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very well written you never say that to me 
))) Miss A.
Hm…this sentence was really *very* well written, Anna. IMO of course ) P.
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very well written you never say that to me ))) Miss A. Hm…this sentence was really *very* well written, Anna. IMO of course ) P.
Oh I thank you sooooooooooo much hihi Miss A.
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Now, now, Miss Anna…. We all love your writing, you know that…:-)…and BTW, huge congratulations to you for your recent adventure….it is inspirational. Kiss, Pete – Hide quoted text — Show quoted text – very well written you never say that to me ))) Miss A.
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Now, now, Miss Anna…. We all love your writing, you know that…:-)…and BTW, huge congratulations to you for your recent adventure….it is inspirational. Kiss, Pete
Thank you dear 
<Anna fishing for compliments hee hee Kiss anna – Hide quoted text — Show quoted text – very well written you never say that to me ))) Miss A.
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Your description of anxiety is more the norm, than the exception. The good news is that if your psych. Dr. knows his stuff, you should be in pretty good shape, soon. You are fortunate that you are getting a handle on things before they screw your whole life up. I gather that things are normal except for the anxiety, so you should be in pretty good shape. You may never be the "Bon Vivant" or "life of the party" but should get along with a minimum of discomfort. Some of what you mention suggests some mild depression, which can be addressed too. Lots of luck! Boyd — "The cure for boredom is curiosity. There is no cure for curiosity." (Ellen Parr- author)
– Hide quoted text — Show quoted text – I’m 34 years old. My entire life I’ve been what I always called "shy." I’ve just never been good dealing with people I don’t know. Whenever I’m put into that situation I experience what I can only describe as adrenaline rush symptoms, that’s really the best I can do at describing it. Situations that cause this usually involve me needing to go somewhere I’ve never been, like a doctors office or something. Or calling technical support (I work with computers). Of course, any kind of confrontation, like with family, g/f, etc. The thing is this level of anxiety has never really interferred with me living my dialy life. I’ve always tended to procrastinate on things, trying to put off the anxiety, but for the most part I’ve lived a fairly successful life. Things started going downhill, though, very recently. I wrote to this group ("Need some advice" on 8/15/01) about my trip to Singapore and waking up in the middle of the night in a cold sweat, terrified about what I was going to be doing the next day. I survived Singapore, with the help of some Xanax that my doctor had given me when I broke up with my g/f a few months ago. My first week back was OK, I really didn’t feel any different than normal (normal for me, anyway), but this week has been a nightmare. I’ve had this constant feeling of anxiety. I really haven’t been able to work, even though I went Tuesday and Wednesday. I called in sick today because I just couldn’t face it. And I’m trembling, like I was cold, constantly. I’ve been sleeping OK, but when I wake up in the morning the last thing I want to do is go out there and face the world. And since I feel so crappy I really feel like bawling my eyes out from time to time. I have an appointment on Tuesday with a psychologist. I saw him once before I went to Singapore, for general depression from my breakup and a general lifelong lack of motivation and desire to get out there and live life (maybe from anxiety I really didn’t even know I was experiencing?). And I’m definately going to be talking to him about this. My reason for writing this small novel is really just to vent, ask if it is unusual or not for someone to feel relatively OK one week and turn into a basket case the next, and to get the usual ration of hugs and good wishes. Thanks, David Chamberlain
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very well written
you never say that to me ))) Miss A.
