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melly_re…@yahoo.com (melly_renzi) wrote in news:63f6253f.0311050856.376053fe@posting.google.com: Firstly, gidday Mel 
> What I’m asking I guess is … Dose anyone else here feel like a > complete idiots for "losing" thier minds from time to time because of > stuff that happened to them ages ago?
I used to………. but then I convinced myself that *I’m* normal and the rest of the world is out of step and has to catch up with me But it’s amazing how many of us ‘normal’ people are out there. You won’t feel lonely anymore > Thank you for putting up with my bad typing and all {hard to type and > spell with twins on your lap}
Teach them to type for you — Peter Lucas Brisbane Australia "People sleep safely in their beds because rough men stand ready in the night to do violence to those who would do them harm" — George Orwell
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…anyone else here feel like a > complete idiots for "losing" thier minds from time to time because of > stuff that happened to them ages ago? > I feel like I am so selfish for being unhappy when my life is great. > My kids are healthly my husband is a really good man, but then before > you know it …I’m trying to scratch my viens out of my arms because > i’m not worth thier love or i’m trying to save them from me. > Thank you for putting up with my …
Hi, When I read other people’s words here and sort out my own, similar stuff I feel a thin layer of shame lift. And then it gets easier. I feel a little less selfish. The feeling of being ashamed or feeling like an idiot as you describe your reaction can really add to the daily stress. Try to remember that we’re all doing the best we can do. If we’re going to the doctor & reading support group stuff we must be trying to do good things for ourselves! Sounds smart to me anyway. Write more — let us "put up with" more about you. (little smile) Cecile
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"melly_renzi" <melly_re…@yahoo.com> wrote in message
news:63f6253f.0311050856.376053fe@posting.google.com… – Hide quoted text — Show quoted text -> I have just been given the diagnosis PTSD from childhood trauma after > years of being told I was depressed. I must say I’m a little startled > and confused and a little relieved maybe. I am not in contact with any > one that has any experiance with any of this and am a bit lost here. > The Doctors have given me lexapro and topamax to "help" me out after 5 > or so weeks my topamax has been uped to 100mg a day from 50 after an > episode this past week end. > What I’m asking I guess is … Dose anyone else here feel like a > complete idiots for "losing" thier minds from time to time because of > stuff that happened to them ages ago? > I feel like I am so selfish for being unhappy when my life is great. > My kids are healthly my husband is a really good man, but then before > you know it …I’m trying to scratch my viens out of my arms because > i’m not worth thier love or i’m trying to save them from me. > Thank you for putting up with my bad typing and all {hard to type and > spell with twins on your lap} > Mel
Feel/felt that way many times myself. Hang in there Mel, it helps to have friends who understand. best, td
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Hi Melly! Firstly, welcome to the ng. I’m sorry that you seem to qualify! Secondly, my comments: > What I’m asking I guess is … Dose anyone else here feel like a > complete idiots for "losing" thier minds from time to time because of > stuff that happened to them ages ago?
This sounds like innappropriate shame, one of a PTSDers’ standard diagnostic criteria, I believe. If I hadn’t felt this innapropriate shame and had not acted upon it in the past, I probably would not have ‘earned through my own efforts’ the PTSD diagnosis. However, I did act upon those feelings, in a way that I believed with all my heart, was the correct action. I can see now how that action caused a downhill slide into worse PTSD symptoms. > I feel like I am so selfish for being unhappy when my life is great.
It is wonderful that those around who you love are doing well. However it is difficult for me to agree with your statement that ‘my life is great’. IME my PTSD caused a lot of problems for those whom I love. Gradually, as I recover, they are also ‘getting better’. YMMV Smile and there will be something to smile about! Nancy
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I have just been given the diagnosis PTSD from childhood trauma after years of being told I was depressed. I must say I’m a little startled and confused and a little relieved maybe. I am not in contact with any one that has any experiance with any of this and am a bit lost here. The Doctors have given me lexapro and topamax to "help" me out after 5 or so weeks my topamax has been uped to 100mg a day from 50 after an episode this past week end. What I’m asking I guess is … Dose anyone else here feel like a complete idiots for "losing" thier minds from time to time because of stuff that happened to them ages ago? I feel like I am so selfish for being unhappy when my life is great. My kids are healthly my husband is a really good man, but then before you know it …I’m trying to scratch my viens out of my arms because i’m not worth thier love or i’m trying to save them from me. Thank you for putting up with my bad typing and all {hard to type and spell with twins on your lap} Mel
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