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x-no-archive: yes i’ve lurked, posted a bit… on 20 mg paxil for 20 days.. crashed last thurs… zoloft effexor and prozac didn’t work beyond 9 or 10 weeks now this sleeping too much crying too much work going down the drain if this is karma i must have been horrible last time around susanne-in-search-of-arsenic
Hmmm…arsenic’s no bloody use, you know. It’s *much* too slow. Anyway, suicide isn’t an option. I’m sorry to sound cruel and harsh but it is an act of violence, not just to oneself but to those left behind. *Please* don’t do anything to harm yourself. Call the Samaritans, a trusted friend or relative, a support or religious group of some kind – do *anything* but harm yourself. If you can get through the hour or so when the thought screams at you, the chances are you’ll be starting on the way back to safety. As for what you do now, you call your doctor and *tell* her/him what is happening to you. Were you this depressed before you started the medication? If you weren’t and you feel as bad as you sound, then stop taking it. I *know* it’s against all sane rules for one of us laypersons to contradict a doctor’s advice, but anyone who mentions suicide changes the rules. All the rules. If the med. has made you feel that bad, stop using it immediately and ask your doctor for something else as a matter of great urgency. And there are many "something elses" out there, Susanne, more different medications than you can shake a stick at and not all of them will make you feel so bad. Most of them won’t in fact, because you’ve just been damnded unlucky. *Please* whatever you do, however rotten you feel, try to hang onto the central notion that there are people here on ASAP who *do* understand because we’ve been there, who *do* care about you and who *will* help. If you need to ask for advice, just ask, if you want support, just ask, if you want to rant – just do it. Above all, do not let this thing drive you to despair. You *can* and you *will* get better – it’s just a matter of finding the right help, and between us I bet you the people of ASAP and your doctor/therapist can do that. Please let us know how you get on, won’t you? — Gary Cooper
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Hi Susanne, For some reason, it looks like you’ve been on nothing but SSRIs (Selective Serotonin Reuptake Inhibitors). I’ve had a terrible time with Prozac and Paxil, before I was started on Klonopin. Klonopin did wonders for me. During the several years that I had been on it, I gradually recovered to the point where I’m now functioning as a completely normal individual (with the help of the medication, of course). If SSRIs aren’t working for you, then perhaps you should consider benzodiazepines, such as Xanax or Klonopin. There is a good chance that they might provide the answer. Believe me, I was having "out-of-body" experiences, and slowing down of my thinking process when I was on Paxil. It was terrible. I’m sure it works for many people here, but it sure didn’t work for me. And when my shrink doubled the dosage of my Prozac from 20 mg to 40 mg, I had the biggest panic attack of my life that same day. So give benzodiazepines a try, after consulting your doctor. Best wishes, Andre
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Dear Susanne, Welcome. I felt much the same when I took paxil at 5mg/day. I missed appointments at work, kindof stuttered around, felt VERY stupid! Please talk to your Dr. about this. Maybe you can’t tolerate paxil (I couldn’t, I was really lucky to have a Psych. who said, these side effects are unacceptable and put me on Serzone. It’s kindof working, but I keep having to up the doses, I see my Dr. next week about it). I think you really have to hang on to the idea that this is the drugs making you feel this way, it definitely is NOT karma! Please hang, check with the Dr., post here whenever you need support. That’s what we’re here for. Gretchen
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hi elliott… i haven’t been up to reading anything for some time.. didn’t see other posts but thanks for yours i had one good day this week wanted to believe so much that it would last… no such luck i know it’s a cycle but when i hit bottom i forget every good moment and every good friend i’ve ever had suicidal moments come and go…. i’m not energetic enough to actually try anything.. takes planning and i can’t be bothered i guess that’s just as well thanks again.. it’s good to read stuff on asap hugs susanne
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** Susanne, I’ve read all of the previous posts and they are all on target, so I won’t try to add to them. BUT, I’d like to share "my" story with you. Several years into having panic attacks, and several doctors later (still not yet diagnosed with panic disorder) I was asked to fill out a simple questionnaire prior to seeing the psychiatrist. On that "pop quiz" was the question "have you felt suicidal?" I had to stop and think about that. Do they mean now? Do they mean ever? Here’s the scoop. I thought for sometime, at the beginning, that I was going crazy, was alone in my thoughts, and I *did* have suicidal thoughts. But at the time that I was filling out this questionnaire, that was the furthest thing from my mind. So I answered no, because it was no longer an issue (but had been). The moral of the story? This was a temporary situation and thought process that "had" been pondered. BUT IT PASSED. GONE. DONE. I once said to myself "I hope that there will be a day when I can go outside again and say ;"boy, it’s a beautiful day";." At the time, I didn’t think that day would come. BUT, it did, and I can remember it as if it were yesterday. What a glorious feeling it was! Just seeing the sun shine, and "feel" good about it was as if I had climed the highest mountain. I had my life back! Do I have Panic Disorder? Yes. Can I deal with it? Yes. Do I feel hope that I’ll be able to do everything that I once did? Yes. It’s a beautiful day, isn’t it? That will be your story too, and you’ll stick to it……EJK — Used wisely, your 2
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