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i am mot going to say much. it is safe here but i am afraid.
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i am mot going to say much. it is safe here but i am afraid.
We think it is safe here. We feel *very* safe here. We are sure you can say whatever you choose. We are sorry you are feeling afraid, there is no one here that we know of here to be afraid of. We hope you can soon say whatever it is you choose. Peace. Cedric Hamilton, New Zealand
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Pope C the Anonymous writes: Welll…. I met someone here who I like a whole whole lot and got to know pretty well, <smile and wave and after a long while she trusted me with a phone number, and one day i trusted her enough to call her on the phone, and before i knew what was happening, my little was all the way out and actually talking to a couple of hers on the phone. We were both kind of surprised by that part… So maybe some of this can work just as well in real-life once you know them? – C
Us too!! Us too!! We have phone contact with a few people whom we have come to trust and care for and even are going to take a VACATION in August and visit some of them. Maybe even in June before school to see another dear friend. It scares me but we are SOOOO excited! To maybe meet those who know us so well and whom we know so well, it is scary but a nice scary. BUT it took a loooong time for this to happen, certainly would not recommend hopping on a plane to go see someone you have not known a long time and spoken to on the phone and exchanged letters and pics. But it is a great feeling to know there are parts of the US we could go visit and be welcomed and accepted and we are going, we are going – YAY! Allison Rose and Company (soon to be a travelling company) — For more information about this service, send e-mail to:
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ok…here goes, this is the first time for us too…though we’ve been reading awhile.
Welcome, atene! Just started therapy about, well, who the heck knows anything about time around here…started in july and we’re on all kinds of drugs…anti-depressents and anti-anxiety drugs…they were helpful for sleeping, but that’s about all. I actually made the desicion for all of us that the drugs were bogus, so we’re not on them anymore.
We don’t do the drugs either., there are days when some of us want to.:) But the fact is, it wouldn’t help this system. This system can only have its sight obscured by the addition of chemicals. So we pass. Hell who wants to spend longer in this maze then we have to ?:) A few of us still don’t believe the DID diagnosis…it’s hard…it’s scarey…would love to have a network of others like us…but trust does not
come easy… No. It doesn’t come easy. But you’ve taken a cool first step in posting, well done (took me MONTHS to post, then I sweated blood for days afterwards wondering if I’d done the wrong thing, been seen, been noted, you know the kind of stuff that goes through your head. Relax. it’ll be ok). Also, looking back, I see that finally letting myself be seen as a multiple, did, whatever label you wanna put on it, was a rteal turning point. So I wish you the best atene. I wish you the confidence to trust. and post on. regards from me andmine to you and yours. take care of your selves. CM Inc Coming for the Tiger
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ok…here goes, this is the first time for us too…though we’ve been reading awhile. Just started therapy about, well, who the heck knows anything about time around here…started in july and we’re on all kinds of drugs…anti-depressents and anti-anxiety drugs…they were helpful for sleeping, but that’s about all. I actually made the desicion for all of us that the drugs were bogus, so we’re not on them anymore. A few of us still don’t believe the DID diagnosis…it’s hard…it’s scarey…would love to have a network of others like us…but trust does not come easy…
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i am mot going to say much. it is safe here but i am afraid. See you did it. It is the first of many steps you will make. I have been there. It is so hard. And I am still there. This group for me is SAFE because I don’t see anyone and I don’t have to talk. I can write but I can’t talk. It is very different. P.B.
