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(snips) So it seems like it’s all connected with throwing up. ** Well, others have that same feeling (I don’t) but I doubt that it’s ALL connected to throwing up, from what else you have to say. (snip) My moms anxiety is not throwing up, I think her’s is the fear of going
crazy, as you said. And I think that is *sort of* like what I have. (snip) ** Well, if you *sort of* have the feeling of going crazy, it sounds more generalized, than just the fear of throwing up. Initially, when I started having panic attacks, I certainly felt like I was going crazy, and was alone in it. My mom and I went for a carwash, and I got nervous, and as soon as we
enterd, I felt like I just had to get out, I literaly streched my legs out, thinking I could just push it away. But I was able to calm myself down by distracting myself. ** One of the methods, to be sure, of keeping the panic at bay. Proper abdominal breathing, distracting your thoughts….and on and on….are some of the tricks that can help in these situations. But this seems to point more to panic disorder rather than just the fear of throwing up. You say you felt nervous, which can be the first signal of a panic attack, but you handled it very well. (snips) but sometimes it upsets me alot, I think that I will never be able to
get a wife, or have kids. And all of that thinking is usualy trigered becauae I cant go in a mall anymore. ** I’m sure it’s upsetting, as we all feel, I’d suspect. I know that I’ve been on a roller coaster ride over the years. I’ve been homebound, then out and about in the malls and travelling, and then "never again" homebound, but limited. With all of that, I still got married (with PD), so gain from your therapy, gain from help others offer, and "especially" gain from the ability to externalize (distract yourself) and I think that with practice and time, you’ll be out and about as best as you can. There’s no law that says you have to do "everything" in order to have a life. Marriage and kids can be a reality, just don’t dwell on it. Those things tend to "happen" best when you’re not thinking or seeking it, IMO. But just quickly, back to this eating thing, it gets really embarrasing in a restaurant when I dont eat, I just get a *full* feeling in me, and I guess if I eat, ill trow up, but I have never had that happen, I just think it, cause I feel it! Thanks…..
** My fear was that I’d die, while having a panic attack, at it was certainly a real feeling (although irrational) but you couldn’t convice me of that at the time. I guess that even tho you’ve never thrown up, your fear is just as great that you will. Well, with meds, my PA’s are under control to the point where I no longer feal I’ll die, and so you may find the same. I guess the point is to give meds and therapy, and your own will and "tricks" some time to work for you. I think you’ll find that "things will change" as will your outlook and attitude. — Used wisely, your 2
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