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Thanks LM, Im learning….:-) Pete
– Hide quoted text — Show quoted text – Hi David, The emotional "See-sawing" you describe is just part of the territory….not nice to be riding the emotional roller-coaster, but it is definately common and "normal" for anxiety sufferers. It is very important to remind yourself that you are feeling anxiety symptoms and the various emotions that accompany them – you are NOT becoming a "basket case"….I can’t stress this enough ( no pun intended )….your body is reacting to stress, and is doing the things it would do if your life was in danger – it "feels" different emotionally because of course there is no threat that you can see, nothing / no-one physically attacking you – if there were, you would fight or run away, and you wouldn’t be thinking about how your body is feeling. With no observable threat around you, you focus upon your bodily sensations, and this winds up the anxiety another notch or two..it’s a cycle…and for this reason I advise that you remind yourself that it’s anxiety and nothing more….anxiety itself won’t kill you, it will just make you feel really shitty. Hope all goes well with your appt…let us know how you’re getting on. I wish you the best. Pete I’m 34 years old. My entire life I’ve been what I always called "shy." I’ve just never been good dealing with people I don’t know. Whenever I’m put into that situation I experience what I can only describe as adrenaline rush symptoms, that’s really the best I can do at describing it. Situations that cause this usually involve me needing to go somewhere I’ve never been, like a doctors office or something. Or calling technical support (I work with computers). Of course, any kind of confrontation, like with family, g/f, etc. The thing is this level of anxiety has never really interferred with me living my dialy life. I’ve always tended to procrastinate on things, trying to put off the anxiety, but for the most part I’ve lived a fairly successful life. Things started going downhill, though, very recently. I wrote to this group ("Need some advice" on 8/15/01) about my trip to Singapore and waking up in the middle of the night in a cold sweat, terrified about what I was going to be doing the next day. I survived Singapore, with the help of some Xanax that my doctor had given me when I broke up with my g/f a few months ago. My first week back was OK, I really didn’t feel any different than normal (normal for me, anyway), but this week has been a nightmare. I’ve had this constant feeling of anxiety. I really haven’t been able to work, even though I went Tuesday and Wednesday. I called in sick today because I just couldn’t face it. And I’m trembling, like I was cold, constantly. I’ve been sleeping OK, but when I wake up in the morning the last thing I want to do is go out there and face the world. And since I feel so crappy I really feel like bawling my eyes out from time to time. I have an appointment on Tuesday with a psychologist. I saw him once before I went to Singapore, for general depression from my breakup and a general lifelong lack of motivation and desire to get out there and live life (maybe from anxiety I really didn’t even know I was experiencing?). And I’m definately going to be talking to him about this. My reason for writing this small novel is really just to vent, ask if i t is unusual or not for someone to feel relatively OK one week and turn into a basket case the next, and to get the usual ration of hugs and good wishes. Thanks, David Chamberlain very well written
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- Hide quoted text — Show quoted text – Hi David, The emotional "See-sawing" you describe is just part of the territory….not nice to be riding the emotional roller-coaster, but it is definately common and "normal" for anxiety sufferers. It is very important to remind yourself that you are feeling anxiety symptoms and the various emotions that accompany them – you are NOT becoming a "basket case"….I can’t stress this enough ( no pun intended )….your body is reacting to stress, and is doing the things it would do if your life was in danger – it "feels" different emotionally because of course there is no threat that you can see, nothing / no-one physically attacking you – if there were, you would fight or run away, and you wouldn’t be thinking about how your body is feeling. With no observable threat around you, you focus upon your bodily sensations, and this winds up the anxiety another notch or two..it’s a cycle…and for this reason I advise that you remind yourself that it’s anxiety and nothing more….anxiety itself won’t kill you, it will just make you feel really shitty. Hope all goes well with your appt…let us know how you’re getting on. I wish you the best. Pete I’m 34 years old. My entire life I’ve been what I always called "shy." I’ve just never been good dealing with people I don’t know. Whenever I’m put into that situation I experience what I can only describe as adrenaline rush symptoms, that’s really the best I can do at describing it. Situations that cause this usually involve me needing to go somewhere I’ve never been, like a doctors office or something. Or calling technical support (I work with computers). Of course, any kind of confrontation, like with family, g/f, etc. The thing is this level of anxiety has never really interferred with me living my dialy life. I’ve always tended to procrastinate on things, trying to put off the anxiety, but for the most part I’ve lived a fairly successful life. Things started going downhill, though, very recently. I wrote to this group ("Need some advice" on 8/15/01) about my trip to Singapore and waking