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I don’t know about others, but it appears My "ghost" are stronger now than when I was first back to the world. I believe it to be because of the weight of guilt and just getting tied of fighting it. Treatment though the VA I don’t trust. I have a family to support. They would be homeless, If I took off for any real treatment. I have a hard enough time as it is keeping a job. I sought treatment last year with a civilian Doc. Lost my job and insurance. The treatment seemed to be ripping me apart. I want to not remmeber. I want the nightmares, daymares, and "ghost" to go away. Treatment seems to be making a pack with the devil. I lived though the war, I don’t want to visit hell to be cured. Would like to hear from others, on how they cope. God Bless. Alton ——————-==== Posted via Deja News ====———————– http://www.dejanews.com/ Search, Read, Post to Usenet
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Hi Alton! > I don’t know about others, but it appears My "ghost" are > stronger now than when I was first back to the world.
Been there, done that. So are mine. > I believe it to be because of the weight of guilt and > just getting tied of fighting it.
Misplaced perception of guilt??? A lot of us got ’shot at and hit’ emotionally for doing what we thought was correct at the time. > Treatment though the VA I don’t trust.
Heck, I don’t trust myself, let alone an institution. OTOH, some of the best PTSD experts and treatment comes from the medical side of the VA. All it takes is one or two folks you trust. In my case, it took about 4 years before I could trust them; they never gave up on me (in this decade, anyway … the 1970s were a different story 
I have a family > to support. They would be homeless, If I took off for > any real treatment. I have a hard enough time as it is > keeping a job.
Might I suggest that if you got PTSD from serving your country, your country might owe you to pay back its promise? The service reps at the VA can help you with these problems. > I sought treatment last year with a civilian Doc. Lost > my job and insurance. The treatment seemed to be ripping me > apart. I want to not remmeber. I want the nightmares, daymares, > and "ghost" to go away. Treatment seems to be making a pack with > the devil. I lived though the war, I don’t want to visit hell to > be cured. Would like to hear from others, on how they cope.
You don’t need to visit hell to be cured. You are in hell and will stay there until you learn how to reduce the pain which gives us nightmares, daymares and ghosts. I recently heard that ‘life is not supposed to be a struggle’. I’m still trying to decide if I can live without the struggle … doesn’t that sound like a wonderful possibility? I hope for a better 1998 for you and yours! Smile and there will be something to smile about! Nancy
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- Hide quoted text — Show quoted text -easto…@flash.net wrote: > I don’t know about others, but it appears My "ghost" are > stronger now than when I was first back to the world. > I believe it to be because of the weight of guilt and > just getting tied of fighting it. > Treatment though the VA I don’t trust. I have a family > to support. They would be homeless, If I took off for > any real treatment. I have a hard enough time as it is > keeping a job. > I sought treatment last year with a civilian Doc. Lost > my job and insurance. The treatment seemed to be ripping me > apart. I want to not remmeber. I want the nightmares, daymares, > and "ghost" to go away. Treatment seems to be making a pack with > the devil. I lived though the war, I don’t want to visit hell to > be cured. Would like to hear from others, on how they cope. > God Bless. Alton > ——————-==== Posted via Deja News ====———————– > http://www.dejanews.com/ Search, Read, Post to Usenet
Dear Alton, my ptsd is from a cause other than war but some have suggested that desinsitization by ‘reliving it’ would be a good cure. DON,T know where they are coming from. Obviously they,ve never been to hell! I agree with you – I,ve been to hell for an extended period of time and I ain,t goin back! I don,t believe that is the "cure". And anyone who suggests it is history in my life. I,ve been reading a book by a woman named Aphrodite Matsakis about Ptsd which is both very good and very difficult. So far, I,ve had to skip directly to the healing chapters, after reading her precautions for how to use the book. My therapists attitude is that I will talk about those things I am able to, when I am ready. There may be some I,ll never be ready to talk about. I think it is different for each person. We are all unique. Just keep doing the things that are healing for you. In the second, healing part of the book, Matsakis likens ptsd to a stone in the soil by a tree. The stone won,t go away but the tree roots will grow around it and still be strong. I think with ptsd something will always be there. My goal is to make that something a positive. I know. I,m looking at a monumental task but if I weren,t up to it, I never would have survived the trauma to begin with. I look at memories when I can handle them without going over the edge. Sometimes I have to push a ot of stuff away but I will survive and I will maintain my sanity. Very good help and support has been essential to me. There is also lots more work being done on ptsd. I figure it,s up to us ptsders to keep the researchers honest, cause if you ain,t been there…….! Hope some of this helps. Do keep checking in here. It is a source of support and hope. Peace and healing. The Don Miller posts in the past have helped me. If |I can help you, just yell. Sue Doe Nim
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