Question:
Jeannette wrote I hope to be back to my jolly ole self soon. Just give me some time ok? Love Ya All, Jeannette
You take all the time you need, Sweetie, and don’t worry about answering or anything (except to let us know you are ok once in awhile, ok?) Taking time for yourself to heal is just the ticket now. I always get nervous when the blue streak of cursing at some tool or project starts around here, LOL! No reason, the gentlest man you would ever hope to meet, and those words are never heard any other time either. It must just push some primal button in us! Take care, and I hope your stepdaughter brings a fresh ray of sunshine to your house to cheer you up. Liz G
Response:
Hello all you wonder friends: Thanks for your notes of suggestions and concerns. I am doing a bit better today because Ed is home I think. Anyway, woke up at 12:30 and BOING!!!! Couldn’t sleep and was restless etc. So my new trick is to move my CPAP machine and blanket and pillow into the guest room and low and behold I fall asleep and I am not bothering Ed. It works so that is one thing I can do instead of getting up and staying up all night. I have been doing little chores around the house here and there and am just taking it easy; keeping a low profile etc. It is helping some. My stepdaughter came home last night from college and will be home all week so that will help too. Any little stress though kind of starts throwing me into anxiety. Like my husband is painting the basement walls and was bitching about the paint being messy and right away I started getting anxious. I asked him to calm down and he did which helped me alot. I had gone to this wonderful counselor for a few sessions. Probably the best I ever had. Had to stop seeing her because insurance does not cover her and she is very expensive. She taught me some self-hypnosis which I used one day on my trip to the dr. office while Ed was driving and it really worked. I am sure I will be ok but it will take some time. It is not that I have not been here before but it has been quite a few years ago. I just need a lot of peace and quiet and solitude right now and my husband. This is something like PTSD (Post Traumatic Stress Disorder). It happens when too many things stressful and scary events happening over a short period of time. Last year was also no picnic for me with my almost losing my dad twice, once in May and then November. I am a victim of too much reality right now but I know I will be ok with time and rest. I appreciate all your caring and concern. I am sorry that I cannot reciprocate much right now. I think many of us are kind of blown away right now for different reasons or the same. None-the-less, we are struggling. Bless you all and I pray for you all every night with Ed. I hope to be back to my jolly ole self soon. Just give me some time ok? Love Ya All, Jeannette
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