up in the middle of the night in a cold sweat, terrified about what I was going to be doing the next day. I survived Singapore, with the help of some Xanax that my doctor had given me when I broke up with my g/f a few months ago. My first week back was OK, I really didn’t feel any different than normal (normal for me, anyway), but this week has been a nightmare. I’ve had this constant feeling of anxiety. I really haven’t been able to work, even though I went Tuesday and Wednesday. I called in sick today because I just couldn’t face it. And I’m trembling, like I was cold, constantly. I’ve been sleeping OK, but when I wake up in the morning the last thing I want to do is go out there and face the world. And since I feel so crappy I really feel like bawling my eyes out from time to time. I have an appointment on Tuesday with a psychologist. I saw him once before I went to Singapore, for general depression from my breakup and a general lifelong lack of motivation and desire to get out there and live life (maybe from anxiety I really didn’t even know I was experiencing?). And I’m definately going to be talking to him about this. My reason for writing this small novel is really just to vent, ask if it is unusual or not for someone to feel relatively OK one week and turn into a basket case the next, and to get the usual ration of hugs and good wishes. Thanks, David Chamberlain
very well written
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Hi David, Make sure you tell your pdoc just exactly what you have vented to us here, and hopefully he will help you figure this all out. I have been fine for years at a time, then had some medical thing happen, and the panic returns full force. Last summer, I really lost it, after a long time of being perfectly fine. Panic is not very predictable sometimes. Take good care of yourself, David. Liz – Hide quoted text — Show quoted text – I’m 34 years old. My entire life I’ve been what I always called "shy." I’ve just never been good dealing with people I don’t know. Whenever I’m put into that situation I experience what I can only describe as adrenaline rush symptoms, that’s really the best I can do at describing it. Situations that cause this usually involve me needing to go somewhere I’ve never been, like a doctors office or something. Or calling technical support (I work with computers). Of course, any kind of confrontation, like with family, g/f, etc. The thing is this level of anxiety has never really interferred with me living my dialy life. I’ve always tended to procrastinate on things, trying to put off the anxiety, but for the most part I’ve lived a fairly successful life. Things started going downhill, though, very recently. I wrote to this group ("Need some advice" on 8/15/01) about my trip to Singapore and waking up in the middle of the night in a cold sweat, terrified about what I was going to be doing the next day. I survived Singapore, with the help of some Xanax that my doctor had given me when I broke up with my g/f a few months ago. My first week back was OK, I really didn’t feel any different than normal (normal for me, anyway), but this week has been a nightmare. I’ve had this constant feeling of anxiety. I really haven’t been able to work, even though I went Tuesday and Wednesday. I called in sick today because I just couldn’t face it. And I’m trembling, like I was cold, constantly. I’ve been sleeping OK, but when I wake up in the morning the last thing I want to do is go out there and face the world. And since I feel so crappy I really feel like bawling my eyes out from time to time. I have an appointment on Tuesday with a psychologist. I saw him once before I went to Singapore, for general depression from my breakup and a general lifelong lack of motivation and desire to get out there and live life (maybe from anxiety I really didn’t even know I was experiencing?). And I’m definately going to be talking to him about this. My reason for writing this small novel is really just to vent, ask if it is unusual or not for someone to feel relatively OK one week and turn into a basket case the next, and to get the usual ration of hugs and good wishes. Thanks, David Chamberlain
– There are only two ways to live your life. One is as though nothing is a miracle. The other is as though everything is a miracle. —Albert Einstein
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David, Your description of growing up shy with "adrenalin" rushes in social situations mirrors my life. Being anxious never affected my livelihood until I first started having MAJOR panic attacks around the age of 24. I would have a couple of these attacks each year and learn to avoid situations in which they occurred as a remedy for the problem. When I was about 30 I had my first big attack as a passenger in a car on a highway and I become very worried that this could happen to me while I was doing the driving. Not long after, I had my first panic attack while driving on the highway to work. I couldn’t avoid driving to work so I toughed it out for a few months while having panic attacks every day going both back and forth to work. I faced the problem head on but did not have the skills or medications to resolve the problem. I finally told my family doctor that I need to see a psychiatrist because I believe I have Panic Disorder. My psychiatrist prescribed Zoloft and Clonazepam (generic for of Klonopin) and I’ve been able to "manage" this condition for 5+ years now. I think you’re doing the right thing by seeking professional help from a psychiatrist. This disorder can be managed with the right attitude, meds, and behavioral skills. Tony — Life is what happens to you while you’re busy making other plans.
