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I would like to start by thanking all of those people that have taken the time to listen to my problems and write back. Before anyone freaks out and thinks that I am becoming a mental case or anything, I just had an amazing and incitefull email sent to me in the time between my first post to this group and this post. A man saw my post on a newsgroup and noticed that some of the symptoms that I was showing matched that of his son and decided to send me the URL of this site: http://www.fairlite.com/ocd/board/ Here is an excerpt of a post that was sent to this BBS: Hello, Jean. I too suffer from similar symtons as you. I have been for a little over 5 years now. However, I was’nt diagnosed until recently. I kept it hid for all that time. I thought I was just nuts but found out that it was OCD. I am currently on 200mg of Zoloft a day and once I got on medication I found myself somewhat feeling better. However, a "bad thought" would cross my mind and It would’nt make me feel the way it used to. I was just accepting it so to speak. Well, THAT FREAKED ME OUT!! I was bothered by the thoughts not bothering me as much. My Dr. told me it was the medication at work but still it scares me sometimes. Once recently, I tried to get myself in a Panic attack just to prove to myself the thoughts were still freaking me out. This was before I talked to my Therapist about it. Anyway, I just wanted to let you knowo that you are not alone. There are several people on this board who suffer from the same type of OCD as we do. Hang in there and Take Care. Johnny, I’m glad you found this board my friend. I tell you, once I found this board I started feeling a little better. It was just helpful to know that I was’nt in this alone. I’m sure there are other people on this board who suffer from the same type of OCD as you. This board is great to read because it makes you feel like "hey, a lot of people have this, it isn’t so abnormal." I was on Luvox for 1 month. It started to work a little and then I found out my insurance would’nt cover it so I moved to Zoloft. It has’nt helped to much but let’s remember…it can take 3 or so months to take full effect so give it chance. I’m two months into the Zoloft and have’nt noticed to much help but I’m still hoping. Anyway, hang in there and I know you’ll get your OCD under control. Good luck and write back. Peace, Greg I was so amazed by the closeness of these sypmtom sand that of mine that had to call my girlfriend and tell that I had found the reason for my unusal thoughts. I forwarded the page and she told me straight away that what I had been and still am affected by was OCD and also anxiety related depression. Previously I was getting so dperessed that I didnt know what I was aobout to do, all I wanted to do was go to sleep and not wake up tommorow morinign untill I reciened this post. Yes I am going to see a psychiatrist in about 2 weeks time, and now I know exactly what my prognosis is goign to me and how I think htat I am goin gto deal with it. Its almost imposible to describe to you how happy I feel at the moment, I fully thought that I was losing the plot there for a second. But now I know that it is going to be ok, I sincerly hope that every one of you on theis list has such amazong lucjk as I have tonight! Thanks for beeing there for me, and if you are all wondering what is going to happen next, I’m going into therepy tommorow to deal with my problems now that I have a clear understanding of what they very well might be. And dont worry I am going to stick around and give you all constant input into my own progress and ofcourse others. Love and inner peace, –Joel —————————– Regarding this post —————————– Hi everyone. A while back I got into the wrong group of friends and here I was around some pretty awful people that commited a lot of crimes. These people ended up kidnapping me and almost killing me for a simple misunderstanding on their part. I had originally had a panic disorder before hand which had managed to make me an agoraphobic and keep me in my little safe zone for just over a year! This unfortunate occurence sent me shooting backwards in a big way, I managed to stop myself from becoming agoraphobic again but became acutly afraid of everybody and thought that everyone was out to harm or use me in some way. At some point along the line I managed to realized that this was all my own fault and that I had let these people corrupt me and I paid the price for making an wrong decision. From that point onwards I became so emphatic about not making the wrong decision again that I almost drove myself crazy, I couldnt forgive myself for the mistakes that I had made and felt very depressed and worried that I might turn into, or I was pre-disposed to be a criminal like those people I once associated with.. I became wrapped up so tightly into my study and anything that could posibly stop me thinking about what had happend and my mistakes, I started achieving great results at college, but at a price – I almost lost all of my friends and family in the process. All of a sudden seemingly out of no-where I started having very violent thoughts towards other people. I didnt know why this was occuring and it scare the crap out of me, I was having panic attacks left right and center and starting to think I am becoming schitzophrenic and a risk to society! I dont think I am capable of acting on these thoughts but right now they are taking up all of my thoughts for the whole day. I am losing sleep over this and dont know what to do. I dont think I am a bad person capable of hurting other but I feel that I just cant trust myself. I fear so much of losing control! I dont know if I am schitz, bi-polar or just plain paranoid again! COULD SOMEBODY PLEASE OFFER ME SOME ADVICE! Ive done all the reI dont know how much longer I can keep going on like this, I’m planning to see a psychiatrist but it is taking too long and this is eating me up.. Can anyone tell me what they think my problem is and if it is serious or not and I am worrying over nothing. I have no support network and you people are all I have.. Thanks for listening — Joel (please mail me back at j…@NOSPAMsouthwest.com.au) btw: take out the NOSPAM
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Joel, If you are refering to me, just so you know, I am a woman. :) >A man saw my post on a >newsgroup and noticed that some of the symptoms that I was showing matched >that of his son
Noelle :0)
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