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- Hide quoted text — Show quoted text – Hi All: I really messed up last night after my family left. There were three phone calls from one of them that were very disturbing and painful bringing up things in the past that I have dealt with and have put to bed. Instead of protecting myself, I let the conversation go to far and did not deal with it. Oh, sorry, PTFD: post traumatic family disorder (my little joke). Anyway, to cope, rather than meditate and allow things to come to the surface and deal with each one of them, which I normally do and it works for me, I turned on the mind sucking tube, watched stupid shows, binge ate, and alco abused. I have not done that in a long time. I had nightmares all night long, acid reflux, spastic colon, and today I am just peachy fine with no problems. Liar, Liar, Liar. Ah yes, one does reap what one does sew. I am in that mode of starting over, letting go, and forgiving self. I had a lot of panic early this am, but the K kicked in and I settled down, did my meditation and am going on. I guess this is kind of a confessional rather than a plea for help. I am not angry or disappointed with myself, just gonna move on. Before I move here, I had some friends that I could call on the "day after." You guys are now my friends that I call on the day after. Confession is good for the soul, notably when shared with trusted friends. Life is kinda funny, it’s not what happens to you, but how we respond. I am still learning this lesson. Thanks for being here, you are my support group, and I appreciate each one of you dearly. Have a binge free day! — David (swirling_eddies) I’m glad you’re feeling better today David. I had a conversation at my Mom’s house yesterday that wasn’t too pleasant, but thank God, it didn’t last very long! Instead of me coming to my own aid and saying, hey, I’m almost 48 years old, I think I know what I want! I just sort of let it go in one ear and out the other, then went outside for a smoke. I’m sure this is not the end of THAT conversation either. Maybe next week I’ll get brave and say, I only have about 4 weeks until I move, how about we enjoy each other’s company while I’m still around. What do you think of that David? Does it sound like I’m acting my age? Wait a minute! This is your post, not mine. Sorry about that. It’s hard to deal with families sometimes. I know how you feel. {{{{{{{David}}}}}}} Love, Di Hope you feeel better david, maybe you could just hangup on them. sorry
you’ve had to deal with this. I binge eat myself. I ate a whole box=12 of those oatmeal cream pies=they were for the kids lunch. I’m beginning to realize my childhood wasnt that bad as compared to some. Hang in there. donny – Hide quoted text — Show quoted text –
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Oh, sorry, PTFD: post traumatic family disorder (my little joke).
ROFLMAO~ I am sorry you had a ‘bad’ night (although a drink doesn’t sound too bad after cleaning that silly garage all day!) but I loved the term. And you are on the right road. Self forgiveness is the HUGS Til Later…. ~~R "What makes us discontented with our condition is the absurdly exaggerated idea we have of the happiness of others" -Proverbs
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Hey David – Been there, done that. I guess it happens from time to time. I like your line, "Ah yes, one does reap what one does sew."….too true. I usually quote the movie fear & loathing in las vegas and say, "buy the ticket. take the ride. no sympathy for the devil." Hope your week goes well. -Z- – Hide quoted text — Show quoted text – Hi All: I really messed up last night after my family left. There were three phone calls from one of them that were very disturbing and painful bringing up things in the past that I have dealt with and have put to bed. Instead of protecting myself, I let the conversation go to far and did not deal with it. Oh, sorry, PTFD: post traumatic family disorder (my little joke). Anyway, to cope, rather than meditate and allow things to come to the surface and deal with each one of them, which I normally do and it works for me, I turned on the mind sucking tube, watched stupid shows, binge ate, and alco abused. I have not done that in a long time. I had nightmares all night long, acid reflux, spastic colon, and today I am just peachy fine with no problems. Liar, Liar, Liar. Ah yes, one does reap what one does sew. I am in that mode of starting over, letting go, and forgiving self. I had a lot of panic early this am, but the K kicked in and I settled down, did my meditation and am going on. I guess this is kind of a confessional rather than a plea for help. I am not angry or disappointed with myself, just gonna move on. Before I move here, I had some friends that I could call on the "day after." You guys are now my friends that I call on the day after. Confession is good for the soul, notably when shared with trusted friends. Life is kinda funny, it’s not what happens to you, but how we respond. I am still learning this lesson. Thanks for being here, you are my support group, and I appreciate each one of you dearly. Have a binge free day! — David (swirling_eddies)
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Dear David, Sometimes, with some people, there is just no way of protecting ourselves. Other than hanging up on them or telling them to f**k off, for some reason we just sit there and take their crap. Why we allow this to happen to us, who knows? But you DID deal with it, maybe not the "best" way, but then who knows which is the "best" way for any given time? Maybe you needed to binge out if only to remind you not to go there again? Progress, not perfection, is my aim in life, so sometimes it’s three steps forward and two steps back, but I’m still going toward the goal, and so are you, my friend. Hope things look brighter as the day goes on. Love, hugs, and God bless, Rita – Hide quoted text — Show quoted text – Hi All: I really messed up last night after my family left. There were three phone calls from one of them that were very disturbing and painful bringing up things in the past that I have dealt with and have put to bed. Instead of protecting myself, I let the conversation go to far and did not deal with it. Oh, sorry, PTFD: post traumatic family disorder (my little joke). Anyway, to cope, rather than meditate and allow things to come to the surface and deal with each one of them, which I normally do and it works for me, I turned on the mind sucking tube, watched stupid shows, binge ate, and alco abused. I have not done that in a long time. I had nightmares all night long, acid reflux, spastic colon, and today I am just peachy fine with no problems. Liar, Liar, Liar. Ah yes, one does reap what one does sew. I am in that mode of starting over, letting go, and forgiving self. I had a lot of panic early this am, but the K kicked in and I settled down, did my meditation and am going on. I guess this is kind of a confessional rather than a plea for help. I am not angry or disappointed with myself, just gonna move on. Before I move here, I had some friends that I could call on the "day after." You guys are now my friends that I call on the day after. Confession is good for the soul, notably when shared with trusted friends. Life is kinda funny, it’s not what happens to you, but how we
