops.  I like cops.  I like them enough to hope I don’t have official business with them.   I liked all four I saw yesterday, one visit in the afternoon, one visit late last night. Wow!  St. Pete cops got out of their air-conditioned squad cars in the summer and visited this tower of misery I live in!  Quite an accomplishment.  <snicker Wouldn’t you know it, one of the late-night cops gave me a Useful Suggestion.  I followed it up and alas!  it just might work!   The suggestion certainly did not include going to the hospital.   Hey, guess what?   Cops are human!   Some of them have lived through shit, needed other people’s understanding and help instead of psychobabble platitudes and changed careers to become cops so they could Help Other People! What else stopped me from going through with my suicide plans?   A phone conversation with the ex.  Thought about it afterward.   I’m one of the few people he has never made a total victim of.   I’m kinda proud of it.   I am his karma nightmare.   I have _some_ use on this earth at the moment.   I’m about to become his HUGE karma nightmare. It won’t be for only my sake.  Can’t elaborate. My sincere apologies to any of you I have hurt in my moments of desperation and insanity.   You want a personal apology?  Find me and I’ll give you one.   I am in the midst of one of the greatest survival challenges I’ve ever faced.  I’m showing it. <oh, no, Chimera isn’t perfect!   AAAAARRRRGGGGHHHH!!! _I will not go into any hospital_ unless I am completely delusional, comatose or in equally dire straits.  Why?  I have no one to attend to my personal business.   I _must_ stay out of a mental health system which would do far more harm than good.   Coincidentally, the State of Florida will provide the resource I could not secure due to finances; a full disability/psychological evaluation as part of my three-year eligibility review.  Maybe I’ll get the _right_ meds and treatment for PTSD.  There are no coincidences. I’m still a crazy-ass bitch, though.  Keep it in mind.  I do.  I have to. — chimera:  learned a lot, a lot to learn excellence yields heartache. van gogh’s ear’s poetry… http://home.tampabay.rr.com/vangoghsear

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Wouldn’t you know it, one of the late-night cops gave me a Useful Suggestion.  I followed it up and alas!  it just might work!

what was the suggestion? if that’s not prying. — For info about this service, see http://anon.twwells.com/help/ or e-mail:

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