Such an interesting point! Imagine that you’ve been here for awhile and have gotten to know some people really well, in the computer. How do you think you’d do if you met these people in real? It’s so interesting to me to think about this becuase I don’t really stop to think about how easy it is for me to let the others out and how easy it is for me to make comments here that I would find almost impossible to make in real. I would like to think that if I met someone from here that I knew very well on computer that I’d be able to just be ‘myself’ with them. But, it’s not that easy!! I recently met Mishca and Co. in real and I was surprised at the weird awkward points that came up. Fortunately, not many but still… OTOH, I _do_ recommend meeting people in real Rainbow Colors (Jill, still waiting for hordes of asd peoples to show up in Colorado…) — I choose to post non-anon because my abusers are afraid. They would have to admit something happened in order to confront me; this they will never do. They are the only people who will be upset if they know who I am, and they are too afraid to admit to what they did. Black of Rainbow Colors
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Hi folks, I’m new and hoping I can get some help here. I’m in therapy and my therapist says I’m extremely dissociative. Some days I’m frozen, other days I’m on the move. ADD as well, perhaps. Anyone on meds? What kind and do they help? — Barbara in the Napa Valley
Hi, I’m Rainbow Colors (Jill) 
and I’m multiple and ADD. I started taking Dexedrine for the ADD before I knew I was multiple and it helped _alot_!! Now that I’m working on the memories the Dex. isn’t working as well. My therapist and I think it’s possible that I’m not ‘really’ ADD but that the symptoms are from the post traumatic stress disorder stuff. Now that I’m messing with my coping skills it makes sense that they would change. I found Dex. by going through a six month testing period of various drugs and then talking to my shrink about their effects. I figure as long as the stuff is helping and not getting in the way I will keep taking it. I have no side effects from it so that makes it easier for me to say this! I’ve been on Dex. since 1984 and working on the memories since 1992. Any more questions, ask away! (oh, and welcome to the group) Rainbow Colors (Jill) — I choose to post non-anon because my abusers are afraid. They would have to admit something happened in order to confront me; this they will never do. They are the only people who will be upset if they know who I am, and they are too afraid to admit to what they did. Black of Rainbow Colors
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Hi folks, I’m new and hoping I can get some help here. I’m in therapy and my therapist says I’m extremely dissociative. Some days I’m frozen, other days I’m on the move. ADD as well, perhaps. Anyone on meds? What kind and do they help? — Barbara in the Napa Valley
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Atene worte: ok…here goes, this is the first time for us too…though we’ve been reading awhile. Just started therapy about, well, who the heck knows anything about time around here…started in july and we’re on all kinds of drugs…anti-depressents and anti-anxiety drugs…they were helpful for sleeping, but that’s about all. I actually made the desicion for all of us that the drugs were bogus, so we’re not on them anymore. A few of us still don’t believe the DID diagnosis…it’s hard…it’s scarey…would love to have a network of others like us…but trust does not come easy…
Cedric writes:
Then welcome to asd We hope you find that people here are gentle, kind and helpful, we do We are not taking any meds. There are two schools of thought: one suggests that if you don’t take meds you will feel overwhelmed you emotions and less able to cope, the other: suggests that ‘feeling’ is a *most* important part of all of this. You decision not to take med is you choice, that is the way it should be. We are ancient We are 53 and, we understand, we dissociative since abuses started at 5, or perhaps before. We no longer feel like a freak even if some people do treat us like that, that is their problem, not ours. We more or less switch alters when we are in a safe place these days with little worse than a brief but severe headache. We seem to have got ourselves a little more organised at last so that when we ‘return’ we can read about who we are and where we are, simple but useful data to save the period of uncertainty. We hope you fell both safe and comfortable here. There are some really *great* people here too, come to think of it they *all* are Welcome! Cedric Hamilton, New Zealand
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Thank-you Cedric, for your warm welcome. So far I _have_ found everyone here to be kind and gentle and oh so _very_ understanding. It’s nice to feel "normal".
We agree that here, in Sanctuary we are *treated* and we *feel* normal. All too often in the bigger world those who are our acquaintances when they know, if they know we ar MP they shrug and walk away into the sunset, lost to us. Or, they suggest we need a head doctor to sort us out, or a stay in a mental hospital so that we would never be able to find our lils ever again. We aren’t a problem to them, they are a problem to themselves. We show love and care to those we are safe with. If they, in return, show lack of care by what they say then we hurt yet some more. It’s kinda hard to explain, but the singletons just never seem to … we can’t find a word, but they’re always accusing us of lying to them, or making things up…but this, now _this_ is an exciting new adventure.
More than an adventure even, this is where people who *understand* those who have more alters than days of the month, or with their head filled with lils making lots of very happy sound and chatter. Quite a feeling that alright. Like a doorway to understanding and enjoying ourselves…we don’t have to "fit" into anyones mold here…we can be ourselves, individually or as the gang and best yet, we belong…
That is a very apt description. We see that we open a door to ASD or perhaps Sanctuary and we are amongst friends who understand and really do care. Thank you again Cedric…
You can see how we feel comfortable here, hardly ever a cross word, certainly no flame wars. We are ’safe’ in relatively few places and our lils get their chance to do their thing, not so often here perhaps, although that happens, but certainly on Sanctuary. How can we present to the larger world the harmony of the people here that they discriminate against? What is ‘normal’ and does it matter? Peace to yours from ours Cedric Hamilton, New Zealand
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Thank-you Cedric, for your warm welcome. So far I _have_ found everyone here to be kind and gentle and oh so _very_ understanding. It’s nice to feel "normal". It’s kinda hard to explain, but the singletons just never seem to … we can’t find a word, but they’re always accusing us of lying to them, or making things up…but this, now _this_ is an exciting new adventure. Like a doorway to understanding and enjoying ourselves…we don’t have to "fit" into anyones mold here…we can be ourselves, individually or as the gang and best yet, we belong… Thank you again Cedric… the Gang
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