| I’m 34 years old. My entire life I’ve been what I always called "shy." | I’ve just never been good dealing with people I don’t know. Whenever | I’m put into that situation I experience what I can only describe as | adrenaline rush symptoms, that’s really the best I can do at describing | it. Situations that cause this usually involve me needing to go | somewhere I’ve never been, like a doctors office or something. Or | calling technical support (I work with computers). Of course, any kind | of confrontation, like with family, g/f, etc. | | The thing is this level of anxiety has never really interferred with me | living my dialy life. I’ve always tended to procrastinate on things, | trying to put off the anxiety, but for the most part I’ve lived a fairly | successful life. | | Things started going downhill, though, very recently. I wrote to this | group ("Need some advice" on 8/15/01) about my trip to Singapore and | waking up in the middle of the night in a cold sweat, terrified about | what I was going to be doing the next day. I survived Singapore, with | the help of some Xanax that my doctor had given me when I broke up with | my g/f a few months ago. | | My first week back was OK, I really didn’t feel any different than | normal (normal for me, anyway), but this week has been a nightmare. | I’ve had this constant feeling of anxiety. I really haven’t been able | to work, even though I went Tuesday and Wednesday. I called in sick | today because I just couldn’t face it. And I’m trembling, like I was | cold, constantly. I’ve been sleeping OK, but when I wake up in the | morning the last thing I want to do is go out there and face the world. | And since I feel so crappy I really feel like bawling my eyes out from | time to time. | | I have an appointment on Tuesday with a psychologist. I saw him once | before I went to Singapore, for general depression from my breakup and a | general lifelong lack of motivation and desire to get out there and live | life (maybe from anxiety I really didn’t even know I was | experiencing?). And I’m definately going to be talking to him about | this. | | My reason for writing this small novel is really just to vent, ask if it | is unusual or not for someone to feel relatively OK one week and turn | into a basket case the next, and to get the usual ration of hugs and | good wishes. | | Thanks, | David Chamberlain |
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Hi, David, Welcome to ASAP! So glad you are going to see a psychologist soon. Dealing with the anxiety is good. You know you have suffered with it for a long time now do yourself a favor and deal with before it consumes you. I only wish someone had known what I was experiencing over 18 years ago before it got so bad. Please work with the psychologist and nip it more or less in the bud. Please keep us posted. I wish you much success… smiles, Elise
– Hide quoted text — Show quoted text – I’m 34 years old. My entire life I’ve been what I always called "shy." I’ve just never been good dealing with people I don’t know. Whenever I’m put into that situation I experience what I can only describe as adrenaline rush symptoms, that’s really the best I can do at describing it. Situations that cause this usually involve me needing to go somewhere I’ve never been, like a doctors office or something. Or calling technical support (I work with computers). Of course, any kind of confrontation, like with family, g/f, etc. The thing is this level of anxiety has never really interferred with me living my dialy life. I’ve always tended to procrastinate on things, trying to put off the anxiety, but for the most part I’ve lived a fairly successful life. Things started going downhill, though, very recently. I wrote to this group ("Need some advice" on 8/15/01) about my trip to Singapore and waking up in the middle of the night in a cold sweat, terrified about what I was going to be doing the next day. I survived Singapore, with the help of some Xanax that my doctor had given me when I broke up with my g/f a few months ago. My first week back was OK, I really didn’t feel any different than normal (normal for me, anyway), but this week has been a nightmare. I’ve had this constant feeling of anxiety. I really haven’t been able to work, even though I went Tuesday and Wednesday. I called in sick today because I just couldn’t face it. And I’m trembling, like I was cold, constantly. I’ve been sleeping OK, but when I wake up in the morning the last thing I want to do is go out there and face the world. And since I feel so crappy I really feel like bawling my eyes out from time to time. I have an appointment on Tuesday with a psychologist. I saw him once before I went to Singapore, for general depression from my breakup and a general lifelong lack of motivation and desire to get out there and live life (maybe from anxiety I really didn’t even know I was experiencing?). And I’m definately going to be talking to him about this. My reason for writing this small novel is really just to vent, ask if it is unusual or not for someone to feel relatively OK one week and turn into a basket case the next, and to get the usual ration of hugs and good wishes. Thanks, David Chamberlain
