Question:
I have been depressed lately. Most of it has been financial strain but I wonder if my past is not part of it….I went through counseling and have been fine for years. Can it resurface? My dad had a brown wagoneer and I saw one a few weeks ago at work. I nearly had a heart attack. I wonder if that was a trigger? Heidi
I think perhaps financial problems can make a person feel trapped. It could perhaps bring up times in the past where you’ve also felt trapped therefore acting like a trigger.. Just a thought. Panther
Response:
Hello Hiedi: I can relate to seeing the car. Years ago when I was on the run from an abusive home,my father had a blue Pontiac. He was always looking for me to bring me back home. ( he never knew what I suffered their.) Many times he found me. I returned to the abuse. I was so afraid when ever I saw a car like that , I sure no how you felt. Years later, maybe 10 or so back I saw that car. I almost like you had a heart attack. I thought those old Pontiac’s were all in the grave yard by then. It was very triggering for me I felt terrible fear. Peace be with you. Dar – Hide quoted text — Show quoted text – I have been depressed lately. Most of it has been financial strain but I wonder if my past is not part of it….I went through counseling and have been fine for years. Can it resurface? My dad had a brown wagoneer and I saw one a few weeks ago at work. I nearly had a heart attack. I wonder if that was a trigger? Heidi
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hey heidi, I beleive it can resurface when we are better able to handle a deeper healing, asome things that may go deeper. But possibly you are feeling down. I have a difficult time knowing what is "normal". I am not sure what to expect out of life. Sometimes I wonder if what I am feeling is what non-survivors feel at times. I feel sure that most people have times when they feel out of sorts. But….. another but ;-} Seeing a car that reminds you of your abuser might be a trigger to do some more recovery work. Yuck! Wonder if it ever ends. Probably not cause there will probably always be a little more I can heal & learn. I dont believe it ever "goes away", yet I can sometimes believe it lessens in intensity over time. polly wog – Hide quoted text — Show quoted text -I have been depressed lately. Most of it has been financial strain but I wonder if my past is not part of it….I went through counseling and have been fine for years. Can it resurface? My dad had a brown wagoneer and I saw one a few weeks ago at work. I nearly had a heart attack. I wonder if that was a trigger? Heidi
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I have been depressed lately. Most of it has been financial strain but I wonder if my past is not part of it….I went through counseling and have been fine for years. Can it resurface? My dad had a brown wagoneer and I saw one a few weeks ago at work. I nearly had a heart attack. I wonder if that was a trigger? Heidi
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sounds like post traumatic stress response Heidi. And though your gold may be thin – it will not take away your smile. You have to do that. Right now – inside you dont sound like a happy person who loves their life and lives it powerfully. Seems you are living in fear. It is not easy to say "fear not" and "Jesus is the answer" when this stuff is in the body memory. And mindtalk will not heal that up. You have to go into applied psychophysiology therapies, usually in combination – I have found that traditional accupuncture, biofeedback and integrative body psychotherapy will untie this stuff in very short order. It works if you work it. You can get rid of your ghosts and have a life you love. Now – do you wanna bad enough, cause recovery hurts like hell. When the pain of getting better is less then the pain of staying sick – then you, or anybody, will do the work to get well. sumbuddie – Hide quoted text — Show quoted text – I have been depressed lately. Most of it has been financial strain but I wonder if my past is not part of it….I went through counseling and have been fine for years. Can it resurface? My dad had a brown wagoneer and I saw one a few weeks ago at work. I nearly had a heart attack. I wonder if that was a trigger? Heidi
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Heidi, BIG SIGH…yes it can and does come back. Not that its a death sentence and you’re ALWAYS going to have it back. That I don’t know, but I did think I "dealt with it" already, and thus should be free from it. I’m not. Here I am now, in an incredibly safe situation, and it just worms its way out. Manifesting itself in what the professionals call PTSD and depression. I am hopeful that this stage of recovery/dealing with it will bring longer lasting results…but I just don’t know. You are not alone though, things trigger. Just making an appt. for a Pap triggered a flashback to the rape kit they do on victims in the hospital. Lovely. Know that you are not alone. Are you seeing a therapist? I’ve found one that specializes in trauma victims, and I’m getting good help. Took awhile to build up trust in her, but its heading in the right direction. Kristine
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