Question:
a few times I’ve had violent outbursts to intimidations and coercion. I was regularly targetted by bullies so I think that is what caused my post traumatic. So it is important for me to remain calm when someone is threatening me to avoid doing something that I will always wish I could have avoided. Is this normal with post traumatic? I’m afraid to tell anyone because they might think I’m a danger to others. I use violence only when left with no other viable option and I’m careful not to injure anyone unless there is no way to avoid it. I don’t like guns because there is no way to take back a bullet if you know it was wrong. I’d rather not have to do things like that but with human tendency to look the other way I can’t be sure I won’t have to again.
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I’ve been getting the feeling of being targeted, lately. I let little things people do get to me. I don’t usually react, but have before, especially as I was driving. This is kind of unusual for me too, because I’m generally a gentle-natured person. On Thu, 11 Nov 2004 06:17:52 GMT, Katz Heitmann – Hide quoted text — Show quoted text -<katz…@mindspring.com> wrote: >a few times I’ve had violent outbursts to intimidations and coercion. I >was regularly targetted by bullies so I think that is what caused my >post traumatic. So it is important for me to remain calm when someone >is threatening me to avoid doing something that I will always wish I >could have avoided. >Is this normal with post traumatic? I’m afraid to tell anyone because >they might think I’m a danger to others. I use violence only when left >with no other viable option and I’m careful not to injure anyone unless >there is no way to avoid it. I don’t like guns because there is no way >to take back a bullet if you know it was wrong. I’d rather not have to > do things like that but with human tendency to look the other way I >can’t be sure I won’t have to again.
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> I’ve been getting the feeling of being targeted, lately. I let little > things people do get to me. I don’t usually react, but have before, > especially as I was driving. This is kind of unusual for me too, > because I’m generally a gentle-natured person.
feeling of being attacked was huge with me and still can be…. just went thru that whole scene again. A very big part of ptsd. Survival. What did we all have to survive? Being attacked. I think I always have to be prepared for whatever whenever and that’s not a fun way to live but it’s what I do. I go thru all these possible situation in any given situation so that if and when whatever comes up….I have a game plan. Sometimes I’ve found I didn’t think of everything and then WHAMO I’m in ptsd. For me, the unexpected can set me off. And it all boils down to the crap that caused the ptsd in the first place. A situation can be quite benign but it can set me off with just the small triggers. Nine years of being aware….40 of living with it. But it has gotten better. Donna – Hide quoted text — Show quoted text -> On Thu, 11 Nov 2004 06:17:52 GMT, Katz Heitmann > <katz…@mindspring.com> wrote: > >a few times I’ve had violent outbursts to intimidations and coercion. I > >was regularly targetted by bullies so I think that is what caused my > >post traumatic. So it is important for me to remain calm when someone > >is threatening me to avoid doing something that I will always wish I > >could have avoided. > >Is this normal with post traumatic? I’m afraid to tell anyone because > >they might think I’m a danger to others. I use violence only when left > >with no other viable option and I’m careful not to injure anyone unless > >there is no way to avoid it. I don’t like guns because there is no way > >to take back a bullet if you know it was wrong. I’d rather not have to > > do things like that but with human tendency to look the other way I > >can’t be sure I won’t have to again.
