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- Hide quoted text — Show quoted text – Hi. I’m not doing to hot. I still have flashbacks, panic attacks and depression. I went to the mall the other day and thought I was going to die. I thought that I dealt with my abusive past. I guess not. Anyway, I was in therapy for 8 years and last November my therapist and I felt I didn’t need therapy any longer. Everything was going great. I thought I was through with all my feelings and such. Sometimes now I think maybe it’s time to go back but I feel if I do I will have failed. I guess I feel I now need to do this on my own. I do go to a psychiatrist about twice a year for med checks but it’s only for 30 minutes. I’m really struggling. Kathy
Hi Kathy….Panic attacks are a bitch aren’t they? I wish that I could tell when one of them was gonna come crashing in on me… I’ve really tried to analyze just what was going on just before I have one… Sometimes I can face some unbelieveably stressful thing and handle it like a champ and other times I can be walking on a beach and just here a low keyed voice like my dad had and wham….I’m totally paralyzed… If you need to go back to your therapist I think you should…I don’t know your history but I don’t think that you’d be a failure…Taking care of yourself is a healthy thing for you to do… My biggest problem is when I’m in real trouble and I think that someone is going to judge me in some kind of badlight if I ask for help…I think at that time the only judging that’s being done is me judging myself….And my inner judge is rougher on me than anyone else… Today, I was supposed to take my son into a meeting regarding something that was very important…Something that I had been working on lining up for 1 1//2 years….(He’s 30 years old and a Traumatic Brain Injury Survivor) Anyway I thought I would be alright even though it involved my having to go to an unknown place, and meet with alot of people I had never met…Everything was going good all week but this morning out of the blue, there I am sitting on the old john, ralphing in the waste basket….And it made me so mad to be so damned helpless. I had to call my husband to come and take him…. Yet, there’s other days when I can see how far I’ve come from that "scared little girl"….And I think that if you’re working on your recovery….you’ve come a long way too….LynB
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- Hide quoted text — Show quoted text – Hi. I’m not doing to hot. I still have flashbacks, panic attacks and depression. I went to the mall the other day and thought I was going to die. I thought that I dealt with my abusive past. I guess not. Anyway, I was in therapy for 8 years and last November my therapist and I felt I didn’t need therapy any longer. Everything was going great. I thought I was through with all my feelings and such. Sometimes now I think maybe it’s time to go back but I feel if I do I will have failed. I guess I feel I now need to do this on my own. I do go to a psychiatrist about twice a year for med checks but it’s only for 30 minutes. I’m really struggling. Kathy
Hi Kathy: If there is a biological or organic medical issue to your panic attacks (like you have a thyroid disease) – go to a psychiatrist. It there is no medical issues behind the panic attacks, go find a certified biofeedback therapist, applied psychophysiologist, or a Rosenberg and Rand Integrative Body Psychotherapist. Someone with the training and recovery knowledge to deal with the Post Traumatic Stress Disorder you are having in your body and mind. These people are usually MFCC, LCSW, and Ph.D. or better yet Psy.D. psychologist. If they have a current state certification in the biofeedback and have the equipement – 20 hours of work and you are skatting into a different life. Most of the stuff is unconscious. But learning your bodies responses and how to mitigate them with healthy tools is very usefull. Later Alan ‘been there/done that’ Mac Farlane — Alan Brainiac Mac Farlane Disclaimer, don’t need no stinkin disclaimer. I am on a Macintosh !
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– Hide quoted text — Show quoted text – Hi. I’m not doing to hot. I still have flashbacks, panic attacks and depression. I went to the mall the other day and thought I was going to die. I thought that I dealt with my abusive past. I guess not. Anyway, I was in therapy for 8 years and last November my therapist and I felt I didn’t need therapy any longer. Everything was going great. I thought I was through with all my feelings and such. Sometimes now I think maybe it’s time to go back but I feel if I do I will have failed. I guess I feel I now need to do this on my own. I do go to a psychiatrist about twice a year for med checks but it’s only for 30 minutes. I’m really struggling. Kathy Hi Kathy: If there is a biological or organic medical issue to your panic attacks (like you have a thyroid disease) – go to a psychiatrist. It there is no medical issues behind the panic attacks, go find a certified biofeedback therapist, applied psychophysiologist, or a Rosenberg and Rand Integrative Body Psychotherapist. Someone with the training and recovery knowledge to deal with the Post Traumatic Stress Disorder you are having in your body and mind. These people are usually MFCC, LCSW, and Ph.D. or better yet Psy.D. psychologist. If they have a current state certification in the biofeedback and have the equipement – 20 hours of work and you are skatting into a different life. Most of the stuff is unconscious. But learning your bodies responses and how to mitigate them with healthy tools is very usefull. Later Alan ‘been there/done that’ Mac Farlane — Alan Brainiac Mac Farlane Disclaimer, don’t need no stinkin disclaimer. I am on a Macintosh !
