Question:
Hi, all… I’m so tired of reliving the same again and again and again… as I cannot remember cognitively what has happened and caused my trauma (amnesia), my soul just again and again re-enacts it, by using situations and persons… and it almost killed me this time… why the hell do all the docs, who studied trauma and ptsd do not really KNOW, what can stop it, finally…. I went to a trauma-clinic recently… they told me "hm.. difficult"… hell, if it wasn’t difficult, I’d heal it myself… I’m so tired of hurt… is there only one way to end this??? *sohurt* Jessie
Response:
"jessie" <jess…@freenet.de> wrote in message
news:7381795d.0209251150.2b3e7e8e@posting.google.com… > Hi, all… > I’m so tired of reliving the same again and again and again… as I > cannot remember cognitively what has happened and caused my trauma > (amnesia), my soul just again and again re-enacts it, by using > situations and persons… and it almost killed me this time… why the > hell do all the docs, who studied trauma and ptsd do not really KNOW, > what can stop it, finally….
Jessie, until you can find your way into the heart of the matter, all you can hope for is symptomatic treatments, something to help you along. > I went to a trauma-clinic recently… they told me "hm.. difficult"… > hell, if it wasn’t difficult, I’d heal it myself… > I’m so tired of hurt… > is there only one way to end this??? > *sohurt* > Jessie
You’re not getting the treatment you need. I’m concerned about your wellbeing. Please, don’t consider a permanent solution to a temporary crisis. Call a crisis intervention line. Get someone who cares at your side. It sucks, majorly, but you will get through this. You have to insist on better symptomatic treatment. You have to insist on getting the help you are seeking.
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jessie wrote: > Hi, all… > I’m so tired of reliving the same again and again and again… as I > cannot remember cognitively what has happened and caused my trauma > (amnesia), my soul just again and again re-enacts it, by using > situations and persons… and it almost killed me this time… why the > hell do all the docs, who studied trauma and ptsd do not really KNOW, > what can stop it, finally….
i think this is one of the most heartbreaking things about ptsd. like, why the hell cant it leave us alone. how the hell to stop something when you dont even know what the hell it is……. i really hear that…… i wish i had something helpful to say but i hope it helps that i really hear you about that repeating thing. its a killer…. take it easy….. keep asking people.. another ‘difficult’ :-}/ anna > I went to a trauma-clinic recently… they told me "hm.. difficult"… > hell, if it wasn’t difficult, I’d heal it myself… > I’m so tired of hurt… > *sohurt* > Jessie
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Hi, Larry Hi, Ann thank you both very much for your words…. better treatment is difficult and how to get to the core of it (without going insane!) i haven’t found out yet… guess… it goes on like this… and that shock will happen again and again… perhaps, I can get used to that…*tiredsmile* thanks anyway for your words… it is a wonderful feeling, to be heard… Jessie
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"jessie" <jess…@freenet.de> wrote in message
news:7381795d.0209261015.2e947db6@posting.google.com… > Hi, Larry > Hi, Ann > thank you both very much for your words…. > better treatment is difficult and > how to get to the core of it (without going insane!) i haven’t found > out yet…
Ahh, that’s comforting…..you use that special word, ‘yet’. There will be a time. It just isn’t now. > guess… it goes on like this… and that shock will happen again and > again… perhaps, I can get used to that…*tiredsmile*
It’s quite all right to vent your frustrations…..No, it’s *essential* to vent your frustrations. You’ll learn more about your pattern, and about what it means. You can’t do that when you’re frustrated. > thanks anyway for your words… it is a wonderful feeling, to be > heard… > Jessie
You’re so very welcome. I hope you stick around. We’ve got especially good ears, heareabouts. Hugs, Lar
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Hi, Larry… is it possible that you send me an email so that I can send you one? I tried, but it came back… my emailaddy is: jess…@freenet.de thanks for your so comforting words… (hope that is the right english expression for it… my english is… not too goog, I’m afraid)… Jessie
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