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On Thu, 11 Nov 2004 05:14:08 -0800, "bckwrds" <bckw…@theriver.com> wrote: – Hide quoted text — Show quoted text ->> I’ve been getting the feeling of being targeted, lately. I let little >> things people do get to me. I don’t usually react, but have before, >> especially as I was driving. This is kind of unusual for me too, >> because I’m generally a gentle-natured person. >feeling of being attacked was huge with me and still can be…. >just went thru that whole scene again. A very big part of ptsd. >Survival. What did we all have to survive? Being attacked. >I think I always have to be prepared for whatever whenever >and that’s not a fun way to live but it’s what I do. I go thru all >these possible situation in any given situation so that if and >when whatever comes up….I have a game plan. Sometimes >I’ve found I didn’t think of everything and then WHAMO I’m >in ptsd. For me, the unexpected can set me off. And it all >boils down to the crap that caused the ptsd in the first place. >A situation can be quite benign but it can set me off with just >the small triggers. Nine years of being aware….40 of living >with it. But it has gotten better. >Donna
I feel like I’m just becoming aware of things, myself. The memories have been repressed ever since they happened, in childhood. There has always been a veil of blackness, in an area of my mind that I could never reach, but since I started with therapy I was able to piece things together and get past it. There’s a part of me that wonders why she made the decision to do these things, as if to give us the experience of being abused, so we wouldn’t feel deprived of being raised by someone who was abused. I guess we may still be in denial about some of what happened, and there are still some memories that are blacked out. Thanks for helping me talk about this, I don’t know that I could, face to face with someone, except for my therapist. I feel like my life has changed since I started with this, and its all very positive. – Hide quoted text — Show quoted text ->> On Thu, 11 Nov 2004 06:17:52 GMT, Katz Heitmann >> <katz…@mindspring.com> wrote: >> >a few times I’ve had violent outbursts to intimidations and coercion. I >> >was regularly targetted by bullies so I think that is what caused my >> >post traumatic. So it is important for me to remain calm when someone >> >is threatening me to avoid doing something that I will always wish I >> >could have avoided. >> >Is this normal with post traumatic? I’m afraid to tell anyone because >> >they might think I’m a danger to others. I use violence only when left >> >with no other viable option and I’m careful not to injure anyone unless >> >there is no way to avoid it. I don’t like guns because there is no way >> >to take back a bullet if you know it was wrong. I’d rather not have to >> > do things like that but with human tendency to look the other way I >> >can’t be sure I won’t have to again.
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- Hide quoted text — Show quoted text -David wrote: > On Thu, 11 Nov 2004 05:14:08 -0800, "bckwrds" <bckw…@theriver.com> > wrote: >>>I’ve been getting the feeling of being targeted, lately. I let little >>>things people do get to me. I don’t usually react, but have before, >>>especially as I was driving. This is kind of unusual for me too, >>>because I’m generally a gentle-natured person. >>feeling of being attacked was huge with me and still can be…. >>just went thru that whole scene again. A very big part of ptsd. >>Survival. What did we all have to survive? Being attacked. >>I think I always have to be prepared for whatever whenever >>and that’s not a fun way to live but it’s what I do. I go thru all >>these possible situation in any given situation so that if and >>when whatever comes up….I have a game plan. Sometimes >>I’ve found I didn’t think of everything and then WHAMO I’m >>in ptsd. For me, the unexpected can set me off. And it all >>boils down to the crap that caused the ptsd in the first place. >>A situation can be quite benign but it can set me off with just >>the small triggers. Nine years of being aware….40 of living >>with it. But it has gotten better. >>Donna > I feel like I’m just becoming aware of things, myself. The memories > have been repressed ever since they happened, in childhood. There has > always been a veil of blackness, in an area of my mind that I could > never reach, but since I started with therapy I was able to piece > things together and get past it. There’s a part of me that wonders why > she made the decision to do these things, as if to give us the > experience of being abused, so we wouldn’t feel deprived of being > raised by someone who was abused. I guess we may still be in denial > about some of what happened, and there are still some memories that > are blacked out.
She’s just sick ok and don’t think it’s your fault. What was done in the past is not your fault but what you do now is your responsibility. > Thanks for helping me talk about this, I don’t know that I could, face > to face with someone, except for my therapist. I feel like my life has > changed since I started with this, and its all very positive.
I’m glad you’re here to help me through this part of my past. Sometimes you aren’t ready to deal with those memories yet with time they will come back. – Hide quoted text — Show quoted text ->>>On Thu, 11 Nov 2004 06:17:52 GMT, Katz Heitmann >>><katz…@mindspring.com> wrote: >>>>a few times I’ve had violent outbursts to intimidations and coercion. I >>>>was regularly targetted by bullies so I think that is what caused my >>>>post traumatic. So it is important for me to remain calm when someone >>>>is threatening me to avoid doing something that I will always wish I >>>>could have avoided. >>>>Is this normal with post traumatic? I’m afraid to tell anyone because >>>>they might think I’m a danger to others. I use violence only when left >>>>with no other viable option and I’m careful not to injure anyone unless >>>>there is no way to avoid it. I don’t like guns because there is no way >>>>to take back a bullet if you know it was wrong. I’d rather not have to >>>> do things like that but with human tendency to look the other way I >>>>can’t be sure I won’t have to again.
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