The Bio-Feedback thing sounds a lot healthier than the PRN xanax I,m doing for panic. How do you find an LCSW that will or is capable of doing Bio-Fedback? pam
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My neurologist referred me to a biofeedback specialist…you may want to just check with your family doctor, they may know of one (if they believe in it)…your therp may also be a good resource. I would only get a biofeedback referral though…don’t let your fingers do the walking, you never know what you’ll find. Clue
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The Bio-Feedback thing sounds a lot healthier than the PRN xanax I,m doing for panic. How do you find an LCSW that will or is capable of doing Bio-Fedback? pam
/// Hi Pam: Phone Book, ask your recovery buddies in your town. Might have to go to a city, or call your local referal number. The Biofeedback Certification Institute of America is at: 4301 Owens St. Wheat Ridge, CO 88033 303-420-2902 per the last time I contacted them professionally. I had to give that part of my life up, to far out on the cutting edge. Later.. Alan posted and mailed for comsec — Alan Brainiac Mac Farlane Disclaimer, don’t need no stinkin disclaimer. I am on a Macintosh !
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SURVIVOR That happened in your childhood….. People say…… It’s time you put your childhood things….. Away…… You’ve survived it all…. and you’re alright.. But they didn’t live the terror… of the night…. They didn’t hear the anguish… of the screams… That woke me for the safety… of my dreams… The didn’t live night’s insanity.. That seemed to last an eternity…. Yes I’ve survived it all… And I’m alright… But I can’t forget the terror… Of the night…. LynB
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I’M NOT ROMANTIC ANYMORE I listen to love songs while I’m writing but so many of them say, "I’m nothing without you" or "I would give up myself for you". And I realize that I’m not romantic anymore, Cause I am "something" by myself… and…. After the long search of finding myself….. I realize that I am not willing… To give up myself…. For Anyone….
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HEAL THE CHILD I feel my spirit stretching out… As I glory in this time… A little gift I give myself…. Of solitude sublime… For though I deal with my past pain… Which is so hard to do… I know that this must be the time… So much is coming through… My mind is full of words of rage… My heart is full of tears… As I go back in time and space… To those hard fearful years… I know that before I know the woman inside of me…. That I must take a trip through time… And heal the child in me….. LynB
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LynB, Where ever, in your creative little mind, do you get this stuff? I love it! Dennis (Bermy)
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LynB, Where ever, in your creative little mind, do you get this stuff? I love it!
Dennis: Thanks….In answer to your question….I don’t have a clue as to what triggers my writing….If I had to sit down today and scare up a poem I couldn’t do it….What happens with me is that out-of-the-blue my little inner poet takes over…And there’s so many words floating around in my head that I have to make the time to just write….My husband is pretty understanding, and it’s a good thing because I work for his business, and I’m lucky that he understands and I can take the time off..(The old paycheck is definitely smaller though). When I was little, I used to write my poems outside in the dirt..That way I could quick erase them if someone was comming….It’s too bad that I had no secure place to keep my work…I wrote alot of poems over my childhood years, and I would like to look at them now…To visit the little girl poet and read her thoughts and feelings way back then…. Hugs, LynB – Hide quoted text — Show quoted text –
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Dennis: Glad that you like some of my stuff…My words come in waves…One minute I couldn’t write anything if my life depended on it….And the next, I might be awake for two days straight, unable to do anything but write….I’ve learned to go with the flow….Luckily, my husband is pretty understanding…As I work at his company and when the tidal wave of words start….I just take what time I need to work it all out…(of course the old paycheck is a bit smaller). Heh heh… Hugs, LynB – Hide quoted text — Show quoted text – LynB, Where ever, in your creative little mind, do you get this stuff? I love it! Dennis (Bermy)
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