respond. I am still learning this lesson. Thanks for being here, you are my support group, and I appreciate each one of you dearly. Have a binge free day! — David (swirling_eddies)
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– Hide quoted text — Show quoted text – Hi All: I really messed up last night after my family left. There were three phone calls from one of them that were very disturbing and painful bringing up things in the past that I have dealt with and have put to bed. Instead of protecting myself, I let the conversation go to far and did not deal with it. Oh, sorry, PTFD: post traumatic family disorder (my little joke). Anyway, to cope, rather than meditate and allow things to come to the surface and deal with each one of them, which I normally do and it works for me, I turned on the mind sucking tube, watched stupid shows, binge ate, and alco abused. I have not done that in a long time. I had nightmares all night long, acid reflux, spastic colon, and today I am just peachy fine with no problems. Liar, Liar, Liar. Ah yes, one does reap what one does sew. I am in that mode of starting over, letting go, and forgiving self. I had a lot of panic early this am, but the K kicked in and I settled down, did my meditation and am going on. I guess this is kind of a confessional rather than a plea for help. I am not angry or disappointed with myself, just gonna move on. Before I move here, I had some friends that I could call on the "day after." You guys are now my friends that I call on the day after. Confession is good for the soul, notably when shared with trusted friends. Life is kinda funny, it’s not what happens to you, but how we respond. I am still learning this lesson. Thanks for being here, you are my support group, and I appreciate each one of you dearly. Have a binge free day! — David (swirling_eddies)
I’m glad you’re feeling better today David. I had a conversation at my Mom’s house yesterday that wasn’t too pleasant, but thank God, it didn’t last very long! Instead of me coming to my own aid and saying, hey, I’m almost 48 years old, I think I know what I want! I just sort of let it go in one ear and out the other, then went outside for a smoke. I’m sure this is not the end of THAT conversation either. Maybe next week I’ll get brave and say, I only have about 4 weeks until I move, how about we enjoy each other’s company while I’m still around. What do you think of that David? Does it sound like I’m acting my age? Wait a minute! This is your post, not mine. Sorry about that. It’s hard to deal with families sometimes. I know how you feel. {{{{{{{David}}}}}}} Love, Di
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| Dear Eddie, | | So you are not perfect, you are what we call "human". We have all done things | that we know are not good for us. What is good about making a mistake is there | will always be another opportunity to do it the better way. Take care 
| {{{{{Eddie}}}}} | | Jackie | ~*~But we must feel the pain before the pleasure, only then will we know the Jackie: Far from perfect, much human. BTW, "But we must feel the pain before the pleasure," we call that foreplay. . . . David
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- Hide quoted text — Show quoted text – Hi All: I really messed up last night after my family left. There were three phone calls from one of them that were very disturbing and painful bringing up things in the past that I have dealt with and have put to bed. Instead of protecting myself, I let the conversation go to far and did not deal with it. Oh, sorry, PTFD: post traumatic family disorder (my little joke). Anyway, to cope, rather than meditate and allow things to come to the surface and deal with each one of them, which I normally do and it works for me, I turned on the mind sucking tube, watched stupid shows, binge ate, and alco abused. I have not done that in a long time. I had nightmares all night long, acid reflux, spastic colon, and today I am just peachy fine with no problems. Liar, Liar, Liar. Ah yes, one does reap what one does sew. I am in that mode of starting over, letting go, and forgiving self. I had a lot of panic early this am, but the K kicked in and I settled down, did my meditation and am going on. I guess this is kind of a confessional rather than a plea for help. I am not angry or disappointed with myself, just gonna move on. Before I move here, I had some friends that I could call on the "day after." You guys are now my friends that I call on the day after. Confession is good for the soul, notably when shared with trusted friends. Life is kinda funny, it’s not what happens to you, but how we respond. I am still learning this lesson. Thanks for being here, you are my support group, and I appreciate each one of you dearly. Have a binge free day! — David (swirling_eddies)
Dear Eddie, So you are not perfect, you are what we call "human". We have all done things that we know are not good for us. What is good about making a mistake is there will always be another opportunity to do it the better way. Take care {{{{{Eddie}}}}} Jackie ~*~But we must feel the pain before the pleasure, only then will we know the
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Hi All: I really messed up last night after my family left. There were three phone calls from one of them that were very disturbing and painful bringing up things in the past that I have dealt with and have put to bed. Instead of protecting myself, I let the conversation go to far and did not deal with it. Oh, sorry, PTFD: post traumatic family disorder (my little joke). Anyway, to cope, rather than meditate and allow things to come to the surface and deal with each one of them, which I normally do and it works for me, I turned on the mind sucking tube, watched stupid shows, binge ate, and alco abused. I have not done that in a long time. I had nightmares all night long, acid reflux, spastic colon, and today I am just peachy fine with no problems. Liar, Liar, Liar. Ah yes, one does reap what one does sew. I am in that mode of starting over, letting go, and forgiving self. I had a lot of panic early this am, but the K kicked in and I settled down, did my meditation and am going on. I guess this is kind of a confessional rather than a plea for help. I am not angry or disappointed with myself, just gonna move on. Before I move here, I had some friends that I could call on the "day after." You guys are now my friends that I call on the day after. Confession is good for the soul, notably when shared with trusted friends. Life is kinda funny, it’s not what happens to you, but how we respond. I am still learning this lesson. Thanks for being here, you are my support group, and I appreciate each one of you dearly. Have a binge free day! — David (swirling_eddies)
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