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"Julie" <jala…@tampabay.rr.com> wrote in message
news:FkhK9.32029$Db4.853906@twister.tampabay.rr.com… – Hide quoted text — Show quoted text -> I’m new to this posting but not new to ptsd, years of therapy, drug > treatment or hospitalization. Only in the past year or two have I reached > out and found a name for what I live with every day of my life. It amazes me > that my private torment is shared by so many. It hurts me that I am not the > only one and yet relieves me tremendously. It took me years to figure out > that there is no ‘cure’ and that all the work I have done has helped me in > some ways but that this is something that I have just had to accept as part > of my life. I lost friends and family when I came to this conclusion and > basically came totally undone and had a severe melt-down. They got terribly > scared and hurt. I understand the reaction though the pain of loss stays > with me. Since then I have made new friends and can be who I am just as am. > I have monthly cycles where it’s some times better than others despite the > medication but I have managed to stay out of the hospital and for me that is > a miracle. > My hope is that when the darkness falls over me that I can remember to reach > out and not go hide in the closet with a knife.
Welcome Julie, you’ve found the place to reach out, that’s half the battle……..come here, express your feelings or whatever you need to do and someone will answer, td – Hide quoted text — Show quoted text –
Response:
Dear Julie, Welcome. I am sorry that you qualify for this group and want to welcome you. We are all at different stages of dealing with and living with PTSD. I also hope that you’ll be able to reach out and not retreat into the darkness. Possible trigger * * * * * * * * * * * * * In my case I would retreat into closets also or, when I was very young, into drawers…often accompanied by my younger sister…waiting and hoping that the rages and the terrors would stop. My behaviors and personal fears involve knives also…always have. Now, with the help of good doctors and multiple 12 step programs as well as a serious spiritual practice, I can often find both clarity and hope. Like you, it’s been ongoing for years. I still have severe flashbacks at times and night terrors. Most of the time I also have awareness, but I don’t take that for granted as I can still be fooled by a lot of stuff out there. I wish you peace, Julie. Welcome. Take care, Anne at least you can receive empathy and validation here. At least that has been my experience thus far. – Hide quoted text — Show quoted text ->I’m new to this posting but not new to ptsd, years of therapy, drug >treatment or hospitalization. Only in the past year or two have I reached >out and found a name for what I live with every day of my life. It amazes me >that my private torment is shared by so many. It hurts me that I am not the >only one and yet relieves me tremendously. It took me years to figure out >that there is no ‘cure’ and that all the work I have done has helped me in >some ways but that this is something that I have just had to accept as part >of my life. I lost friends and family when I came to this conclusion and >basically came totally undone and had a severe melt-down. They got terribly >scared and hurt. I understand the reaction though the pain of loss stays >with me. Since then I have made new friends and can be who I am just as am. >I have monthly cycles where it’s some times better than others despite the >medication but I have managed to stay out of the hospital and for me that is >a miracle. >My hope is that when the darkness falls over me that I can remember to reach >out and not go hide in the closet with a knife.
Response:
I’m new to this posting but not new to ptsd, years of therapy, drug treatment or hospitalization. Only in the past year or two have I reached out and found a name for what I live with every day of my life. It amazes me that my private torment is shared by so many. It hurts me that I am not the only one and yet relieves me tremendously. It took me years to figure out that there is no ‘cure’ and that all the work I have done has helped me in some ways but that this is something that I have just had to accept as part of my life. I lost friends and family when I came to this conclusion and basically came totally undone and had a severe melt-down. They got terribly scared and hurt. I understand the reaction though the pain of loss stays with me. Since then I have made new friends and can be who I am just as am. I have monthly cycles where it’s some times better than others despite the medication but I have managed to stay out of the hospital and for me that is a miracle. My hope is that when the darkness falls over me that I can remember to reach out and not go hide in the closet with a knife.
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