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Hi David, I would say the ups and downs are part of the whole disorder. I was not diagnosed with anxiety until last year, when I was 38. My life long thing had been depression, but now I can see where anxiety played a huge part but was never really the focus of all my therapy. I think it is good that you have an appointment with a psychologist. maybe you can get an apt. with a psychiatrist and see if meds might be part of your solution. Good luck. {{{{David}}}} – Hide quoted text — Show quoted text -I’m 34 years old. My entire life I’ve been what I always called "shy." I’ve just never been good dealing with people I don’t know. Whenever I’m put into that situation I experience what I can only describe as adrenaline rush symptoms, that’s really the best I can do at describing it. Situations that cause this usually involve me needing to go somewhere I’ve never been, like a doctors office or something. Or calling technical support (I work with computers). Of course, any kind of confrontation, like with family, g/f, etc. The thing is this level of anxiety has never really interferred with me living my dialy life. I’ve always tended to procrastinate on things, trying to put off the anxiety, but for the most part I’ve lived a fairly successful life. Things started going downhill, though, very recently. I wrote to this group ("Need some advice" on 8/15/01) about my trip to Singapore and waking up in the middle of the night in a cold sweat, terrified about what I was going to be doing the next day. I survived Singapore, with the help of some Xanax that my doctor had given me when I broke up with my g/f a few months ago. My first week back was OK, I really didn’t feel any different than normal (normal for me, anyway), but this week has been a nightmare. I’ve had this constant feeling of anxiety. I really haven’t been able to work, even though I went Tuesday and Wednesday. I called in sick today because I just couldn’t face it. And I’m trembling, like I was cold, constantly. I’ve been sleeping OK, but when I wake up in the morning the last thing I want to do is go out there and face the world. And since I feel so crappy I really feel like bawling my eyes out from time to time. I have an appointment on Tuesday with a psychologist. I saw him once before I went to Singapore, for general depression from my breakup and a general lifelong lack of motivation and desire to get out there and live life (maybe from anxiety I really didn’t even know I was experiencing?). And I’m definately going to be talking to him about this. My reason for writing this small novel is really just to vent, ask if it is unusual or not for someone to feel relatively OK one week and turn into a basket case the next, and to get the usual ration of hugs and good wishes. Thanks, David Chamberlain
Jeannie I want to live before I die.
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Hi David, The emotional "See-sawing" you describe is just part of the territory….not nice to be riding the emotional roller-coaster, but it is definately common and "normal" for anxiety sufferers. It is very important to remind yourself that you are feeling anxiety symptoms and the various emotions that accompany them – you are NOT becoming a "basket case"….I can’t stress this enough ( no pun intended )….your body is reacting to stress, and is doing the things it would do if your life was in danger – it "feels" different emotionally because of course there is no threat that you can see, nothing / no-one physically attacking you – if there were, you would fight or run away, and you wouldn’t be thinking about how your body is feeling. With no observable threat around you, you focus upon your bodily sensations, and this winds up the anxiety another notch or two..it’s a cycle…and for this reason I advise that you remind yourself that it’s anxiety and nothing more….anxiety itself won’t kill you, it will just make you feel really shitty. Hope all goes well with your appt…let us know how you’re getting on. I wish you the best. Pete
– Hide quoted text — Show quoted text – I’m 34 years old. My entire life I’ve been what I always called "shy." I’ve just never been good dealing with people I don’t know. Whenever I’m put into that situation I experience what I can only describe as adrenaline rush symptoms, that’s really the best I can do at describing it. Situations that cause this usually involve me needing to go somewhere I’ve never been, like a doctors office or something. Or calling technical support (I work with computers). Of course, any kind of confrontation, like with family, g/f, etc. The thing is this level of anxiety has never really interferred with me living my dialy life. I’ve always tended to procrastinate on things, trying to put off the anxiety, but for the most part I’ve lived a fairly successful life. Things started going downhill, though, very recently. I wrote to this group ("Need some advice" on 8/15/01) about my trip to Singapore and waking up in the middle of the night in a cold sweat, terrified about what I was going to be doing the next day. I survived Singapore, with the help of some Xanax that my doctor had given me when I broke up with my g/f a few months ago. My first week back was OK, I really didn’t feel any different than normal (normal for me, anyway), but this week has been a nightmare. I’ve had this constant feeling of anxiety. I really haven’t been able to work, even though I went Tuesday and Wednesday. I called in sick today because I just couldn’t face it. And I’m trembling, like I was cold, constantly. I’ve been sleeping OK, but when I wake up in the morning the last thing I want to do is go out there and face the world. And since I feel so crappy I really feel like bawling my eyes out from time to time. I have an appointment on Tuesday with a psychologist. I saw him once before I went to Singapore, for general depression from my breakup and a general lifelong lack of motivation and desire to get out there and live life (maybe from anxiety I really didn’t even know I was experiencing?). And I’m definately going to be talking to him about this. My reason for writing this small novel is really just to vent, ask if it is unusual or not for someone to feel relatively OK one week and turn into a basket case the next, and to get the usual ration of hugs and good wishes. Thanks, David Chamberlain
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My reason for writing this small novel is really just to vent, ask if it is unusual or not for someone to feel relatively OK one week and turn into a basket case the next, and to get the usual ration of hugs and good wishes.
Dear David, What you describe…..doing well one week, crashing the next is soooo common glad to hear that you have a psych appt next Tuesday, it does sound like you are living with alot of anxiety, so hopefully you will receive some help. Jackie ~*~It’s been a lifetime struggle for me to stop spending my lifetime
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I’m not good at hugs and such all the time LOL….but I wish you the best of luck with the appointment. Anxiety can be such a pain and it is great when someone is able to recognize that their life is so affected by it and reach out. I hope things go well! – Hide quoted text — Show quoted text -I’m 34 years old. My entire life I’ve been what I always called "shy." I’ve just never been good dealing with people I don’t know. Whenever I’m put into that situation I experience what I can only describe as adrenaline rush symptoms, that’s really the best I can do at describing it. Situations that cause this usually involve me needing to go somewhere I’ve never been, like a doctors office or something. Or calling technical support (I work with computers). Of course, any kind of confrontation, like with family, g/f, etc. The thing is this level of anxiety has never really interferred with me living my dialy life. I’ve always tended to procrastinate on things, trying to put off the anxiety, but for the most part I’ve lived a fairly successful life. Things started going downhill, though, very recently. I wrote to this group ("Need some advice" on 8/15/01) about my trip to Singapore and waking up in the middle of the night in a cold sweat, terrified about what I was going to be doing the next day. I survived Singapore, with the help of some Xanax that my doctor had given me when I broke up with my g/f a few months ago. My first week back was OK, I really didn’t feel any different than normal (normal for me, anyway), but this week has been a nightmare. I’ve had this constant feeling of anxiety. I really haven’t been able to work, even though I went Tuesday and Wednesday. I called in sick today because I just couldn’t face it. And I’m trembling, like I was cold, constantly. I’ve been sleeping OK, but when I wake up in the morning the last thing I want to do is go out there and face the world. And since I feel so crappy I really feel like bawling my eyes out from time to time. I have an appointment on Tuesday with a psychologist. I saw him once before I went to Singapore, for general depression from my breakup and a general lifelong lack of motivation and desire to get out there and live life (maybe from anxiety I really didn’t even know I was experiencing?). And I’m definately going to be talking to him about this. My reason for writing this small novel is really just to vent, ask if it is unusual or not for someone to feel relatively OK one week and turn into a basket case the next, and to get the usual ration of hugs and good wishes. Thanks, David Chamberlain
Robin http://www.geocities.com/reinventingrobin I need to take an emotional breath, step back and remind myself who’s actually in charge of my life. ~Judith Knowlton
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I’m 34 years old. My entire life I’ve been what I always called "shy." I’ve just never been good dealing with people I don’t know. Whenever I’m put into that situation I experience what I can only describe as adrenaline rush symptoms, that’s really the best I can do at describing it. Situations that cause this usually involve me needing to go somewhere I’ve never been, like a doctors office or something. Or calling technical support (I work with computers). Of course, any kind of confrontation, like with family, g/f, etc. The thing is this level of anxiety has never really interferred with me living my dialy life. I’ve always tended to procrastinate on things, trying to put off the anxiety, but for the most part I’ve lived a fairly successful life. Things started going downhill, though, very recently. I wrote to this group ("Need some advice" on 8/15/01) about my trip to Singapore and waking up in the middle of the night in a cold sweat, terrified about what I was going to be doing the next day. I survived Singapore, with the help of some Xanax that my doctor had given me when I broke up with my g/f a few months ago. My first week back was OK, I really didn’t feel any different than normal (normal for me, anyway), but this week has been a nightmare. I’ve had this constant feeling of anxiety. I really haven’t been able to work, even though I went Tuesday and Wednesday. I called in sick today because I just couldn’t face it. And I’m trembling, like I was cold, constantly. I’ve been sleeping OK, but when I wake up in the morning the last thing I want to do is go out there and face the world. And since I feel so crappy I really feel like bawling my eyes out from time to time. I have an appointment on Tuesday with a psychologist. I saw him once before I went to Singapore, for general depression from my breakup and a general lifelong lack of motivation and desire to get out there and live life (maybe from anxiety I really didn’t even know I was experiencing?). And I’m definately going to be talking to him about this. My reason for writing this small novel is really just to vent, ask if it is unusual or not for someone to feel relatively OK one week and turn into a basket case the next, and to get the usual ration of hugs and good wishes. Thanks, David Chamberlain
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